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I’m literally crying… I’ve wanted this for 2 years… From before and after coming out I’d be dead if anyone found anything of mine that’s lgbt related… I could never find a digital copy online, and up until recently I couldn’t buy online.. But I’ve been holding onto everything little lgbt thing, music, books, movies, anything digital that I could lock away on my phone or pc… I found the children’s crusade at a bookstore once and had to leave it… This morning on a hunch I checked Google play books and it was there! I’m overjoyed here… These little things get me through every day that I’m stuck here.. Living like this… They make me feel less alone, less scared, less isolated… I don’t get see my lgbt friends since coming out, and I miss them dearly… It helps empower the word gay, I don’t feel degraded by it, I feel strongly about it, it’s a part of me, its helped mold who I’ve become… But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel alone… Ashamed that I’m hiding myself… Lying about myself… And I hate that, it’s constant hurt that makes everything difficult.. But a simple story with lgbt people, makes the worlds difference, and eases it up a bit…