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These pages aren’t final at all, I just needed to whip up something to do some printing tests, but I figured I’d post them here anyway to offer a Sneek Peek into what I’m up to. So here’s a bit from the intro that’ll hopefully give y’all an idea of what the atmosphere of Isobel will be like! <-<;;;

Dear Charlie,

(TW!)

I self-harmed for the first time today. Everything got too much and I couldn’t deal any more and I stood over the sink and cut into the skin on my wrist. I don’t regret it, but if you asked I don’t think I’d be able to say exactly why I did it. I just.. I need something to feel alive again. To know I’m here. I like this song called ‘Using’ by Sorority Noise and there’s a part in it where the singer mentions how he started smoking again because he ‘needed anything to keep me breathing, to prevent my blood from bleeding’ and Charlie I relate to that song a hell of a lot.

There’s a lot of things going on in my life and sometimes its difficult to keep going when it seems like I’m hitting a brick wall in every direction I turn. I feel like the best way to describe it is that its like trying to put together a jigsaw puzzle. You’re trying to make the complete perfect picture but the pieces won’t fit no matter what you do and you’re pushing and pushing, knowing that you’re using the wrong parts. But you just want the clear, perfect version to be done so you can sit back and admire it. And suddenly the pressure’s too much and the piece doesn’t slot in quite right and the whole puzzle breaks and parts fly everywhere..
And I’m so so tired of having to pick up the pieces again and again and keep on trying to complete a puzzle that won’t ever be done.

Sorry for the ramblings, and thankyou for listening.

Love always,
Isobel