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{ five’s company // ch. 20 }

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“Do you need anything, sugar?” Herc asked you, calling you over the phone. You balanced your phone between your shoulder and your ear, trying to listen to him over the business of the office. “I know you were feeling sick this morning. Did you still go in for work?”

Your pregnancy had been up and down. Some mornings were a little tougher than the others. Laf assured you that it was all normal. Everything he had suggested had helped so you felt okay enough to come in.

“Yeah. I’ll rest when I get home.” You mumbled sheepishly. “Hey,“ You almost hung up, but then you remembered. “Can you get ice cream on the way home? And those pretzels I like?“ 

Herc chuckled, double checking to make sure he had his keys. "Course. John and Alex will be home a little later, but Laf will be home, okay?" 

“Mkay.” You hummed. Hercules smiled a little. You must have been a little busy. Your sentences were getting shorter. 

He was pleasantly surprised when you said, "Hey, I love you, Herc." 

He smiled, felt his heart warm up a little. "I love you too. Call the studio if you need me. See you later." 

“Bye, love.”

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It would be great if I wake up tomorrow morning and YOI season 2 were announced on the event tonight

It would be great if I wake up tomorrow morning and YOI season 2 were announced on the event tonight.

I’m really excited for the event, So Please, please, please, give me something to be excited about!

The round up number of fans that will be there for this event are not bad at all. I estimated at least 2000 fans will come for the live viewing at 12 different spots, and extra 300 for the main event. Two thousands and more fans are enough to announce second season!

Although I know that it’s (im)possible. It’s only been two months since season 1 ends, so the YOI marketing team are focusing more on small events and merchandising. Things that will return the cost of production and bring food on the table.

Still I’m excited about tonight’s event :)

Derby Day seems as fitting as any to announce I purchased my next partner. 

It’s been a pretty crazy year so far. I got married. I went on a globetrotting honeymoon with my new husband. I completed one of my biggest projects to-date in my career. I also lost my heart horse.

So many highs and lows.

I miss my mare terribly. I think of her always, every day. For a while I tried not to. I hid the pictures I had of her and banned myself from rewatching our old videos on YouTube. I scrolled really fast past her face when having to revisit older posts on my blog and social media streams. I just couldn’t look at her and be grateful yet.

So when my barn owner called me the week of my wedding and told me about a horse she had for sale, I tried to push that away too. It’s too soon, I kept telling myself. I had been back to the barn a handful of times since she passed. I cried every time with my people there. I’d sat on a few borrowed horses. I cried through my rides in the saddle. Nothing, it seemed, was making the grief easier to handle.

So I got married. I went on my honeymoon. I was happy for the distraction of family and friends and new beginnings. Then the excitement died down and I struggled to find the pace in life I was used to. There was a gaping hole where my mare had been. I didn’t know what to do with all the free time I had now that I didn’t have a horse to care for.

Somehow I still ended up at the barn.

And that’s when I met him. He was gangly but tall and sturdy. He had thicker legs than I’d ever seen on a thoroughbred before. He had no manners and he cribbed. He knew nothing and looked like a mangy fool. My barn owner told me this was Mikey, the horse she mentioned before, a  a 17.1 hand American Thoroughbred gelding by Street Boss.

He was so wildly opposite of my mare. He’s goofy and affectionate. Oddly enough, he’s very mellow under saddle. I bought him to be my next partner.

 I find myself crying often when I ride him. Sometimes I feel guilty for enjoying the ride on him and just his company in general. But I like that he gives me something productive and exciting to think about.

It’s easier to look at the photos and watch the videos I have of my mare and I now and remember the wonderful memories we shared together. Buying a horse to fill the void of the old one isn’t the answer. I know that. But Mikey is helping me move on. He’s reminding me why I love these animals as much as I do. And he’s encouraging me dream again.

Welcome to the family big guy. ❤️ 

hello! life update in the tags!

!!! How is this possible asdfjkgjdh ;;0;; It’s only been a month since I became active here and became MM trash

Thank you for all your support!! I’m so happy because I honestly never thought I’d get this far ♥ Also – we definitely have to do that art giveaway hhh this is such a milestone for me :D I’ll continue planning about it lololol *v*

Please give me a bit more time to reply to messages! As I’ve said before, please state so in your ask if you need a quick reply and don’t go on anon ;;v;;

Thank you so much!!! I hope to continue making more art for you ♥ Your support makes my hobbies a million times infinitely better ✨ I loveee youuu all – you’re all so special to me!!!

Happy happy happy birthday to the loveliest and most amazing guy out there :) happy birthday to the one who makes me so happy no matter what, to the one who deserves endless amounts of love and happiness! Thank you for always being so genuine and such an incredible, kind and sweet friend. Thank you for always being there for the ones you care about and thank you for never ever giving up! 
Keep working harder than everyone else, keep fighting to achieve your goals, keep showing everyone how awesome you truly are, keep smiling, have fun, live fast, enjoy the love people give you and never stop being the way that you are!!!
You give me something to look forward to, something to be happy and excited about, something to be happy about, you make me feel a bit better when there’s nothing to be happy about and for that I’m grateful. 
You are brave and beautiful, I hope to see you smiling and full of life once again very very very soon! You inspire me and I love you oh so very MUCH! There’s so much to love about you and honestly I can’t imagine myself ever getting tired of all those little things that make you so unique. You are incredible and special and you’ll always have a place in my heart! 
Happy birthday, Eren ♡

Hey y’all!

This is kind of a shot in the dark, but I was hoping to get at least a little bit of extra info here on tumblr.

I’m currently deep in research for a project for an honors class. I’m studying the lives and experiences of LGBTQ+ veterans of the US armed forces. 

I’m framing my project as a piece of narrative historical fiction. Meaning, based on the information I get from my research and interviews with veterans, I’m going to be creating a character and writing about those experiences, although from a fictional standpoint. 

If anybody has any information on the subject, i.e. if you know somebody, if you know anything about this topic, if you yourself fit this description, or even if you can help me out by sharing this post, I’d be eternally grateful!


Ziam night in.

More teacups

I kinda dont know why I bother posting any of my doodles I just end up deleting them half an hour later at the latest.

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY! I’m currently on my way to my hometown for the long weekend and I’m so so excited! Something that use to really give me anxiety was traveling because I didn’t have any control over the types of food that would be available or if I had access to a gym. I would bring everything that I would eat in a day for however long I was staying, I would refuse to eat out or eat the food that was made especially for me because I was so consumed with the thoughts that their food might be “tainted”. I worried about eating too much fat and not enough protein, I would never really fully enjoy myself on my vacations because I was so restrictive and wanted to eat 100% pure all the time. Sure you can eat cautiously, but food and life is meant to be enjoyed and it’s amazing the feeling you get when you do the things scare you the most. Don’t be afraid to do the things you love and love your life the way you wanna live it because the only person stopping you is yourself. I can tell you that I am such a happier person now than ever before because I do things that used to and still do scare me!

And then I knew (Jungkook x Reader)

Genre : Fluff (my first time trying that)
Plot : you met Jungkook on the rooftop of you hotel and he takes on a ride that you’ll never forget.

I’m currently in San Francisco for the holidays with my parents, to be honest the only reason why I asked for this city was so that I could go to the BTS concert. I’ve been an army for so long, seeing them performing in live for the first time was like a dream, I couldn’t believe how lucky I was. When I went back to the hotel I couldn’t sleep, still replaying the concert in my head. I wish I could meet them and talk to them, I mean it’s every army’s wish… I love them so much it hurts sometimes, knowing they’re so far away from me and will always be unreachable.
I decided to go to the rooftop, no one should be there at this hour. I took a big blanket and a hot chocolate, after all it was still cold at night. When I finally arrived, the door was locked, I took a pin and tried this trick I saw on tv, imagine my stupefaction when the door actually opened. I sat on my blanket, gripping my sweatshirt tightly around me, I didn’t think it would be so chilly. I looked at the sky, I could see some little stars, the city was beautiful from up here, lights everywhere and skyscrapers. I was so mesmerized by the view that I didn’t notice someone walking in the shadows.
- Excuse me ? a voice behind me.
I jumped and turned around quickly.
In front of me was a man, taller than me wearing all black, a beanie and a mask. I could only see his eyes.
- I’m too young to die ! I said quickly, trying to find a way to escape.
- What ? He said incredulously.
- You’re not going to kill me ?
- Of course not ! I just wanted to know if it was you who unlocked the door.
- Oh… yes it was me. Why ?
- I closed it for a reason. I didn’t one someone to come. He said harshly.
- Who do you think you are ? I asked a bit annoyed.
He came closer and took off his mask. Okay now imagine a fish with his mouth open, that’s exactly my face when I realized it was actually Jeon Jungkook.
As much as I admired him, the rooftop wasn’t his. I decided to act as if I didn’t know who he was, using my best acting skills.
- You recognize me now ? He asked looking straight into my eyes.
- No. My voice was betraying me …
- i know you’re lying, you keep looking away and you’re blushing. Which means or you know me or you find me attractive. I’d say both. He said with a smirk.
I was completely speechless… I thought Jungkook was a shy baby around girls and here he is playing mister know it all.
- For the record you’re not that attractive .
I’m really bad at acting, I won’t let him think he has the upper hand though.
- really ? He was coming closer to me, he was now inches away from my face.
He slowly caressed my hair and tracing along my cheeks. I wanted to push his hand away but my body couldn’t move, the fangirl was going to take over.
- So if I tried to kiss you right now, you wouldn’t let me ? He asked daringly.
I need to change my plan, I couldn’t continue with the “I don’t care” character. I’ll play his game now.
- Try and we’ll see. I said trying to act confident .
His face was now close to mine, way too close.
- I won’t give you this pleasure, you would enjoy it too much.
He whispered in ear, sending shivers down to my spine.
- I didn’t know you were so bratty honestly. I told him with a laugh.
- What’s your name ?
- Y/N why ? I asked unsure.
- Let’s go out.
- You mean now ? It was 2 am and I didn’t even know the city that well.
- Yes now. You come or not ?
Should i go with him ? No, it’s stupid, plus you don’t know him. It’s Jungkook though, your idol crush since high school, it’s like a one time chance. Totally reckless. You shouldn’t go… but I want to.
- Okay…
- i knew you would say yes. He said with a triumphant smile.
We waited for the elevator to come, we didn’t talk, I looked at him more closely. He had some pimples and his eyes were tired, probably from the concert and everything. It makes him seem more real somehow.
He looked so young… maybe his confidence was only a facade. I wanted to know him, like the real Jungkook.
We arrived at the parking, I followed him blindly not knowing where we were going. Suddenly we stopped in front of a beautiful BMW motorcycle.
- Is it yours ? I asked incredulously.
- Of course not.
- Then what are you doing ?
He didn’t reply and started playing with the controls and some cables I didn’t know were there. I’m pretty sure what he’s doing is illegal, i was about to tell him to stop when I heard the roaring of the motor.
- Climb on. He said.
- Jungkook you know how to drive that ?
- Of course I do. It’s not that complicated.
Please don’t let us die… I climbed on, it’s now or never. He took my arms and put them around his waist.
- Hold on tight.
- Jungkook I’m not really sure about
- Trust me. He said with a calm voice.
I don’t why but somehow I didn’t question him any further and let my head rest on his back. He was warm.
He definitely didn’t go easy on the accelerator… I only wore a sweatshirt and let me tell you, I was freezing. I hold him even tighter. He seems to interpret it differently and I could see a small smirk forming on his face. I was just cold, it has nothing to do with the fact that he was attractive.
The city was beautiful at night, all the lights from the buildings and the cars in the streets. There was music everywhere from the clubs and bars, people were laughing loudly and I could smell the alcohol in the air. We were leaving the city… where was he taking me exactly ?

Jungkook POV

I have no idea what I’m doing right now… I remember going back to the hotel after the concert, I was tired but somehow I couldn’t sleep. So I decided to go to the rooftop, they gave me the key so I could be left alone. Imagine my surprise when the door was already open. I was ready to shout at the intruder and tell him to leave when I spotted this girl sitting on a blanket. She looked small and cold, I slowly step forward, she had beautiful hair. I always had that thing about long hair, I wanted to run my hand through it.
She didn’t notice me, when she turned around I could clearly see her face. She was really pretty… I couldn’t stop looking at her. Stop Jungkook, don’t let your guards down you need to have the upper hand here. Next thing I know I was caressing her face, it was so soft… I wanted to kiss her everywhere. She knew who I was, I know it. But she didn’t over react, she played with me (and obviously lost) but kept her cool, a little more confidence and she could totally dominate me. Not that I would mind really. I’m actually pretty shy inside, i never had a girlfriend before, I just realized most girls are the same. They easily fall for my natural charms. I wanted to do something crazy tonight, and I wanted to do it with that girl. The motorcycle thing was a total bluff, I saw a guy doing it in a movie and tried to see if it actually worked. When I said I knew how to drive it, i kind of lied… I mean I drove a Vespa once, I guess it couldn’t be that different. Somehow I liked feeling her arms tightly around me. She smelled nice too like vanilla and fresh oranges. I remember that place I went in San Francisco, it was on top of a hill after the golden bridge. We finally arrived where I wanted to.

Reader POV

I heard about that hill, you’re supposed to see the entire city from there. We silently sat on a rock, looking at the beautiful sight. I was really cold though…
- Here take this. He said before putting his jacket on my shoulders.
- Jungkook you’re sure ?
- Of course. I’m a gentleman you know.
He gave me smile, he looked so cute.
- Tell me about yourself Y/N.
- There’s not much to say about me… I’m an art major (bear with me if you’re not an artist), I dance too since I’m like 5. I write songs sometimes and I sing a little, but nothing like you, I’m okay at most.
- Sing something for me.
I looked at him, we made eye contact. I began singing “We don’t talk anymore” at the hook he started singing with me. Our voices matched perfectly. At the end of the song we were both smiling widely.
- Tell me something nobody else knows about you. I said proud of my question.
- I’ve never loved someone truly. Partly because I don’t have the time to date and also because no one caught my eyes.
- Do you want someone ?
- I don’t know… I have my hyungs for now and it’s enough I guess. But everyone wants to be loved. Do you have someone ?
- No… but I did love thrice. What’s one thing you’re afraid of ?
- Losing my hyungs, or disappoint them or the Armys. I owe them so much, I wouldn’t be where I am if it wasn’t for all of you.
- Why did you bring me here ? I mean I’m a fan you met on a rooftop at 2 am…
- I don’t know… you’re different. I’ve never done something like this before. But it feels like I’m living a normal life again. It’s good, we should enjoy that moment.
He was right… nothing like that will ever happen again. An idea popped in my head.
- My turn to show you something ! I said excited.
- Give me the directions.
Few minutes later we were near the lake I’ve been to during my childhood. Not a lot of people knew about that place, which was surprising. The moon was reflecting on the water giving it a mystic vibe.
- it’s beautiful. He said finally.
- I love that place, I used to go there every summer, we would jump in the water and play with the ducks.
- In Busan we have the sea, I miss my hometown. I like Seoul but it’s more loud, people everywhere. In Busan it’s calmer.
We kept talking about our childhood memories, our families. Jungkook was really easy to talk to, he has some sneaky remarks sometimes but nothing too mean.
I felt like I knew him since forever.
- Y/N let’s take a midnight bath.
- It’s practically 4 am Jungkook.
- Who cares ! Come on don’t be a chicken.
At that I took off my shirt revealing my black lacy bra. He gawked at me for a minute.
- Stop staring and undress !
He seemed to go back from his daze and undressed leaving him only in his boxer. He has a beautiful body not going to lie.
The water was really cold but I forced myself to go deeper. I’m not going to back down. I saw him shiver, he was cold too. He looked at me weirdly, before I could react I was pushed into the water. Okay Jungkook you want to play dirty then let’s play. I tried to make him fall too but he was too strong. So I splashed him multiples times until he was completely wet from head to toes. He looked at me darkly and started swimming after me.
- Jungkook stop ! I screamed when he pulled me out of the water.
I was in his arms, holding onto him like my life depended on it. We looked at each other, he was frowning like he was debating with himself. I did the only thing I could think of and kissed him, he was shocked for a second and then started to respond to my kiss, his lips were soft against mine, moving in perfect sync.
We went back to the shore and dried ourselves with the blanket I had. When we put our clothes back on, the sun was slowly rising.
Jungkook turned to face me and took my hands.
- In a year, let’s meet again here, near the lake.
- Jungkook I’m not sure that
- Just tell me you’ll be there.
I got lost in his eyes. I wanted this night to never end but I knew we had to get back to reality.
- I’ll be there Jungkook.
We drove back to the hotel, when we arrived, people were all running around screaming. We went down to the parking.
- They’re looking for me … said Jungkook.
- You should go …
- Yes I should.
He took my face in his hands and put his lips on mine. The kiss was full of passion and longing. Like a goodbye kiss.
- I’ll see you again Y/N.
- Don’t forget me Kookie.
He smiled at this nickname and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
- Never.
He turned around and then he was gone. I slowly went back to my room, thinking back to what had happened, not quite believing it.

1 year later

Jungkook POV

I never forget about that night, I got scolded pretty hard after that. I never told the hyungs what really happened. I wanted it to be our secret. I thought of her a lot, wondering what she was doing, if she was okay. Maybe it’s love… I don’t know. Promotions after promotions I was getting tired, I couldn’t find any inspiration and i lacked motivation. All the members were wondering what had changed. When summer came, I decided to take a break from the group and went to the USA. The day I was waiting for was finally here. Maybe she had forgotten… maybe she found someone else… I pushed those thoughts away and went to the lake. It was dark and I couldn’t see clearly. No one.
I called her name but I heard nothing in return. I walked around the lake hoping for someone that might never come.
Suddenly i felt a tap on my shoulder , I turned around and
- Jungkook ? She had the same beautiful voice, tears were prickling in her eyes.
- Y/N. I said not trusting my voice to say more.
I took her in my arms and held her tightly, she smelled like I remembered, vanilla and oranges.
- I missed you so much. She said slowly.
- I missed you too. I thought about you everyday.
She took me by the hand and let me to a small house behind some trees. It was simple and cute.
- You must be tired …. there’s a guest room at the end of the corridor.
- Thanks, I’m leaving tomorrow anyway, I have to go back to Korea.
- Oh… yeah I understand.
I could feel the sadness in her voice. I kissed her lips softly, enjoying the feeling that I had forgotten. I felt new again.
The next morning I woke up with Y/N next to me… she must have come during the night. I watched her sleep, she was beautiful, so peaceful. I took a picture with my phone wanting to catch the moment.
That seemed to have woken her up.
- Oh Jungkook I’m sorry, it was storming last night and I was scared so I went here and
- Shush it’s fine Y/N, I like sleeping next you. I said with a smile before kissing her shoulder going her up to her neck.
We spend the morning cuddling and talking about our lives and our dreams. It felt so good to have her back in my life.
- Why did you come back Y/N ?
- Because you asked me to… and because I couldn’t stop thinking about you.
- I never thought I would get attached to someone so quickly. I said honestly.
- Me neither… you’re special Jungkook.
I looked at her and saw care and utmost affection. At that moment i knew I had made the right decision taking her on a bike ride a year ago.
But I had to go back to Korea. I asked for 1 month and it was soon over.
We walked along the lake, enjoying the sun. It felt like we never parted in the first place.
- Jungkook go before you miss your flight. She said with a small smile.
- Y/N come with with me.
- What ?
- Come with me to Seoul. I could arrange everything. Just don’t leave me again. I said, my voice was going weak.
She looked at me, completely lost.
- I can’t Jungkook.
She said before turning her back to me … no no I couldn’t let her go. Not now not never.
- Y/N i love you ! Come with me… I love you so much.
Tears were running down my face but I didn’t care. I wanted her to know.
She turned around and jumped into my arms.
- I’ll come with you. She said burying her face in my neck.

Reader POV

That’s when I knew. I fell in love with Jeon Jungkook.

anonymous asked:

So Zuko and Mai were never originally supposed to be a couple, so what was Ehasz going to do with Mai's character I doubt he'd have them kiss and everything, what would Mai be for Zuko in Ehasz's eyes?

We saw in Book 2 that Mai liked Zuko, but it didn’t seem like he had a crush on her back. He didn’t look at her. The crush was shown to the audience, but Zuko did not see Mai. He probably didn’t know she even liked him. This is a flashback devoted to Zuko’s memories; if he had such strong feelings for Mai, they would have shown that if it was supposed to be important later. All they showed was Mai blushing. I don’t think they seemed like close friends. Zuko didn’t play with his sister until Ursa forced him. I doubt he knew Mai very well other than the fact that she was Azula’s friend.

When Azula recruited Mai, she seemed intrigued by seeing him again since she liked him as a kid, but she was not upset at the thought of hunting him as a traitor. She had the same level of reaction as Ty Lee did. And Ty Lee and Zuko are not close friends. This seemed to indicate she doesn’t know him well and probably hasn’t seen him since they were kids. She had a secret crush on Zuko as a kid, but they probably barely spoke in their lives. The fact that he’s cute is more pressing in her mind than the fact that he’s a traitor who is going to be imprisoned. Since she thought he was attractive that helps give her something that finally alleviates her boredom and gives her something to be excited about. But to me she didn’t seem like she knew him well.

When Zuko comes back, she just wants to approach him like a normal teenage boy to date and have a typical relationship with. She’s probably dated normal upper-class teen guys before like Ruon Jian or Chan, where they casually hang out, have fun, go to parties, and don’t mind kissing right away. Mai is definitely more of a normal teen girl and her idea of relationships is on the shallow side. They don’t know each other well, but Mai wants to go out with him since he’s attractive and he has perks as royalty. As a typical teen girl, that’s really exciting to her. But she is not interested in discussing deep feelings with a boyfriend, though. Mai is like the Avatar-world equivalent of like a stereotypical Beverly Hills teen. She wants to go shopping and party. Zuko would not be able to relate to her.

She’d be like the foil to Jin. A girl who he doesn’t know well, who really pursues him and wants to be in a normal dating relationship with him. But Jin is poor and sweet and humble and really wanted to get to know him and he liked her. Mai is rich and insensitive and doesn’t really wanna know about his life and Zuko doesn’t like her. I think that’s why they originally gave him such a nice date right before he went home to Mai. To contrast the Earth Kingdom to the Fire Nation. And we see how passive Zuko was with Jin. He’d be similar with Mai. He gives in to her advances because he’s really awkward, depressed and lonely and doesn’t know how to stand up for himself. He would avoid confrontation, especially with a girl who is pursuing him romantically. He just let her kiss him on the boat even though he looked annoyed with her. But he doesn’t say anything and the kiss was awkward.

I don’t think they were supposed to be in a serious relationship. Mai would try to date him and pressure him to be normal and just have fun with her, but he’d be in no position for that and he’d have emotional walls up with her. I don’t think Zuko would really like Mai the way he did with Jin and whatever “relationship” they had would end after Zuko leaves the palace. I don’t think Mai would be heartbroken about this. She’d be disappointed but more confused since they had only known each other for a few weeks and she doesn’t really understand Zuko or his motives. But she might still save him at the Boiling Rock. Not because of their relationship, but just because she isn’t a totally horrible person. Maybe she wasn’t in love or able to really have a deep connection with him, but she cares about him in her own way and doesn’t want him to die. They wouldn’t need to get back together but it would have made her more cool. Then in Book 4 she and Ty Lee could have been developed more.

on second thought I probably should’ve looked up how to do lineless before I tried it 

god im so fucking angry. 

my dad doesn’t fucking give a shit to understandthe bare minimum of how depression works

he lectures me for being lazy and having no meaning in life

he told me hes not happy that im alive because im not “doing anything” 

he fucking told me to “give your life meaning. get excited about something” lol sorry but nothing excites me and my life has no meaning thats HOW DEPRESSION WORKS. 

then just to shut him up i told him the one thingthat gives my life the tiniest bit of meaningwhich was get my boyfriend carmine here andmove in with him and make a future and my dad was like “no he cant comehere, i dont care if hes paying rent and helping around, until you do something with your life he cant come’ 

????? sincemy dad demands i get a purpose in life, i get one, and then shoots it down??? “get a purpose in your life but NO NOT THAT ONE”

god im so angry and tired i just want to fucking die this is so exhausting. maybe he’d be fuckinghappier if he didn’t have to dealwith me and i was dead and he only had to deal with his fucking recovering drug addict, serial child rapist son. 



After working on this on and off since, what, March? I’m happy to finally announce my fun, thrilling, and exciting RPG Maker side project that gives me something simpler to work on while learning Unity for Andromi. Its working title is

Super Lesbian Animal RPG

That’s right! Instead of letting SLHRPG’s status as a fangame that Hasbro doesn’t approve of force it into obscurity forever, I’m doing what I always said I would do: replacing all the copyrighted characters with original ones, giving me more creative freedom both on this game and with potential future projects involving these characters. And while I’m at it, I’m expanding and improving upon every aspect of the game. A refined story, improved graphics, a bit more player choice, new areas to explore, the works

And these are the game’s new main protagonists:

Melody is a kindhearted trans fox who lives out in the woods. She recently became a paladin so that she could keep her girlfriend healed while out on dangerous adventures, but she’s worried that her anxieties will keep her from being as helpful as she’d like. She’s just gotta try and stay positive. Melody’s doing her best, okay?

Allison is an adventurous and strong rabbit who’s dating Melody. She just wants to fight monsters and hang out with her girlfriend. She can be a little overbearing, and people say she loves the sound of her own voice, but she’s always reliable when it counts. She also depends on Melody a lot more than she’d like to admit

Claire is a trans cow and the leader of the bunch. She has extensive knowledge of witchcraft–possibly too much for her own good. In spite of her sometimes intimidating know-it-all persona, she’s trying to prove she’s a good friend. Unfortunately, building dangerous, monster-filled dungeons to test her friends’ skills doesn’t really help her case

The game will be releasing sometime in 2016 2017, and until then I’ll post regular updates on my blog in the #SLARPG tag