Don’t. Don’t burn the pictures. Don’t rip the handwritten love letters up. Don’t destroy the memories that made you the happiest; because time heals but also brings regret.
Because you can’t go back & you’ll never have another 1st love. Years will pass & you won’t remember the color of his eyes in detail quite like you did. And it’s going to break you down because you’ll find yourself in bed at 2:10 in the morning trying to remember the way his lips curved when he smiled but it’s been too long & all the pictures you have with him are gone.. And you’ll start to think that maybe you shouldn’t have been so fucking impulsive.
Put everything in a box & only open it after you’ve moved on & want to revisit a time that was filled with genuine love & innocence. Because despite what you’ve been told, you can let go without forgetting.
It’s okay to trace the poems he wrote you in cursive with your fingertips, remembering what it was like the first time you laid eyes on him.
It’s okay to smile at the pictures of you two kissing; after all, his lips were the ones to show you how it was done- it’s okay if your eyes well up because you can still feel him holding your shaking hands. It’s okay if you laugh at the promise of forever that two kids made because even though it was too big of a promise at that age, it was admirable.
It’s okay to close that box & put it back under your bed or in the back of your closet to collect dust for another 6 months while you live & fall in love again & again.
You will always remember him, with or without the pictures but having them makes it alot easier when you’re no longer a kid & you’ve loved a handful of men after him & the color of their eyes are mixing in with his & all you want is to be sure.
When all you want is to remember a time where love was him walking you home from school kissing you on the cheek. When love didn’t mean doing drugs or getting undressed.
I wish I could remember the exact color of his eyes & what it felt like to be pure again.
Okay so I don’t think we can officially say Dan ‘came out’ (as gay, bi, pan, etc.) in his latest video BUTI do think it was a huge step for him. Several years ago he wouldn’t have even likely joked about his sexuality. Or if he did, he usually seemed pretty uncomfortable.
Dan being comfortable with the topic of sexuality is a good thing, no matter what sexuality he actually identifies with (or if he doesn’t identify with one at all right now) =^.^=
In the first Chronicles of Narnia film,
Georgie Henley’s reactions when she
emerges from the wardrobe into the
snowy world are completely genuine.
She was blindfolded and carried to the
set when they filmed the scene, so both
the actor and the character are seeing
Narnia for the first time. Source
Sensitive people are the most genuine and honest people you will ever meet. There is nothing they won’t tell you about themselves if they trust your kindness. However, the moment you betray them, reject them or devalue them, they become the worse type of person. Unfortunately, they end up hurting themselves in the long run. They don’t want to hurt other people. It is against their very nature. They want to make amends and undo the wrong they did. Their life is a wave of highs and lows. They live with guilt and constant pain over unresolved situations and misunderstandings. They are tortured souls that are not able to live with hatred or being hated. This type of person needs the most love anyone can give them because their soul has been constantly bruised by others. However, despite the tragedy of what they have to go through in life, they remain the most compassionate people worth knowing, and the ones that often become activists for the broken hearted, forgotten and the misunderstood. They are angels with broken wings that only fly when loved.
A quick and easy way to check to see if you have a pure heart is seeing how readily willing you are to give a compliment to others. If your first instinct when you see something nice or hear about the success of someone you feel constricted then know you have jealousy in your heart. If you genuinely feel happy for the other person and you feel secure with yourself it will be very easy to happily give a compliment. If you see traces of jealousy in your heart, train yourself to be content by realizing that everything is portioned with great wisdom. No one is going to take anything away from you that was meant for you. Realize the wisdom in the distribution of wealth, knowledge, beauty, and success. This will ease your heart, prevent you from eating yourself up and allow you to enjoy the beauty & success of others while feeling secure within.
Holdin’ On - original print from The Worship Project.
I re-discovered this song this past week, and ever since then it’s been in my head. I’ve learned that often that’s the way that Jesus speaks to me for this project, so when a song gets stuck in my head, it’s time to ink those lyrics!
I know that with a project like mine, there will always be people following, viewing each art piece, from the hardest season of their life. So at the risk of saying things many times, I want to offer some encouragement again.
In this world we all have trials, and things that we have to walk through - no matter how hard we might pray asking them to be removed.
Temptation is such a real struggle for everyone. Whether it’s the temptation to ‘give in’ to struggles with sexuality, drugs, alcohol, loosing your temper, suicide, lying, unfaithfulness, jealousy….lift your head above the waves of the situation and cling to Jesus’ hand - He’s ALWAYS reaching out for you.
Often the way through, is simply surrending to Him and accepting His help in our darkest time. I pray these lyrics from Stacie Orrico encourage you to keep you heart focused on Jesus - in every situation.
“Some days I’m driven by the things that I want, more than the things that I need. When I’m weakest, they sparkle the brightest it’s true. But they’ll never shine brighter than You. When my mind is uncertain, my heart keeps holding on.”
I’m genuinely ready for the deep, intellectual conversations. Not the ones that only happen at night, but the ones that happen in the middle of the day; in the morning. Where you can spill out whatever it is that’s been going around and around in your mind to the person that’s right there with you. I cannot wait to find that extremely special person. I know that they’re definitely out there, somewhere.
There is no more precious a privilege than to be loved without reserve or judgement. To look deeply into your partner’s eyes and see that, despite your many faults and flaws, you are cherished precisely as you are. Once you have known a love like that in your life, it stays with you forever.