I fucking love Gothic architecture so much. Gross demons and judgy saints hunching everywhere. Pointed arches and carved foliage. Fucking gargoyles and shit. Setting up the guttering so that the devil can vomit water on you. High cross-rib vaulting. This weird blend of the organic and the demonic in stone. All those oppressive geometrical patterns, the spikes and thorns, the monotony of it all, the way it’s such a precise miracle of engineering meant to raise you up to the glory of God but it’s so heavy and earthy that it drags you to hell simultaneously. It’s the perfect blend of the beautiful and the ghastly, the heavenly and the demonic, glorifying God with its high spires and condemning man with its enclosed vaults and I can never get enough of it.
i know y’all are trying to be nice in uploading the content from the bundles for free for the people who dont have the means to get it, but really i find it kind of fucked up. the whole purpose of putting out this extra content only available through purchase is partially to help raise funds so that carmilla can make a better movie as kotex hasn’t backed them as far as i know.
a movie they’re making for us.
i understand how badly some of y’all want to see this content. i get it. but once links to the extra content are put out there for free, why would anyone else go and buy it later unless they really just feel like being nice. essentially, in the long run, you’re helping to steal money from both the creators, the crew, and the cast and the movie they’re planning on making.
and i find that pretty fucked up considering the amount of content they have right on youtube for free.
I have nothing I am exceptionally good at without having to try or study or revise.
I love my music, I am probably most passionate about that. I am not a virtuoso composer. I am not naturally able at it.
I love to write. But I only ever get two lines of words, not even poetry, at most - maybe every few months. I am not naturally talented at writing.
I am good at maths. But only years of my mother shouting at me, I’m crying in the frustration of not being able solve a problem, and I have repeated the same two levels of Kumon 3 times to get it settled in my head. I am experienced. I am not naturally good at maths.
I enjoy science, and I understand it. I do well in my class. But only after years of sitting down after school everyday for two hours and doing two pages from six study books, when I was meant to be outside in the park on monkey bars. I learnt everything beforehand. I am not naturally good at science.
These are my best subjects.
I have no natural ability. But I will be damned if I don’t make up for it in practice.
I am a straight A student.
I am not naturally gifted.
But I am still good because I work my ass off to be good.