I'm sending this to you because you are literally the only blog here that I'm confident I won't get a snarky reply. I know that of course, antis, the gp and some of the other family members have put down larries before, but what gemma said today really bothered me. I never have doubts about larry, but her calling us ridiculous was hurtful and confusing. Do you ever have doubts?
Mmm. You’d be surprised how often my first response is a snarky one. I don’t blame bloggers on here who get prickly when they get quite a few asks a day along the same lines. But that wasn’t your question, so let me get to the point.
I’m always amused by people who say they never doubt or question anything. In a fandom that is constantly yelling about critical thinking and the ability to analyze a lot of information with rational and contextual thought, the idea of never having any sincere questions or doubts that challenge the status quo is not only illogical, it’s ridiculous. So yes, of course I have doubts. Of course there are times when I wonder what’s actually going on that we can’t see. Because that’s the thing about this fandom, isn’t it? We all want to pretend like we’re on the level and that we’ve got eyes behind some sort of veil, but we don’t really. Oh sure, there are some with a bit more information and ability to inform the debate than others, but no one *really* knows the answers to most of the pressing questions that exist within this community these days.
As far as Gemma is concerned, she’s not the first or the only to do this. That doesn’t excuse what she said in any way, shape, or form. I find her word choice extremely poor and offensive and I find her timing rather awful, as well, but I’m caught somewhere between “that was on purpose” and “she bloody well knows better”. Her Twitter rant was, to me, quite obvious in it’s own nonsensical babbling about something she isn’t denying or confirming. It’s what happens when you’re trying to police the tone of the conversation around you without wanting to really delve into the truth of the issue that you’re trying to shut down conversation for.
What it comes back to for me, always, is that in spite of everything else, I believe Harry and Louis are still together. I believe if they weren’t, they’d both be finding ways to communicate that subtly to a very sizable portion of their fan base that they not only know exist, but that they cherish and appreciate, and I don’t believe they’re the type to endlessly lead those people on. Those are my beliefs. As far as everything else is concerned, from their individual solo work to the people they surround themselves with to girls and babies and beyond, I am a giant shrug emoji and I have accepted the idea that I don’t need to know the truth of everything to hold on to the truth of my own beliefs.
Not everyone can or will reach that place, but it works for me. It allows me to be non-reactionary, which is a beautiful, gorgeous thing in this fandom. Sure, there are still things here and there that get under my skin, but they are very few and far between. It’s a sort of reclamation of my own power to enjoy this place as much as I can, and I’ve really loved doing it. :)