Hey, I was just wondering how you know you are connecting with your god/ess and whether you can "choose" them through research and being attracted to there stories?
Hello, Anon! When you’re just starting out, I gotta say it’s gonna feel a bit like a leap of faith “knowing” that you’re connecting with your god/dess. I’m just thinking back to my own experience here, and well, I’ll be honest, I laughed until I cried when I first considered the possibility that I might actually be able to converse and interact with these beings I once considered story characters. It seemed ridiculous. I was certain I was making it all up at first.
I’m going to tell you right now that “knowing” didn’t come as a slap on the face. It was subtle, yet distinctly “something,” like seeing a deer moving slowly in thick woodland, almost camouflaged but not quite if you’re really paying attention. Basically, I asked for omens and relied on my gut (I’ve always had a good intuition, so that came in handy). It was tricky though. I had to learn fast to be critical and not assume everything ever was an omen.
Something that is really, really important (in my experience) is finding a god/dess who is willing to work with you. This ties into your second question of whether or not you can “choose” them through research and attraction. You’ll get different answers about this depending who you ask. Personally, since you’re asking for my opinion? I don’t think you can choose. Tempt and bribe, maybe. But you can’t force something that isn’t “meant to be.” Like, you don’t have to think of this in the dramatic sense of Fate, but think of it like chemistry between two people. You know how there’s people you really like, even idolize, and yet nothing you do is going to make them like you? At least not as a close friend? Or heck, maybe not at all? Same thing applies here.
Let me tell you how I learned that. See, when I was a child, Artemis was my personal hero. Her myths were my favorite. I loved her to pieces. So, when I started out on the pagan path, I thought to myself, “This is going to be great! I’m going to worship Artemis and we’re going to be BEST FRIENDS.”
Well, um, that’s not what happened. Haha. You see, I spent a good month as a baby pagan trying desperately to “woo” Artemis. I got a really cold shoulder in response (not so much as a sliver of a positive omen). I was so disappointed. For a moment, I even thought, “Well, maybe this really is just ridiculous and I’m making things up. These gods are all in my imagination, so it doesn’t matter who I reach out to.”
That is when Loki and Hekate kicked down the metaphorical door. That is when things started to happen. That is when I was reduced to staring wide-eyed at the sky and whispering, “Oh my gods, this is why there are pagans. These gods really do answer.” I had never experienced that before. It was, and still is, so hard to put into words, but… suddenly, I just knew? The omens I asked for would come. The prayers I spoke were answered (albeit not always in the way or time frame that I would expect).
Anyway, my advice to you, Anon, is that you take a careful look around you. As a baby pagan, I was quite oblivious to signs and omens that would have told me who I was meant to work with long before I started calling out. In retrospect, it’s much easier to see these things, but it doesn’t hurt to start where you are. Give yourself permission to make mistakes. It’s okay. If you feel skeptical about deciding on something important (like who to worship), make a note that you need further validation before proceeding. The gods won’t mind so long as you’re polite and respectful.
And if you’re wondering what sort of thing to look around for, well, a good start would be symbols. Do you have a peculiar attraction to, say, deer figurines? Well, there are a lot of deities who associate themselves with deer. You may want to start researching into them. Feel a tug towards a name? A story? Okay, find out more about that deity. Do they have other symbols? Perhaps they are associated with wealth and you just happen to have a knack for collecting coins. Things like that can point you in the right direction.
She doesn’t watch her stretch in the gym because she’s interested in HER. She just finds her technique kind of interesting, that’s all.
Also she hasn’t been subtly asking Sam about Sharon’s interests because she knows the two of them have gotten closer. She just needs a few new hobbies is all and maybe doing things with Sharon could be kind of cool. Beats hanging out with smelly men all the time.
She also isn’t at all relieved when Sam and Steve make their relationship more official by announcing it to all their friends at a party. She knew they were dating the whole time anyway… more or less. It’s not like she used to get jealous whenever she watched Sam and Sharon laughing together or when she remembered that one kiss she shared with Steve. Steve’s not even a good kisser anyway. Been there, done that, will not be repeating.
And, on that note, she definitely hasn’t been day dreaming about kissing Sharon anytime soon. That would be weird… unless Sharon was into it in which case she’d just do it because she wouldn’t want Sharon feeling awkward or anything, you know? She’d only kiss Sharon if she had to. Right now, anytime, for any reason… er… any VALID reason.
Yeah, Natasha definitely doesn’t have a crush. No matter what Sam says.