You ever have one of those days where you just don’t feel like you fit anywhere? Yeah…it’s been kinda like that for me today. I’ve been fucked up for a few days now and I think I’m hitting that point of just kinda drifting along.
This is going to sound super basic, but I’m waiting for something special or exciting to happen. Something to give me a big push in some direction or another. Instead all that’s happened is that I’m more self conscious than I’ve been in a long time, I become disgusted with myself when I get hungry or eat, and for the most part my confidence is in the dirt.
On the positive side of things, I’ll probably be getting more hours at work sooner rather than later, which means I’ll be getting paid the most I’ve ever made in my life, so in that regard, it’s great. It’s nice to have a job that involves so much driving because I’m able to lose myself and get out of my head.
Also, someone cared enough to ask if Heavy is the Head was getting an update soon. It is! I know it’s been weeks now, but I’m finally getting stable enough to do things. Maybe tomorrow?
Guess that’s about as much of an update as I can muster. I’m exhausted, lightheaded, and not doing so good. I was going to make dinner but my Aunt bothered me and I opted to just drink water. So it’s time for sleep…or a game…or reblogging smut on my NSFW blog. Cheers!