I’m right there with you. Sonny could’ve been played by an actor this episode, and nothing about the character would’ve been off. Which shows you just how personality-less they’re writing everyone this season. And to see someone like you who was once so passionate about this show get so disheartened is so upsetting and I just want to give our fandom a group hug!
Sis, you’re telling me?
In Season 17, I used to keep my Thursdays as free as possible because I wanted to have at least a couple of hours to work on my 2000-word episode thoughts. I used to be excited on Wednesdays, all day long. I used to stay up to watch the show at ungodly hours, and I felt it was worth it. I used to rewatch episodes all the time.
I used to type up ideas for my Barisi episode tags on my phone, when I was out running errands or when i was literally in bed, half-asleep, because I’d be thinking about the episodes 24/7. I used to write a (usually long) fic literally every week. I had so much to work with. Sonny and Barba were still people, back then. Characters with distinct personalities, and life experiences they’d draw from, and heart.
“I do not regret being who I am, being as open as I’ve been. And I am proud of myself for not apologizing for it. I don’t fit into any of the boxes that so many petty-minded little motherfuckers love to put me in, and I don’t really care.”
“He is so guarded, and he has his intelligence as such an armor. He’s really good at putting people down and not letting things get to him. It’s really interesting to see how he’s letting things in more.” - Raúl Esparza