He asked me, “If you could have one thing in the world what would it be?” Now, you’re probably thinking, “Oh how cliché. Him of course!” But in all honesty when he asked me that, I really couldn’t think of anything. I let the question sink in as I laid on the fuzzy, red, flannel blanket with my eyes up to the sky, searching for the right thing to say; as if somehow the sky, or something out there in the universe would give me the right answer. Then. Something happened. A flash came and went within the blink of an eye. But in that fleeting moment, it was as if the whole sky lit up around it. Like the small twinkling stars were the matting around an expensive painting in a frame. In that moment I knew exactly what I wanted to wish for. It wasn’t him, it was never him. It was the longing feeling he gave me when he asked me that fateful question and I found my answers in the dark blue sky. I wanted to have that feeling forever. In that moment I wished, prayed to God, asked the universe, whatever that I could always be yearning for something more than what physically stood in front of me; more than something human. I wanted to have something beyond this world. Something intangible. I breathed a sigh of relief; I had made my wish well. He recognized it, looked at me and said “Well”?…. I looked at him, startled out of my existential daze. The summer nighttime air hung heavy with young love… and humidity. I wanted to answer his question, I really did. But all I could think about was the stars.
When I was younger, I was worried about how others viewed me and if I was good enough. I realize now that you can’t mold an image or try to be something that you are not. As far as being an actor is concerned, your work really speaks for itself.