get trapped with me

I need to get out of my toxic home, I’m slowly going insane. Please if anyone is willing to help me then that would be awesome.

I know it’s dangerous to ask for help on the internet because there can be very dangerous people online. But I can’t help but plea and beg if there’s anyone out there trustworthy and caring….that can take me in and get me away from my toxic house hold, please help me.


I literally cannot do this anymore, my parents guilt trip me, they threaten to kick me out, they only take my health issues seriously when I tell them I need to go to the ER, I have impacted wisdom teeth that are infected and nothing is being done about it. 


I keep telling my parents I need to go and that I could die if they aren’t removed but they just won’t listen. It hurts badly when I move my jaw and the only thing that I can do is chew ice to numb it or eat ice cream and wash my mouth out with salt to fight the infection.


They took away my door, are trying to force me into the military, threaten to place me out in a tent at winter, threaten to take away my only connection to my friends, they take away anything and everything that bring joy to my life. 


Then they wonder why I am so miserable. They’ve even threatened to take everything out of my room and only leave me with a mattress. They even threatened to take my dog and give her to someone else because I’m obviously not responsible enough and too immature to handle a dog.


 Even though they know I have mental issues and sometimes my mental issues exhaust me to the point I don’t want to do anything and my parents yell at me despite that.


My parents verbally abuse me and it’s only making me more and more drained to the point I wish I won’t wake up in the morning. I just really needed kind and caring person to take me, my cat and my dog in.


I’ll probably never be able to live on my own and have to be dependent on someone to help me since I mentally cannot deal with being out on my own. I’ll always need someone to be around to help me out, I can’t be alone… I just can’t…. I’d end up dead somewhere.


I just cannot do it…. I was so happy to be out of the house yesterday for a Halloween party but as soon as I came back home and even though I’m home alone at the moment… I was just… drained. 


Coming back to the house I’ve spent being verbally abuse in is something I’ve dreaded since I woke up this morning. I was thinking about staying at my friends house but I couldn’t because my dad knew her address and would have eventually come and got me if I refused to return home.


I have no one I can rely on. 


Please I’m begging anyone that can, please take me in. I’m too old for an orphanage and a homeless shelter wouldn’t let me keep my pets. I really have nothing to offer, all I am is an emotional wreck…..  you have to be VERY patient with me… there will be days where I just CAN’T do simple things like dishes or taking out my dog. Sometime the only things I can manage to do is get on my computer and talk with my friends…. or just lay in bed on my phone watching youtube.


I just really, really need help…


Please help me.


I’m a 21 year old genderfluid gray-ace, I have a female cat and female dog, both spayed-they are very loving and affectionate. My dog is a small dog so no need for a giant space for her to run around in. I’ll be needing surgery on my wisdom teeth, I don’t drive because of my paralyzing fear of driving.


My mental health conditions are:

Bipolar depression disorder/on-off clinical depression


Asperger autism

 
Anxiety


Panic attacks


Memory problems


Hypochondriasis -meaning I’m really paranoid about my health and if I feel even a slight pain in my body my brain assumes the worst like: oh it must be cancer, or oh it’s diabetes, or oh I must be dying!-  
Insomnia and selective mutism .


My physical health conditions:

Hypoglycemia - low blood sugar-   


my weak hips and my legs that like to pop out of their sockets 


IBS {{ Irritable Bowel Syndrome. }}  

Impacted wisdom teeth in need of removal soon.

My left eye gets a black shadowy mass over it at night and it’s hard to see out of that eye in the dark.


I know this is a tall order and I know mentally ill people such as myself can sometimes be hard to deal with, but please help me. I’m so trapped and my anxiety is only getting worse. I had to go to the ER a while back because of it and had three or four large panic attacks while there and legit thought I was dying.


I just need to get out. I won’t be able to help pay bills or anything like that but I’ll try to help around the house as best as I can manage. I’ll be trying to make money off of my art work… I just need someplace to stay until my friends can move out and I can go with them. After they move I’ll be out of your hair and you won’t have to deal with me. I would go to the authorities… but I’m too afraid…. if I can’t convince them of my parents verbal abuse then I know I’m heading for horrible grief with my parents. 



I know what they’ll do, they’ll take everything away from me. They’ll take my dog away…. they’ll never let me have my computer back, they’ll guilt trip me and make it all about them as they always do. Hell they might even beat me with a damn switch…. I can’t say anything about them to anyone around me because no one will believe me. The only way anyone will believe me is if I get into trouble again and I don’t wanna do that. I’ll be grounded for three weeks, almost until the end of Christmas if I do that and what if they delete the recording? I literally cannot do anything to fight back…..


They only way to do this is to pack up my things while my parents away and is live quietly without a word. But I need to let them know I’m safe and with a good friend and I will be fine. That way they won’t freak the fuck out and call anyone. I’m  21 yrs old it’s not like I’m breaking the law by moving out and in with someone else.


 If anyone’s willing to house a mentally ill 21 year old along with her cat and dog….. please contact me.


Thank you for reading.


{{{ If you cannot help, then plz reblog. }}

10 drama scenes I want to live in my life

I could have also called this post “10 reasons why I am still single and won’t find a boyfriend any time soon” and it would still make sense.

After the Notebook came out, thousands of women (if not more) wanted to have their own version of the kiss-in-the-rain moment between Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams. Well, for me it is the same, except it is not just one scene and it is because of Korean Dramas. Here are 10 drama scenes (and their dramas) that I wouldn’t mind live in my life.

The “I’m so glad you are back after a year of pain” scene from Descendants of the Sun…but to be honest I could live any romantic or bromantic scenes from the drama and I would be happy.

Originally posted by mile-ruichi


The “sit you up” scene from Oh My Ghost!

Originally posted by irrational-obsessions-gottcha78

The “we accidentally fell asleep together” from Pinocchio….or any drama actually. I am sucker for this scene.

Originally posted by lovingkdramasforever

The “back hug” scene in general. I love this scene a lot.

Originally posted by cola-kiss

The “I am passed out in a bus and you are looking out for me” scene. I mean seriously…you may look like hell but at least someone is looking out for you.

Originally posted by littlecloverstar

The “I am so glad to see because I need comfort despite us fighting” scene from Cheese in the Trap. This was one of my favorite scene in the drama because Hong Seol who was at her limit finally let herself go and live a little.

Originally posted by istanbuli

The “I only have time to kiss you before I disappear again” scene from Who From Another Star. I am not a huge fan of aliens but if they look like Kim Soo Hyun I certainly don’t mind.

Originally posted by manmeilan

The “ I am lonely” scene from The Heirs. Because no one in his right mind would say no to a Kim Woo Bin opening up his heart to you and telling you he is lonely!

Originally posted by dramafordays

The “Let’s drink a beer” scene from A Witch’s Romance.

Originally posted by kdduck

The “I have waited for you to travel 400 years in time to see me” scene from Queen In Hyun’s Man. My love for this scene knows no boundary.

Originally posted by doogeun

Bonus: The “I am literally in a drama” scene because let’s be honest who wouldn’t like to be the lead character of their own drama?

Originally posted by kdramastuff

accidental affection
  • send me ✗ for my muse to fall on yours and land on top of them
  • send me □ for your muse to fall on mine and land on top of them
  • send me ♕ for your muse to get dared to kiss me
  • send me ♢ for my muse to get dared to kiss yours
  • send me ♫ for your muse to catch mine singing in the shower
  • send me ♩ for my muse to catch yours singing in the shower
  • send me ♡ for your muse to drunkenly confess feelings to mine
  • send me ☽ for my muse to drunkenly confess feelings to yours
  • send me △ for my muse to get trapped in a small closet with yours
  • send me ❅ for my muse to cuddle up next to yours while asleep on the couch
  • send me ❥ for your muse to cuddle up next to mine while asleep on the couch

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) dir. Michel Gondry


“-I can’t see anything that I don’t like about you.

-But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I’ll get bored with you and feel trapped because that’s what happens with me.

-Okay.

-Okay.”

High-Functioning is Not a Compliment -- a Poetic Rant

You call me high-functioning because I can speak in words, and you say I’m articulate

But that doesn’t account for the times when the words get trapped inside of me, and speaking seems as hard as running a marathon.

You call her low-functioning because her voice is hard to understand

But she has just as much to say as I do; you just have to listen.

You call her low-functioning because you see her rock her body and flap her hands

But you don’t think about the joy this brings her, how satisfying it is to move to the beat of her mind.

You call me high-functioning because you don’t see me playing with my hands under the table

But you don’t know how much I want to rock and flap just like she does, how it makes me feel finally comfortable in my own skin.

You call me high-functioning be cause I can socialize

But you don’t see my constant internal prompting of what to say, the years it took me to get to this point, or the internal agony when I think I’ve made a mistake.

You call her low-functioning because she often repeats the same phrases over and over again

But you don’t see the meaning in these phrases, or the way she uses them to communicate.

You call me high-functioning because I can go to social events

But you don’t see the exhaustion that comes afterward, and the toll that takes over time.

You call her low-functioning because she melts down, yelling and banging her head on the ground

But you don’t see how hard she has been trying all day long to hold together.

You call me high-functioning because you don’t see me cry and scream

But that’s because I’ve internalized, and my meltdowns happen when the world becomes too fast and swirling and nothing makes sense any more.

You call her low-functioning because she loves to talk about one TV show, and hardly ever talks about anything else

But you don’t see how much joy this brings her, and how it has allowed her to connect and make friends.

You call me high-functioning because I can talk about things I’m not interested in

But you don’t see the pure joy of infodumping about my interests, and how painful it is to keep that all inside

You call her low-functioning because you knew right away that she was not the same

You call me high-function because you never would have known anything was different about me if I hadn’t told you

But maybe I’m tired of the sameness.

High-functioning is not a compliment

When all you’re doing

Is comparing me to her.

“I can’t see anything that I don’t like about you.”

“But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I’ll get bored with you and feel trapped because that’s what happens with me.”

“Okay.”

“…Okay.”

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
dir. Michel Gondry

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get to know me [2:10] Favorite Movie ♡ The Parent Trap 

And I suppose you just expect me to go weak at the knees, and fall into your arms, and cry hysterically. And say we’ll just figure this whole thing out. A bi-continental relationship with our daughters being raised here and there. And. And, you and I just picking up where we left off and growing old together. And… and… c'mon, Nick, what do you expect? To live happily ever after? Yes. To all of the above. Except you don’t have to cry hysterically

Things that I dream about hearing during The Talk™ that will happen Later™:

  • Vex asking how long he’s felt that way about her and Percy confusedly answering “Well, since the dungeon.” and Vex going “What, in Whitestone?” and Percy, even more confused, going “No - Stillben…?”
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film posterseternal sunshine of the spotless mind (2004) dir. michel gondry

i don’t see anything i don’t like about you. but you will! but you will, and i’ll get bored with you and feel trapped, because that’s what happens with me. okay.

There is one thing that I was disappointed about episode 11 cheese in the trap.

WHERE IS THIS FREAKING LINE THAT YOO JUNG SUNBAE SHOULD SAID TO SEOL?!!! WHERE?! *grabs writer-nim’s hair like In ha’s style

IT IS SO DAMN IMPORTANT. SO DAMN IMPORTANT!! Cheese in the trap’s writer-nim keep pissing me off

Communication between this two is so important and you dare cut it! Seriously?! I want to slap write-nim so bad rn

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Kol x Reader

Requested By Anon


“You have to be kidding me.” You growled into the phone which was pulled from your hand.

“I am assuming buy (Y/N)’s tone you’re on your way out to fetch us and she won’t have the pleasure of keeping me company?” Kol hummed and chuckled before hanging up. “Looks like my siblings are having witch troubles.”

“So, we’re stuck in here.” You sighed and walked as far away from Kol as the room would allow.

“You know you’re not being very friendly.” He chuckled and you threw an ornament at him, which he caught and set down with a short laugh.

 

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