I am really bad at my native language. And I think fandom had a big part in that.
When I discovered fandom as a teen, I found it on German sites, in a language I easily understood. But there was limited content and people were talking about the big things beyond, the LJ communities, scanlation groups, fanfiction archives and deviantArt to name a few.
I taught myself English through a mix of school lessons and reading fanfics in one tab, a dictionary next to me and looking up words. I was fascinated by the fannish world I found online, and that world? Spoke English.
It didn’t stop at fanwork. I stopped reading German books. I stopped watching German TV or dubs. I stuck to English media because then I could jump right into the English fandom. I talked to fans globally and while we weren’t all English speakers by birth… We somehow all spoke English when we chatted. It was just the thing you do.
Somewhere along the way, my brain got used to this. I got into the habit of speaking English, thinking English. When I wrote my final thesis in German and had my sister proofread, she frowned at me. “These sentences use English grammar. They don’t make sense in German.” I had to rewrite about a third of my sentences because my brain couldn’t come up with German syntax anymore.
Last week, while chatting with coworkers I mentioned the bad luck I had with my kitchen. A coworker laughed. I hadn’t even realised that instead of Pech (German word for bad luck) I had used the literal translation “schlechtes Glück”. And it keeps happening. If I don’t pay attention, I answer in a jumble of English and German at work. My coworkers tease me about it a lot.
Sadly, this doesn’t mean my English is any better. I am scrambling for words there too and not making sense. It is like my brain can’t decide what it wants to do.
I don’t feel emotionally connected to my native language. But it feels weird, to stumble over your own words. It is like loosing your footing on a street you know by heart.
Hello and how are you doing? Could you do baby headcannons for Jack, Genji, Roadhog, or Reinhardt? Or if there s/o was pregnant? Any of them are fine, your pick! The sweeter the better please and thank you! (If it's too much, I understand! I'm sorry but I hope you have a good day!)
It’s just four people it’s fine, I’m just happy to write!
•Almost passes out when you tell him.
•He always dreamed of having a family.
•He’ll do anything you need him to.
•It’s best for both of you if you send him to the store for you, he’s just really protective.
•Always by your side no matter what.
•Nearly passed out when you went into labor.
•Best dad ever though.
•Three words- Family cuddle sessions.
•Genji didn’t know it was possible so he’s floored when it happens.
•He’s still really happy.
•Set on the baby being healthy so you get to deal with him “helping” .
•Meditation is a must for you he want your pregnancy to be calm and nice.
•Asks Zenyatta to be the godfather. Zen doesn’t understand but says yes.
•Your kid looks radical, he puts the child in the weirdest outfits. (But you have to admit they do look cute)
•Shows baby off every and to everyone.
•If you’re gone you get tons of pictures of Genji and baby together.
•This man is a big softie.
•He will take care of you to the end.
•Massages, check. Medication, check. It’s 3 A.m. and you want ice cream, he’s already on it.
•Will read your belly poetry really soft stuff though.
•Belly kisses are a must!
•Always has a hand on you or has to be touching you in some way just to make sure you and the baby don’t get hurt.
•When he first holds your child he cries he’s so scared he’ll hurt the baby.
•But once the child smiles at him, his doubts are gone.
•Loves kids so when you tell him he cries and takes you in his arms only letting do when you ask.
•All the clothes he buys for the child have German sayings that you’re pretty sure are really sweet.
•Plays your belly music really stupid music.
•All I can say is big man little baby.
•Baby sling, all the way. This man will carry the baby while doing anything.
•Your child love holding onto his hand it’s adorable.
•You also find them napping on the couch together.
•Teaches the child German, and how to fight but he’s extra careful he doesn’t want them to get hurt.
(Also one from my mom)
(•Reinhardt teaches the child how to play baseball, because of his mean swing.)
The first pen pal I ever had I was 19 years old and it changed my life
forever. Her and I lost touch over a most unfortunate event - that led
me to a more inward state of my life. I’m here to reclaim my love for
writing and friendship. About me, I moved from Arkansas to pursue my
dreams and now am my own boss and I employ the most loyal and fierce
squad that walks that earth and we grow the highest quality medicine the
earth can provide, Cannabis. I spend my nights lighting bonfires and
fishing with the occasional consumption of drugs and it’s many
similar companions. Before any play though, I’m taking care of my 10
month old, Anakin. He is my light and the reason for my success. I’m in
therapy to enlist the help of someone else to put order to the chaos in
my head. Which is mostly just caused by the fact that I am unhappy in my
love life. This year, that’s going to change though! I’m very open
minded, and a good listener. I remember most things about people. I’m
very friendly and certainly a hopeless romantic. - Auch, Ich spreche und
schreibe auf deutsch.
18+, a PNW'er would be cool but otherwise is fine