gay foster parents

My family knew I was gay before me but I'm not out

Ever since I was about 7, every time I would say “mom, I need to talk to you about something”, she would immediately ask if I was gay with a worried expression. I’d say no, of course not and she’d be relieved. From that, I knew I couldn’t be gay.
Ever since I was little my dad makes gay jokes at my expense. If I had a boyfriend coming over, he’d say “I thought you liked girls lol” in a condescending manner. Or “when is she coming” or “who is she” it was always in a condescending way. Like it was a bad thing. Even though my dad is Democratic and didn’t think being gay is wrong (I know this now). He was still raised differently to think it wasn’t offensive and off putting to a young child trying to understand relationships of any kind, platonic or romantic. He knows it bothers me so now he goes and talking about “the faggots”. It hurts and it mages it more difficult for me.

My parents always thought I would be gay. And they weren’t keen on showing that they’d be accepting.
I see younger people on the internet nowadays and I wish I had that. I didn’t want anything associated with anything LGBT when I was younger, I was already struggling and weird enough. It took me over 17 years to understand my sexuality. I spent my past teen years in denial and saying I was just a little bisexual.

But guys, I’m gay. I’m gay. I’m gay. I look at Stef and Lena on the fosters and I want that. I want the ups and the downs and the everything. I look at girl boy relationships and I feel nothing. I see girl girl relationships and I have a longing in my heart and in my gut and I know that it’s right and that that is what I want.

I honestly don’t think Adam will continue to be an asshole for a long time.
The Fosters deals with real important issues, including bullying, in general and in the family. But we already saw that in Cole’s case with his parents who kicked him out, and stef’s dad who didn’t come to her wedding.
It is important to show that not everything is well and accepting in the world, but it’s important to show that a difference can be made.
Think about all the people who might watch this show cause “they don’t mind gay people”, they’re not “some big homophobes”, they just “don’t want their kid to be”.
And it’s so important to show the process and the struggle of accepting and trying.
They showed a bit of that in Father’s day when Adam said it wasn’t his intention to bully Connor, but still we saw that Connor didn’t want him to know he’s going to the lgbtqia + prom
I really hope we’ll get to see more of Connor’s life and see the process cause it can help a lot of people struggling with similar things. And i hope we’ll get our happy ending with Adam accepting his son and his relationship, and that it’ll happen sooner rather than later. I do want to see the process, but i don’t want it to only happen at their wedding or something like that.
Thanks for listening