genuine letter

Three years ago I was dealing with a bout of depression. It was not unusual, I’ve had depression and anxiety for almost as long as I can remember. But this bout followed my thirtieth birthday. I was not upset about turning thirty. I did not think my life was over or that my youth was behind me. Rather, I was in the middle of an amazing year full of the freedom that came with stepping away from religious oppression, finding my own faith and defining what that meant to me, and coming off of a year of painful fertility drugs and the decision not to continue treatment. I’d honestly never felt better.

And yet … depression.

I got that apathetic kind of depression where nothing seems fun or exciting or even remotely attention grabbing enough to pull me out of bed. I was just … stuck. I was missing something. 

As I do when I’m in a depression, I binged watched things. On a random Saturday, I stumbled upon Deathly Hallows Part One playing on ABC Family, likely during one of their marathons. 

“God I forgot how much I fucking love these movies.”

I’d seen almost every one in theatre. He-Man had read the books religiously (and even worked at a book store during the release of the first few). I knew the general plot because he is utterly incapable of NOT sharing things with me when he’s reading. So when the movies came out, of course we went. He fumed and fumed in his seat over missing characters and twisted plotlines, and I laughed and laughed until some random kid behind me loudly whispered to his friend “That’s the one that dies at the end” when Cedric Diggory first appeared on screen. (Seriously. WTF, you little brat?)

Rather than read the books, I’d spent time playing on Pottermore and the wiki pages learning ingredients to potions and the etymology behind the spells. I loved the world that JKR created, but I suck when it comes to reading fiction. My attention span (especially in my twenties) was garbage. 

So in the last week of June 2014, I borrowed my mother-in-law’s DVDs of the movies and binged them all. I laughed, I cried, I FELT something for the first time in weeks. Emotions. Feeling. Life. Magic. 

“I want to read the books now. I need to read the books.”

So I read them. I read several chapters every night out loud while my husband played video games. I laughed when he cried. He laughed when I cried. I did voices, and we argued over exactly how pompous Lockhart should sound. I gasped during parts that were not in the movies. “Why is Molly being such a bitch to Sirius?” “Wait, who are all these other elves?” “Dumbledore’s a shit. I’m glad he’s dead!” “OMG Tonks. OMG Fred. OMG Remus. OMG I hate this so much.”

And I loved it.

I loved it so much. 

I felt like an addict waiting for my husband to get home each night so I could keep reading. I begged him, “Just two more chapters. I’m almost done with this book!” even as I LITERALLY lost my voice in the middle of Deathly Hallows. 

Then, like magic, I remembered that the story didn’t have to end. I’d been RPing written stories with friends for two decades, and I’d stumbled into fanfiction from time to time. So I knew what sites to go to.

I read epilogue continuations first. I wanted to know what happened after. Then I thought, “I wonder what if …?” And I fell head first into the deep end of Dramione, Marauders, and a crap ton of Marriage Law and Time-Turner fics.

“I have an idea. I want to be apart of this. I think I have a story in me.”

And three years later, I have a life. A hobby. A PASSION. I’ve made amazing friends, rebuilt a really fucked up self esteem and sense of pride, learned a lot about grammar and story structure, and helped to add building blocks to a fandom that saved me. 

I can’t believe it’s been three years.

Thank you all, for some of the best three years of my life.

♥♥♥ Shaya ♥♥♥

but does everyone remember when we watched brooklyn nine nine bc it was a feel-good comedy with lighthearted humour? bc i sure do and i’m wondering what the hell happened to the writers during season three that made them want to hurt jake peralta, my sunshine boy, the light of my life, so much

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One of the most requested team-ups is finally coming to animated film form, as Warner Bros. and DC Entertainment are pairing everyone’s favorite Dark Knight Detective hero Batman together with one of his cutest enemies in Harley Quinn for a movie that is a genuine love letter to fans of both characters in “Batman and Harley Quinn” – the next installment in the long running “DC Universe Animated Original Movie” series that is based on characters and storylines published by DC Comics.

With the release of the new DC Animated film “Teen Titans: The Judas Contract” on digital media and coming to DVD and Blu-Ray this month as well, Warner Bros. Animation has released a nine minute sneak peek of “Batman and Harley Quinn,” with “Batman: The Animated Series” collaborators Bruce Timm and Paul Dini featured – both of whom have co-created the character of Harley Quinn and introduced her in the same show back in September of 1992.

The new movie also features the return of the voice of Batman himself in Kevin Conroy as well as Loren Lester – who originally voiced Dick Grayson as Robin in Batman the Animated Series and now reprises his role as Nightwing in the film.

- gmanetwork.com

Song Hye Kyo to Song Joongki: 

Joong Ki and I were first co-workers who matched well. Throughout the project, I realized that we had similar values and ideas, and I was able to share everything with him.
He was such a good co-worker and friend to me, so we contacted frequently and spent time to get to know each other better.Joong Ki showed me his self, trust, and his manners for a long time.I thought to myself that it would be good to spend the future with him and I was glad that he could feel my true emotions as well.

That’s when I knew that he was the one.

Song Joongki to Song Hye Kyo:

I was recently able to be part of a drama that made me shine brighter than ever before and I enjoyed the happiest days of my life because of your tremendous love I received from everyone. After the drama, I gained another precious friend who I shared my honest feelings with, and we developed a loving relationship.

At the start of 2016, we promised to spend the rest of our lives together by understanding each others’ weaknesses and helping each other through harsh times. So I will be starting a new life with Miss Song Hye Kyo through our wedding on the last day of October 2017.

I will become an actor who doesn’t change from this mindset and become someone who is a strong family man. Please support the cheerful encounter between the two of us.

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More Lucky Us doodles that I wanted to scan because my sketchbook smudges and I didn’t want to lose them :> Also I did elaborate backgrounds what is this sorcery.

Minor(?) spoilers for Chapter 16! I tried to do @geek-fashionista‘s descriptions justice ;~; Ladybug’s letter genuinely has all of the original dialogue.

Artwork ©: alazic02

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anonymous asked:

what makes people think Eric was a psychopath and what makes people who he isn't one?

Eric was incredibly intelligent, just like a psychopath would be. Not only academically intelligent, but he fact he was able to orchestrate such an intricate plan, like a bombing/massacre at his school, at the age of 17/18 is almost surreal. Many criminal acts from minors are not this well thought out. Usually there a spur of the moment kind of thing, but Eric was patient and waited for a whole year, to make sure this plan went successful. The fact that throughout that whole year of planning, he still kept up being a regular teenager and deceived everyone.He was known to be respectful to all his teachers and even to the guy he stole from in the January incident. He even writes (what seems like) a genuine sincere apology letter. Although we all know, that Eric was not remorseful at all. In fact he blames the victim for being stupid enough to leave expensive equipment and expect it to not be stolen, then says how that “fucker should be shot.” 

Which this leads to the feeling no remorse/guilt argument. Eric was able to feel remorse to some extent. He only felt remorseful for people he cared about (i.e. his parents). In fact, he urges his guilt about having to put his parents through this more than Dylan does in the basement tapes. This is evident when Eric tries to motion the conversation to talk about their parents in which Dylan says, “they gave me my fucking life. It’s up to me what I do with it.” In fact every time the conversation goes on topic of appreciating to their parents in the basement tapes, it’s Eric that brings it up.While Eric sees how much of negative impact this is going to bring to his family, it seems like Dylan doesn’t want to acknowledge it at all. Psychopaths normally do not feel any remorse at all. Psychopaths will see murdering a baby as just as a neutral act as sitting down in a chair. However, Eric was able to distinguish good behavior from bad, unlike psychopaths. The most remarkable evidence is the fact that Eric had a passion for animals. Psychopaths are known to abuse animals before humans because animals are weaker. However, Eric knew how to change his aggressive behavior to nurturing when he was around a fragile small animals. He knew how to be loving and kind to them, something psychopaths cannot do. 

I guess it’s up to debate on what you want to believe. 

I like her. She makes life interesting. She, herself, is interesting, I suppose. She talks right from the heart. I appreciate her frankness and I like the fact that she doesn’t force the natural flow of a conversation. There’s personality in her words. She thus gets to the core of things and that’s important because with her — I can talk knowing that the talk is real! Oh believe me, it’s amazingly real! And she also gives me the opportunity to listen as fully and completely as possible. And I can’t seem to get her out of my head […]
—  Virginia Woolf, Selected Letters

Originally posted by yagura

Headcanon Game

NEJI HYUGA

A/N: Give a special shout out to my best friend for this one, because she channels Neji so much better than I do.

Romantic

Neji is definitely a lover that likes to take things slowly, especially in the beginning of the relationship. In fact he can be quite the tsundere, which tends to hinder the progress of  your relationship until you can move him past that phase. He is a true gentleman, and will hold door open, pull out chairs, and be very chivalrous for you. He finds it difficult to get his feelings out into the open verbally, but he has no problem writing you the most beautiful, genuine, thoughtful letters of how much he cares about you. He has a habit of writing the most detailed, emotional ones when he’s away on long missions. He has Kohona’s title for hand holding, and loves simply being at your side with your hand in his.

Sex

Despite his slight awkwardness in expressing his feelings out loud, he is splendid at dirty talk and will not hesitate to use it to his advantage. He especially loves pointing out your reactions and thoughts while he is teasing you. He will not go all the way until you’ve engaged in at least some foreplay. One of his favorite activities during foreplay is to undress you, it’s sensual and sexy and completely turns him on every time. Quickies and partial-undressing do not interest him in the least. He prefers to be in a dominant position in bed, but he typically isn’t that rough other than having an affinity for grabbing your ass, and possibly lightly spanking if things are getting really heated. Sex is never just sex with Neji. It will be lovemaking, every time.

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wonwoo trying his best not to cry during their first win

it’s not that i live under any delusion that i might matter to you as much as you matter to me. it’s not about you feeling the same way, though god i wish you did. i’m not asking you to be in love with me. all i want is to be able to talk to you. to be able to text you on the nights i can’t stand the sound of my own thoughts anymore. to have you ask if I’m doing okay and believe you genuinely care.
—  a letter i will never send

setauuta  asked:

Mom, I'm at a convention that literally has this panel on the schedule: Ask a Fae! Do you have a question that only the Fae can answer? Or maybe you just want to know what fairies wear to the Fairy Queen's Ball? Our fairy writers will be on hand to dictate your message to the Fae with their magickal tools. A genuine letter from a Fae is guaranteed to be available for pickup Sunday morning (or by arrangement). So, on the scale of harmless to equal volume of spiders, how bad an idea is this?

I think the fae are gonna be pissed people are making money off of them and they’re not getting a cut. So. Spiders. Spiders all the way.

h e a r t b r e a k

it was then

with the dull computer light 

illuminating my face

that i wondered why so many poets write about love.

more specifically, heartbreak.


how could it be? 

is it truly possible for that many people

to have been hurt by someone else

that they thought would treasure them like a world

and instead treated them like a speck?


i understand, of course. 

i am no stranger to the way you heart feels

when someone who you look at like they’re the sun

sees you as …

oh, i don’t know.

the moon, the stars, something insignificant. 


then i thought, what if it is the pain?

the pain of heartbreak

the pain of your soul wanting so badly to find it’s mate

that it will see it anywhere and in anyone

who tells you they love you

the pain of

of what?


of something that doesn’t matter

and isn’t even applicable.


not anymore, at least.


-mo

So dcuniversewatchtower just asked me some questions about applying to grad school (school psychology or clinical psychology specifically) and I hope you don’t mind me making the answers public, because I feel these are questions every grad school hopeful asks and I would love to help out as many people as I can!

How do you think I should approach my professors when or comes to letter of recommendations? Is an email good or should I make an appointment with them? Any tips for applying to grad school? I’ve researched the schools I’m interested in and I meet the requirements except the GRE which I haven’t taken yet. My GPA isn’t excellent but it isn’t bad either.

Letters of Rec

  • Email is fine. Professors are oftentimes hard to catch during the day. But make sure the professor knows who you are! You may want to jog their memory by reminding them of any special projects you did for them, if you TA’d, or volunteered in their lab, etc. If all you did was sit in lecture and get good grades, the professor won’t know who you are. And you also want the professor to know you well so they can write a genuine letter. You can also let them know what qualities you would like them to highlight in your letter. For example, if you helped them design exam questions for a special projects, ask them to describe your critical thinking and attention to detail, and experience in teaching. The more you outline your letter of rec for them, the happier they’ll be. 
  • Attach to your email the following things: your resume/CV and your personal statement. The personal statement is important because they can tailor their letter to what your goals and aspirations are for grad school. 
  • Then let them know if they’re willing to write a letter of rec for you, instructions from each university’s application will come via email. Grad school applications aren’t like common app for undergrad; every school is a separate application. And on it will be instructions for you to fill out 3 or more names and contact info for letters of rec. The application will then email those professors, and in turn the professors will submit the letters electronically. It helps to give your professors a list of the schools you’re applying to, so they can check off letters they’ve submitted.
  • Send out your requests for letters at least 3 months before the applications close. This will give your professors plenty of time to write the letters. Professors are very busy people. If you approach them 1 week before the deadline, they’ll be very angry and most likely won’t write the letter. 
  • It’s okay to email your professors reminders as the application deadline nears and they still haven’t submitted the letters. You’ll be able to see on your application who’s submitted letters and who hasn’t. 2 weeks before the application closes, send a courtesy email to those professors who haven’t submitted theirs yet. Professors are just like us and will forget things all the time, so trust me that they appreciate your reminders. 
  • Be sure to thank them afterwards with a quick email or thank you card. And also let them know if you got admitted to any schools! Professors love to be proud of their previous students :)
  • More tips: make sure at least one (though all would be better) of the professors writing you letters of rec is in the field you’re applying to. They know what it takes to succeed in that specific program, so a recommendation from them shows the school you’re legit stuff. Also, those writing you a recommendation should have a graduate degree themselves. This also shows authenticity in their words. 

General application tips

I have a few on my grad school blog here, but I can jiggle a few more out of my brain!

GRE

  • Word Power Made Easy by Norman Lewis is the sole reason I did so well on the reading part of the GRE. It has fun worksheet-style activities that help you learn vocabulary a gazillion times better than any flashcards. I highly recommend it. 
  • When writing the essays, keep your words and sentences concise, and try to argue both points for the argumentative essay (have your main opinion but also be able to see it from the other point of view at the end, followed by a very strong rebuttal). And focus on facts; not emotion. Do not do what I did the first time and treat it like writing a novel and slapping all sorts of descriptive flowery junk to my sentences. 
  • That being said, try to pick up as much random factoids as you can. If you can slap in a date or name or a specific court case or historical event into one or both your essays, then man oh man will the graders love it. 

The personal statement (my experience is only in personal statements for science programs. so this may not apply to everyone)

  • Focus on your previous experience in the field to highlight why you’re a good fit for the program. This should be the main chunk of your essay. In undergrad we could get away talking about practically anything. Can’t do that anymore! The purpose of the grad school personal statement is to show the following: a) your commitment to the field, b) reasons why that particular school and program is a good fit for you, and c) what you can contribute to that particular school and program. Point A should be the most important, and talk about what you learned from that experience too, and how it expanded your knowledge and passion for the field. 
  • But of course also pay attention to the prompt. It may ask that you don’t talk about your specific past experience at all, and highlight other things. 
  • If you published any scientific papers, or presented any posters at conferences or showcases, be sure to include that!
  • Revise revise revise! Never send in your first draft as your final. Give it to others to proofread and give feedback. It helps the most if you give it to other grad students already in the program or similar as they know what works. 

Organization

Because every school’s application is separate and unique, the process can become pretty chaotic! Here’s how you can better keep track of everything. 

  • Make an Excel sheet with all the schools, and create separate columns for their deadlines and requirements that you can check off as they get done. This is an easy all-in-one place to check statuses of letters of recs and deadlines. Also helpful to put your usernames and passwords here too for logging into applications. 
  • Have a separate folder on your computer for each school, so when you go to submit documents online, you don’t accidentally send University A’s personal statement to University B. 
  • Some schools require hardcopies of transcripts to be mailed to them, while others are okay with electronic scans. Be sure to keep track of this. And keep in mind requesting official transcripts costs $$ and may take a few days. 
  • Back up all your personal statements/etc onto an external hard-drive, or electronic backing system such as Google Docs or Dropbox frequently. Nothing worse than losing all that 2 weeks before the deadline!

I think that’s all I can think of regarding application tips. As for your GPA, I wouldn’t worry too much as long as you meet the required overall GPA and science GPA (if the schools ask for it). Undergrad grades aren’t as important as previous experience for grad school. I got a C in 2nd semester OChem and I still got into grad school :) During interviews, no one asked me about my grades at all. They just wanted to know about my previous lab experience and why I wanted to go to that particular school. 

I think the most important thing about applying for grad school and even getting through grad school is to always have faith in yourself. Even if there are others who doubt your skill, you should always pay attention to your own voice first. After all, you’re doing this for you. This is your life. Not theirs. It will never be theirs. So this degree you’re seeking, this opportunity to further your education, to one day help others with your experience–this is all yours. And if you believe in yourself, and work hard to achieve it, then no one else can ever keep you from achieving your goals. 

I had an orchestra director in high school who told us something one day in class that’s always stuck with me. She said: “People were always telling me that as a black woman, I should be staying home and having kids, not going to college. Well you know what, I proved them all wrong. I got my Bachelors. I got my Masters. And then I got my PhD.” 

I wish you all the best, and if you have any further questions, or just need someone to listen to you or believe in you, you know where to find me :)

anonymous asked:

genuine question: if lesbians can use he/him can gay men use she/her? i completely apologise if this is in any way offensive!

it’s not offensive at all dw! pronouns aren’t gendered and anyone can use whatever pronouns make them feel more comfortable! :~)

Dear depression,

at least that’s what I think I should call you. You’re my invisible feeling sitting inside of this chest. Is it loneliness that causes your heart to feel stress? I feel your thoughts struggling to make sense of everything. I’d like to think that you’ve made my hands a little stronger because on the days that letting go sounds easy, I cling on a little harder like I’m afraid of falling into something I can’t stand up from. I haven’t had a bruised knee since first grade, I’d trade your sadness for a scrape or two. Wouldn’t you? I know that I talk to myself sometimes. Does that mean I’m crazy? They say that highly intelligent people talk to themselves, are they crazy too? I don’t know when, I don’t know where you came from. I just know that you’re here. Inside a hollow tree I’ve heard your cries for help. Poured into an empty glass that remains clear. There’s no liquor quite as strong as your worries. I worry a lot now. I guess I got that from my ex. She said I didn’t worry enough, so she left some inside of my back pocket. I read those little notes from time to time, it reminds us to be who we are when the time comes. Sometimes you’re not so invisible, sometimes I can see your smile on my lips. Sometimes you’re very physical, I still taste your tears closing in on my lips. Sometimes you’re in my head and I can’t get you out, does it worry you at all? Because if I’m not here, you wouldn’t exist. Maybe happy people all have a way to deal with their sadness, maybe the sadness makes us want happiness. That must it. I know you’re here when I’d much rather turn my favorite songs off. I know you’re close by when my words don’t sound right. I know you’re lonely because you’d rather hold someone that doesn’t love you than hold no one at all. I guess we’re all a bit deprived of who we are in that sense. I still try to listen to my favorite songs, just in case you’ll decide to change your mind later during the 8 hour shift. I still try to write where I may be experiencing a scrambling of memories. I still draw a smile on my face, just in case you might believe me. I don’t want to be crazy, I want to feel normal. What is normal though? Is it waking up with a smile on your face? Something genuine as a goodbye letter? I think normal means dealing with what’s in front of your face, you’re in my reflection, you’re on my mind, you’re in my chest, you’re my current feelings of gloom and if I somehow never get a chance to bloom, would I still call you my depression? I guess I’d call you something better. Something with a ring. Something we all want, but know we’ll never get. I’ll romanticize you for a bit even if for a second, maybe I’ll feel okay just for this moment. I think I’ll call you–
—  My second chance.

anonymous asked:

Once per week it happens... Steven receives a portion of the endless amounts of... Fan Mail...

Steven sighs heavily as he opens yet another letter from one of the many boxes of fan letters. It’s a bittersweet job to do: some letters are genuinely enjoyable to read, as trainers tell him of their journies, feats, how they’ve been inspired by him etc. Others… are just…. well, either boring, cringey, painful or otherwise indecent. He could just let others read and respond to all this mail for him, but the letters are for him. He’d feel bad and insincere if he himself didn’t at least read and maybe respond to some of it. His eyes quickly scan down the letter. It says the usual kind of thing: a typical fangirl letter. Once he’s finished reading it, he adds it to the “Read” pile, before continuing to repeat with the next letter. It’s going to be a long day.