girl crushin'

The Crush Dictionary

Many years ago I developed a dictionary for classifying crushes into organized categories.  
These categories are represented by milkshake flavors.

Chocolate Milk:  To have a significant crush on one person in particular and not know if the crush is reciprocated. 

Blueberry - To have a small crush but consider it more of a fondness and nothing significant.

Strawberry - To have a crush on two people at the same time.


Raspberry - To have a crush on three or more people at the same time.

Dark Chocolate - To have an all-consuming crush that is potentially unhealthy. 

Banana - To be aware that your crush is unrequited but continue to have the crush regardless. 

Peach - To live in a state of denial, pretending you do not have a crush. 

Plum - To have a crush that is reciprocated but not in the form of a committed relationship.

Vanilla - To have a committed relationship with your reciprocated crush.


Organic - To have a crush which you prefer to regard as a platonic attraction rather than a romantic one.


Plain - To not have a crush on anyone.

Smoothie blend - A combination of flavors.                                                         For example: A blueberry-raspberry-banana smoothie would describe a person who has a small crush on three or more people, even though this is unreciprocated.   

This concept is very useful for confidential conversations confided through notes passed in classrooms.

It can also be effectively incorporated into entertaining smoothie-making activities at sleepovers and parties.

first girl crush, thirteen years old


i met her in the dance studio one fall,

over a sea of friends in their heads, over

bored texting thumbs and messy hair

i’d never seen anything like her before.

i was young, i couldn’t imagine how

a girl could hold so much gravity

walk with so much purpose,

caress my hands when she talked.

she gave a bit of herself over to me

in every conversation, her bad jokes

tight hugs how she stroked my hair

when she hugged me after shows

she blew my mind,

how she could give so much light

to all her friends when

i could only burn enough light

for one.

she was so open, laying laughing loud blue

dress hair falling back onto the floor

she was everything i ever wanted to be



so what could i do with girls like her but fall,

after i met her in the dance studio one fall


i saw her again today,

dark hair in gentle, gentle curls and

her hands were cold against mine she

took my breath away by the steps,

soft light on her dressed-up clothes,

i was walking downtown in a haze

in the bathroom mirror i

trace my own cold fingers across my neck

just to feel it

i need change like i’ve needed to be near her

i feel change coming, involuntary like

the change in my pulse when she takes my hand

they say the first time i kiss a girl i love

it will feel so natural so right

they say her eyes will look like honey

they say when i look into them i’ll change

from a girl to a woman for the first time

god, i hope they’re right.

(but what do they know,

what can they tell me after all

i am not a woman yet

just a girl in a size too small.)

starbcmb  asked:

story time!! i'm in my high school show choir and we travel to different competitions in ohio and there's so many cute girls there in their pretty dresses and makeup and cute outfits after they perform and it's just!!!! like, my hands get all sweaty around them if i talk to them or whatever. once, my friend told one of the girls that i was crushin on her and i tried to defend myself but my voice cracked lmao ;; anyway, i'm not good around girls ashdkflf

OMFG THATS SO ADORABLE. What a pure and wholesome story, I love it so much. WHAT DID THE GIRL SAY THO

by the way any girl would be lucky to have you, you’re an amazing fucking person. And if it makes you feel better I’m fucking TERRIBLE around guys lol