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Genesis 26

Because of a famine, Isaac and his people went to Gerar, and fearing he would be killed of jealousy, called Rebekah his sister (a family theme, apparently). Abimelek finds out and orders that no one shall harm them. Isaac becomes too wealthy for the Philistine’s liking, and Abimelek forces them to move away. Later, seeing that God was with Isaac and his people, Abimelek makes a treaty of peace with them.

water where you are planted.

Genesis 26

Now I have been looking at this verse in the way that I had been taught by an old pastor. Looking at all the names of the wells and their meaning… this is all about strife and hardships, no room, and not looking at it as a blessing. Everywhere Isaac dug he found water, he found water in the middle of a famine even. If we are to dig every day for Gods truth we dig up the well springs of blessings God has for us. In John 4:13-14 Jesus tells the women at the well “ The water I give you will become a spring of water welling up to eternal life. If we partake everyday of that eternal spring we will never be thirsty. This is what God calls us to, dig wells so as to water our community in the middle of a drought. Continuously watering the people around us in all we do even in the midst of strife and hardships.

 Even after Isaacs herdsman were pushed out of the wells by the people he didn’t stop the watering he left the water and wells for them. This is also what God calls us to do. Water where we are planted and if rejected don’t stop watering! You might be the only well spring of life for someone you meet today open up your heart and offer your spice of life to who ever it is God is calling you to water.

Genesis 26

" So Esau despised his birthright" Genesis 26:34b

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted anything on this blog. To be honest, over the past couple of months, I’ve thought about posting, and then something always ends up distracting me. I feel like this semester, I’ve really given up my “birthright” much like Esau did. I was given this amazing chance to grow within a church, to find a community, and I began to shun a lot of it after some sisters and I got into housing drama. That coupled with how difficult school was for me really got to my desire to pursue my faith, and I , again, fell away, and looking back, I feel like I just gave it up without much of a fight. 

But as the year closed, I realized just how much I had been neglecting to feed myself spiritually, how I neglected to give my all in keeping my flame for Christ alive, and it’s something that’s really hard to admit. I supposed the anonymity helps on this blog, but I think that’s what I’m the most ashamed of from this past year. God gave me a chance with a new church, and I almost threw it all away because I was hurt by a couple of sisters in the church. It felt like the way I felt with my old church all over again — like the church that I was beginning to warm up to, beginning to feel comfortable with, was pushing me away once again. It hurt to know that I wasn’t valued as a member ( or at least, it didn’t feel like I was valued ) simply because I wasn’t as charismatic as some of the other members, or as social. There was a good period of time where I just stopped eating with my church members because I felt like I didn’t belong, and that there was really no point in me trying to talk to people who didn’t want to, or didn’t care to talk to me.

I guess, in short, this year God has really broken me. The night before my flight out, I sat in my room and cried because I felt the weight of the entire year crushing my shoulders. I felt so broken, so lost, so angry, so confused, so sad, so lonely. After finding out that my grades were so low to the point that I’m still terrified of being kicked out of my major, I felt defeated. But I think that that’s when God really reminded me that He breaks me over and over again to remind me to run to Him. He breaks me to make me realize that I cannot do things on my own, and that I need Him to help me along the way.

Like the song by Sidewalk Prophets says

Make me broken
So I can be healed
‘Cause I’m so calloused
And now I can’t feel
I want to run to You
With heart wide open
Make me broken

Make me empty
So I can be filled
‘Cause I’m still holding
Onto my will
And I’m completed
When you are with me
Make me empty

[Chorus:]
‘Til You are my one desire
‘Til You are my one true love
‘Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me

Make me lonely
So I can be Yours
‘Til I want no one
More than You, Lord
‘Cause in the darkness
I know You will hold me
Make me lonely

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I found this song on youtube while taking a break from packing, and it really hit home for me, because I realized that God hadn’t been my one desire, my one true love, my breath and my everything this year. I had been broken, but I hadn’t run to Him, and that’s what He had been challenging me to do.

Since coming back home, I feel like I’ve been running to Him more and more. It’s been about a week, and it’s a constant struggle to keep my head held high, and to keep trusting that He has a plan for me, no matter how bleak things seem. But right now, I’m working on rebuilding that relationship with Him, on making Him my one desire, my one true love, my breath and my everything.

So to the random viewer who bothered reading this long post and made it to the end, please pray for me. Please pray that I’ll keep fighting to run to Him, that I’ll keep fighting to love Him.

Bible in 90 Days: Regarding Philistines and Rebellion

So I actually am running out of time for today. So I’ll be making up a couple chapters over the next couple days. But its okay :)

GENESIS 26

The boys are at it again. Now Isaac is using the “Sister” move. Aye aye aye.

Philistines

In Genesis 26 we begin to the hostility between the Israelites and Philistines.

And Isaac sowed in that land and reaped in the same year a hundredfold. The LORD blessed him, and the man became rich, and gained more and more until he became very wealthy. He had possessions of flocks and herds and many servants, so that the Philistines evied him. (Now the Philistines had stopped and filled with earth all the wells that his father’s servants had dug in the days of Abraham his father.) And Abimelech said to Isaac, “Go away from us, for you are much mightier than we.” (Genesis 2         6:12-16)

Esau

Esau seems to live in rebellion and disregard for others. First we saw his disregard for his birthright. Then we see that he took on two wives from the Hittites. This completely abashed his parents because it went against the standard that Abraham had set up for his offspring.