girl wishes

IT RAINED TODAY THERE WERE RAINBOWS AND I SAT IN A COFFEE SHOP NEXT TO MY SCHOOL AND WATCHED THE RAIN AND IT WAS SO NICE AHHDJDJJF I LOVE RAINY DAYS FIGHT ME

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i find it really interesting that keith doesn’t really let himself process/believe that krolia’s his mother until there’s irrefutable proof that she is, and not in a “haha look how dense keith is” kind of way. it’s like he’s objectively aware that people care about him but doesn’t truly believe it despite the mountain of evidence, which is imo pretty consistent with his characterization up until this point.

while i was rewatching vld before s5 dropped, i noticed the dissonance between keith’s line about shiro never giving up on him:

and how easily he accepts holo!shiro turning on him during the trials of marmora:

granted, his line about shiro never giving up on him comes well after shiro’s already overtly expressed his continued support in light of keith’s galra heritage, but the way it’s phrased - “the one person who never gave up on me” - suggests that shiro has consistently been in keith’s corner since their garrison days. yet despite their steadfast relationship, being abandoned by shiro remains one of keith’s most deep seated fears; he readily accepts what the mindscape shows him (just look at the resignation on his face after he steels himself) without questioning whether it’s consistent with the way shiro has treated him in the past.

so i don’t think what krolia said about not leaving him again flew over his head per se - it’s more like he shelved it away because there were more pressing matters at hand and then followed up with her for a proper confirmation because he needed to know for sure before getting his hopes up.

it’s just kind of heartbreaking because on an individual level keith is incredibly self-assured - he’s confident in his abilities and secure in his moral convictions. but when it comes to his interpersonal relationships, his conviction falters. he cares intensely for the people around him, but his awareness of that care being reciprocated seems almost… detached? he doesn’t process or internalize evidence that he’s cared for, but will quickly accept evidence to the contrary, even if it’s weak or inconsistent with what he already knows.

i don’t expect (or even want, lbr) keith’s abandonment issues to be resolved overnight, but i do hope his reunion with his mother helps him make some strides towards overcoming them and truly realizing that he’s loved.

p.s. this is in no way meant to shade humourous posts about keith’s response (or lack thereof) to krolia resolving not to leave him again since they clearly don’t come from a place of malice, i just think it’s an interesting subject to explore on a character level as well!

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Raina, Nana, Lizzy, Kaeun and former member Jooyeon in pre-wedding pictures for Jungah’s wedding. 💖
- “When it comes to loyalty, it’s After School! Despite all their busy schedules, Joo Yeon, Raina, Nana, Lizzy, and Kaeun showed up for a bridesmaid pictorial. I’m so thankful for them. The other members couldn’t make it, but I understand ^^ I will forever be a good friend to you girls ^^ But wow, we’re all so pretty. It’s hard to find a combination of people like this! Jung Chang Young’s so lucky to have such beautiful sisters-in-law.”