TalesFromRetail: I found out my GM really cares about me.
Hi TFR, I think I’ve posted once or twice here before so here’s another one.
Career retail, mostly worked big box stores until last year I stepped my game up and moved to a higher end, much smaller store of 15 employees including the 4 managers.
I suffer from depression. Deep depression. Post history if you want to see that. Got really bad these past few months, enough for me to put a loaded gun in my mouth. I’m the one to put on that metaphorical mask and pretend everything is a-ok. But it had gotten to the point that every manager had gone to our GM (General Manager, aka Store Manager) asking if I was ok. It started to effect my performance, noticeably.
So I clocked in yesterday and was immediately pulled in by GM to talk. I had already expressed to her and another mgr a month ago that I was feeling down. For 2 hours I sat in there with her, letting it all out; the drinking, constant suicidal thoughts. She even told me about her depressive past, that even today she takes SSRIs and other meds to help her. At one point it seemed like she wanted to cry but held it back. Now you have to understand that I am part time, so I don’t get all these juicy benefits FT workers get. So if you are FT you have a 24/h hotline for mental health. She was able to pull strings and get me that benefit even though I’m PT.
So we called up the this service which is an actual health service company, not just some inside business for who I work for. So the company I work for was able to pay for 5 sessions of therapy/psychologist/whatever I needed to start getting better. It really meant a lot, I told her I didn’t want to get better, that I just am self sabotaging at this point. But I pushed through that and made the appointment.
This was all yesterday and I already have my first session tomorrow at 2pm. Thank you GM.