One thing I have forgotten in the past few years of binging and weight gaining is that there will always be another donut day.
Let me explain. Today they ordered donuts. About 15 boxes worth of Vodo Donuts filled the kitchen counter. Any time today that I went to grab water, a snack, a piece of fruit, all I could smell was donuts.
And I got to the point a few times that I walked up to the box and wanted to take a whole one… no maybe just half… maybe just a bite…. or maybe one whole one since they have been sitting here and no one will notice and I should treat myself because food is not the enemy.
My dear friends… food is not the enemy. It never has been. It never will be. But emotional binging is. And one donut for me turns in to five. And today I was not actually hungry for a donut. I was not hungry at all after eating my delicious food (besides the broccoli. That’s not delicious but necessary). And there will always be another donut day.
So the lesson I was reminded of today was that just because food is in front of me, I do not have to eat it. Binges do not control me, and THIS GIRL’S GOT GOALS.