gif: the rum diary

I shared a dark suspicion that the life we were leading was a lost cause, that we were all actors, kidding ourselves along on a senseless odyssey. It was the tension between these two poles - a restless idealism on one hand and a sense of impending doom on the other - that kept me going.
—  Hunter S. Thompson, The Rum Diary
Happy, I muttered, trying to pin the word down. But it is one of those words, like Love, that I have never quite understood. Most people who deal in words don’t have much faith in them and I am no exception – especially the big ones like Happy and Love and Honest and Strong. They are too elusive and far to relative when you compare them to sharp, mean little words like Punk and Cheap and Phony. I feel at home with these, because they’re scrawny and easy to pin, but the big ones are tough and it takes either a priest or a fool to use them with any confidence.
—  Hunter S. Thompson, The Rum Diary
…I shared a dark suspicion that the life we were leading was a lost cause, that we were all actors, kidding ourselves along on a senseless odyssey. It was the tension between these two poles—a restless idealism on one hand and a sense of impending doom on the other—that kept me going
—  The Rum Diary by Hunter S. Thompson
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“Acting is about pushing yourself to the absolute brink of failure, until you think, ‘Boy, if this doesn’t work, it’s going to be real bad. And if it does work, it might be great.’ When I’m about to pop my clock, I want to be able to say, ‘From this particular period to this particular period, I was solid and I was honest and there were no compromises.’ There’s always the chance that I’ll be out on my ear. But it’s a risk worth taking.” - Johnny Depp