But here I was, twenty years old, and I really had it all. And it was more or less handed to me. I hadn’t had years of struggle and deprivation- my struggle seemed a lot more to me at the time, but it was nothing, if not overdramatized. I hadn’t starved, I hadn’t really supported  myself before California. I’d had to be careful with money- I knew about work- there were no luxuries- but I’d never really suffered for my art. I was to learn something about that much later."