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Yo, a friend of mine made an amazing list about imortant and historical trans men!

A list of historical (and some recent) trans men since everyone likes to ignore the fact that we did in fact exist before Chaz Bono came out

(TW: transphobia, obviously, and r*pe)


• Hatshepsut (1479 - 1458 BC)
Hatshepsut was a female Egyptian
pharaoh, who went to great lengths to
present as a man, wearing male
clothing and a fake beard, took on
wives, and used both male and female
pronouns.
Though it cannot be definitively said
if Hatshepsut was a trans man or not,
a lot of the evidence points to that
being the case.

• Anonymous Man (16th century)
Henri Estienne wrote of a FTM man
who was burned alive for living as a
man, learning a trade, and taking a
wife. The man was outed by someone
who recognized him from their
hometown and when given the option
between death and living as a woman,
the man chose death.

• Jospeh Lobdell (1829 - 1912)
A frontier man and skilled marksman
who lived on the frontier with his wife
before being locked in an asylum for
insisting that he was a man.
Scholars used to label him as a lesbian
before it was revealed by his own
writings that he more likely was in fact
a trans man.

• Reed Erickson (1912 - 1992)
After inheriting his father’s fortune in
1962 and after transitioning in 1963,
Erickson launched the Erickson
Educational Foundation in 1964 and
through that laid the foundation for
several trans activism organizations
like the Harry Benjamin International
Gender Dysphoria Association,
Paul Walker’s Janus Information
Service, Sister Mary Elizabeth’s and
Jude Patton’s J2CP, and several
others.
He was also an alternate health
practices supporter and funded
research on homeopathy and
acupuncture.

• Billy Tipton (1914 - 1989)
An American jazz musician from 1936
to 1970, Tipton began presenting as
male full time in 1940, with only his
two cousins knowing his assigned
gender.
To avoid explaining his breasts and his
lack of package, he would tell women
that he had been in a serious car
accident that resulted in damaged
genitals and broken ribs that he had to
keep wrapped constantly.
No one knew he was trans until he
died and and it was revealed by the
autopsy.

• Dr. Alan L. Hart (1890 - 1962)
An American physician, radiologist,
TB researcher, writer and novelist.
Alan L. Hart was one of the first trans
men to have a hysterectomy and a
gonadectomy in the US and his
research on TB detection saved
thousands of lives.
He presented as a boy as a child and
was encouraged by his grandparents
and parents to do so, and was listed as
his grandparent’s grandson in their
obituaries. He’s was recorded as
always begging to cut his hair, wear
boy clothes, and would refer to himself
as a boy as a child.
He’s the first documented trans man
in the united states. His doctor who
helped with his transition described
him as “extremely intelligent and not
mentally ill, but afflicted with
a mysterious disorder for which I have
no explanation” and said that “from a
sociological and psychological
standpoint [Hart] is a man”.
Not only was he a man of medicine but
he was also a fiction writer, and such
a lot of his fiction writing reflected his
own experiences and feelings.

• Michael Dillon (1915 - 1962)
The first FTM person to have a
phalloplasty. He’s also believed to be
the first FTM person to undergo hrt.
While in the hospital with a head injury
he met a plastic surgeon who gave
him a double mastectomy and a note
to help get his birth certificate
changed.
Dillon performed SRS on Roberta
Cowell, the first British trans woman to
receive SRS, but because Dillon had
not completed his medical training the
surgery was considered illegal.
Later on he ended up devoting the
rest of his life to Buddhism in India.

• “Little Axe” Broadnax (1916 - 1992)
Little Axe was an American gospel
singer. I couldn’t find much on his
personal life, but he was apart of
several gospel groups between the
1940’s and 1980’s.
He was not discovered to be trans
until his death in 1992.

• Lou Sullivan (1951 - 1991)
An American author and activist, and
also one of the first trans men to
publicly identify as gay. He’s heavily
credited to the modern understanding
of gender identity and sexuality being
different things.
As a child, he would write in his journal
about being confused about his
identity, and expressed his ideas of
wishing he were a man and wanting to
be a gay man there from a young age.
He moved away from Milwaukee in
1975 to San Francisco so he could
have easier access to not only hrt but
a more understanding community. His
family was supportive of this move and
gave him a man’s suit and his
grandfather’s pocket watch as going
away presents.
In San Francisco, he lived openly as
a gay trans man but was denied SRS
constantly because of his sexuality,
since at the time trans people were
expected to adhere to a more
heterosexual lifestyle. He finally had
SRS in 1986.
He was diagnosed as HIV positive in
the same year, and said afterwards:
“I took a certain pleasure in informing
the gender clinic that even though
their program told me I could not live
as a Gay man, it looks like I’m going to
die like one.”
As an adult he was active in the
Gateway Gender Alliance, which was
one of the first educational
organizations that offered support for
FTM people. He was an editor for The
Gateway,
a newsletter with “news
and information on transvestism and
transsexualism” that originally primarily
focused on MTF issues, but started to
also talk about FTM issues under his
editing.
He was a founding member of the
GLBT Historical Society in San
Francisco, he founded FTM
International - an organization
specifically for trans men - and was a
huge advocate for gay trans men, and
gay trans people in general.
He ended up passing due to HIV
related complications.

• Brandon Teena (1972 - 1993)
TW: r*pe, assault/violence, murder

Brandon Teena was raped and
murdered at age 21 for being trans.
He asserted that he was male from a
young age and began identifying as
a man during adolescence. He would
constantly reject school dress code by
dressing masculinely.
When he was 18 he tried to join the US
army but failed to enter after listing his
sex as male.
In 1993 he began living as a man full
time and associating with John L.
Lotter, Tom Nissen, and Lana Tisdel.
During a Christmas Eve party, Nissen
and Lotter forced Brandon to pull
down his pants revealing that he was
trans. They forced him into a car, drove
to a nearby meat packing plant, and
raped him. They then took him to
Nissen’s house, where they told
Brandon to shower, allowing him to
escape out the bathroom window and
to Tinsel’s house.
They went to the ER where while
Brandon was having a rape kit done,
he was asked invasive, rude, and
unnecessary questions about him
being trans so they left.
When Nissen and Lotter found out
about the police report and rape kit
they started a hunt for Brandon, and
eventually found him on December
31st when they shot and killed him and
the two other people in the house
where he was staying. Brandon was
also stabbed in the chest to ensure he
was dead.
He’s had two movies made on his life
a documentary called The Brandon
Teena Story
and movie called Boys
Don’t Cry.

Some more recent trans men include:

• Thomas Beatie - in 2007 was the first
trans man to become pregnant
through artificial insemination after
finding out his wife was infertile.

• Balian Buschbaum - a former German
pole-vaulting champion. He competed
during the early 2000s and retired in
2007 to transition

• Chaz Bono - son of Sonny and Cher,
he is a writer, musician, and activist

• Ian Harvie - a comedian and actor, he
was in Transparent and Roadtrip
Nation

• Buck Angel - a former adult film star
and producer, and is now a trans
activist, writer, and speaker

There are obviously many, many other well known current trans guys out there, but those are just some ✌️

The history of trans guys is often overlooked and/or forgotten, so hopefully you learned something from this

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You should know: George Michael was a fierce, fierce advocate for gay rights. His 1998 outing is a perfect capsule of what gay men have had to endure

Michael began his career as the singer for Wham!, along with former schoolmate Andrew Ridgeley, in the early 1980s. The group had hits with “Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go,” “Careless Whisper,” and the enduring “Last Christmas.” And throughout his career, he’s always been unfailingly sex positive – before it was cool.

Gifs: BeeTheArtist

anonymous asked:

"This is the second pride they crashed" they stopped Toronto pride to have white gays acknowledge their privilege and to keep cops out of safe spaces. But go off with your racism I guess

Hey! Totonto pride wanted the police there. Gay police exist. So. The group who was running the safe space, said cops are okay, and a third party gets the right to go in and say ‘no! fuck off’? I don’t think so. 

Hijacking our fucking pride parades (which, btw, black lgbt+ people exist) and making a pride event that’s about us surviving homophobia and saying “NO! YOU NEED TO ACKNOWLEDGE OUR ISSUES HERE” is fucking homophobic.

BLM wasn’t advocating for gay people who were black - they outright said “Keep cops out” rather than draw attention to black gay people. It’s not racist to think that BLM hijacking an LGBT parade to advocate for their issues they’re focusing on rather than the  point of the parade. That’s not intersectional. That’s straight up “my issues are worse than yours so I’ll steal your platform” .

And you know what? I was wrong, this wasn’t the 2nd lgbt+ event that BLM hijacked and attacked the lgbt+ community.

BLM kicked out a fucking gay couple from an Orlando Pulse Shooting vigil- for, guess what- being white. We can’t even have a god damn vigil for  the 50 deaths in our community, most of which were latino, without BLM taking it over and going ‘well what about me!?’ 

sources: 1 2 

“Are White People Promoting Homosexuality As A Means Of Undermining The Black Struggle?“ 

aka: how dare you also have issues and want to solve the issues

They flat out admitted to believing that we’re just a means to silence them instead of real people with real issues that need to be resolved.

And that’s not even counting the racism within their own community, like again the time they made the vigil for Pulse, where most of the deaths where latino about them, the entire #fuckparis mess, demanding segregation (SERIOUSLY?!), and being against interracial marriages and mixed children.

BLM has a history of homophobia + racism and I have every fucking right to be furious about it. I support their goals, but I cannot condone their actions.

so fuck off you homophobic bitch.

150 years ago, they would have thought you were absurd if you advocated for the end of slavery. 100 years ago, they would have laughed at you for suggesting that women should have the right to vote. 50 years ago, they would object to the idea of African Americans receiving equal rights under the law. 25 years ago they would have called you a pervert if you advocated for gay rights. They laugh at us now for suggesting that animal slavery be ended. Someday they won’t be laughing.

- Gary Smith

On the Perfect Being the Enemy of the Good ...

So yesterday I posted this photo, which generated a lot of heat. Some more practically-minded people were supportive. Other, more ideologically-minded people, thought it represented a sell out of all that was good and right and pure in favor if imperfection, failure and doom.

To which I say: get over it. Life is imperfect. People are imperfect. Sometimes all you get is the less worse outcome. Which, however shitty it is, is still better than the worse outcome. 

My ideological critics are going to start another screed here, about the selling out of the progressive vision, and how Bernie could have won, etc. But they’re wrong, and for a simple reason:

Math.

See, the demand that your candidate be ideologically perfect from your point of view is, in fact, absurd. I mean, you and five friends couldn’t possibly agree on the toppings on a damn shared pizza, but you and 65,000,000 other Americans (roughly the number of votes you need to win the Presidency, appropriately distributed per the Electoral College’s requirements) can agree, 100%, on political ideology? It’s just madness.

Abraham Lincoln once advocated the return of slaves to Africa and the rejection of interracial marriage. He then signed the Emancipation Proclamation and pushed the 13th Amendment. Lyndon Johnson spent his entire career espousing the standard racialist line of Southern Democrats of the era and then signed almost all the great civil rights legislation of the 1960s. Barack Obama ran for the Presidency opposing gay marriage but then advocated it. 

The perfect is the enemy of the good. And good, in politics, is hard enough to make happen.

variety.com
Oscar Wilde Awards Honors Irish-Hollywood Connection
Oscar Wilde Awards honoree Martin Short, known for his zingers and stinging observations, was asked if anyone in the current presidential administration is ripe for satire. “Everyone is ripe for sa…
By Will Thorne

Oscar Wilde Awards honoree Martin Short, known for his zingers and stinging observations, was asked if anyone in the current presidential administration is ripe for satire. “Everyone is ripe for satire,” he says, “particularly in this administration. But it’s hard to satirize, hard to go broader than what we have seen.”

Asked if his talk-show character Jiminy Glick would have anything to say about the current Trump administration, Short demurs. “I’m not going there.”

Short feels a connection to the Wilde Awards. “My mother was half-Irish, my father was 100%,” he offers. Short, who has credits going back to 1972, says his father introduced him to film. They watched Ireland-set films such as “The Quiet Man” and “Shake Hands With the Devil.”

And while fans admire his wit, the performer freely admits, “I don’t know that if I could compare to Oscar Wilde.”

The comic actor is one of several honorees at the 12th annual Oscar Wilde Awards, put on by the U.S.-Ireland Alliance to celebrate Irish contributions to entertainment, and hosted by J.J. Abrams on Feb. 26 at his Bad Robot headquarters.

The class of 2017 consists of Short, “Outlander” star Caitriona Balfe, Zachary Quinto, Irish folk-rock singer Glen Hansard, and “Loving” actress Ruth Negga.

What is the common link for this cluster of actors, singers and comedians? They are all, at least in some part, Irish.

As a result, they have inherited a penchant for storytelling, which Balfe says is rooted deep in Irish culture.

“I grew up in the Irish countryside, but there’s such an amazing tradition in Ireland of storytelling, and even though my dad was a policeman, he and his friends used to put on plays and sketches, so it was something that I was surrounded by all my childhood, and it was always something that I wanted to do,” she says.

Although the star of Starz’s “Outlander,” filming its third season, grew up in a local theater milieu, she admits she took a less-trodden path for Irish actors in heading to the U.S.

Balfe’s first film role was in “The Devil Wears Prada,” where only her ankle was shown. The rest of her appeared in J.J. Abrams’ sci-fi thriller “Super 8.”

“J.J. gave me my first job in the U.S., so it’s quite a nice full circle event to be a part of,” Balfe says of the honor. “It was quite a small role, I played a mom in flashbacks, but for my first job it was such a big thing, and I remember going down to Virginia and meeting J.J. and we chatted for a few hours. He’s such an interesting guy, and he was telling me about how he started filmmaking when he was a kid.”

Balfe isn’t the only one on this year’s Oscar Wilde honorees list to get a first big film break in an Abrams movie.

Quinto’s star-making turn in 2009’s “Star Trek” and the subsequent franchise follow-ups have given him a large fan base and a powerful voice with which to advocate for gay rights and organizations. Quinto says the Oscar Wilde Awards are of extra importance to him because of Wilde’s homosexuality and the oppressed community he stood for.

“I got my Equity card while I was still in college doing a play called ‘The Three Trials of Oscar Wilde,’ so I’ve had a long awareness and affinity for Oscar Wilde — not only his literary prowess and his incisive wit, but also what he represented in that time in the late 1800s,” he says. “He was persecuted and ultimately prosecuted and imprisoned for his homosexuality, and in many ways was ruined by the society of the time and their intolerance. Yet he maintained an integrity and an openness about who he was and how he lived his life that I have a tremendous respect for.”

The actor is so inspired by Wilde’s life and work that he named his company Wallpaper Goes. That’s a reference to a line that was attributed to Wilde. Legend says that as Wilde was on his deathbed, he said, “Either that wallpaper goes, or I do.”

“I always thought that was pretty humorous, the fact that he said it: a) to his wife, and b) that it was such a witty contemplation of his own mortality, and when I was naming my corporation I thought I’m not going anywhere, so wallpaper goes,” Quinto says.

As for Oscar-nominated Negga, U.S.-Ireland Alliance’s Trina Vargo says: “I watched the film [“Loving”] several times at our various screenings and found new subtleties with each viewing. The brilliance of Ruth’s performance lies in the nuances. It’s a role that requires the conveyance of emotion as much through a look as through dialogue.”

Hansard, who won the Oscar for song with “Falling Slowly” in 2007’s “Once Again,” gave an impromptu performance with Marketa Irglova at the 2008 event that made such an impression he is back as an honoree. He will perform again at this year’s event.
Abrams will emcee, and Chris Pine and Catherine O’Hara will be among the presenters.

anonymous asked:

Hello. I don't know who this woman is but is she queer? I saw the photo you posted with the bag. That tote on the arm of someone not gender queer is kind of rude.

Amber Benson has not openly stated that she is queer or identified herself as anything other than “straight” but she is an avid ally of LGBTQ rights and has openly stated her love, support, and respect for the community throughout her career, post playing something of a cult-favored lesbian icon on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Aside from LGBTQ celebrities in the business who have been seen sporting this bag (i.e. Jasika Nicole from Fringe) there are other celebrities aside from Amber who have shown their support for the community by carrying this tote bag (i.e. Lena Dunham of HBO’s Girls).

Revel & Riot’s design may not be the best in the world, even if you enjoy an ironic play on words, but I would never say someone carrying it who is not LGBTQ is disrespecting anyone. I absolutely encourage you to look Amber Benson up if you’re not familiar, she’s awesome and, as someone who identifies as queer, I’m glad the community has her on our side.

Could you imagine being born so different from Everybody else,
You become conditioned to believe that you’re
Going straight to hell?
You hate to walk the halls at school,
Your home for thirteen long years,
Because the word faggot is used to define a
Person who only seeks acceptance from a
Building overrun by fools.

The same people who
Paint a smile on their face and say,
“Life will get better,”
Will be the first to scowl at you,
Let you know that you’re disgusting,
They want to make sure you know that being
Gay isn’t cool,
As if you’re trying to be a trendsetter.

I’ve always wondered, why would somebody
Choose to be something so different?
As if there is a switch in the brain,
You were able to dust it off,
Flip it up,
BAM!
“Now you’re gay, you chose this, Faggot,”
You would hear your mind laughing at you
For making such an ignorant decision.

Being gay isn’t a flip of a switch,
Nobody becomes gay,
Nobody becomes straight.
Disliking someone for the sexuality is
Disliking somebody because of their religion,
Their skin color,
Even the color of their eyes.

Whenever they tell you,
“I’ve kept you in my prayers,”
You won’t hear the kindness, or the sincerity.
You’ll hear noises louder than
Nails scratching against a dry, cold chalkboard
In a classroom full of the whispers claiming that
You’re a fucking faggot
Who doesn’t deserve friends,
Or happiness,
Even the promise of a heaven;
A place made only for the normal people.

Gay people don’t need your prayers,
Or your scowls of disapproval.
Imagine being the gay kid growing up,
Think about the acceptance and support
That you crave.

The character of a human being depends solely
On the love they spread, not the gender that
They are born to love.

—  I Can’t Apologize for my Sexuality, The Only Person it is Hurting is me (via @urbanf-ck )

I see a lot of posts about the Ryden conspiracy.

I’m not going to add much of my own opinion, just a dash. Like a hint of Thyme in a pasta sauce for flavor.

I studied psychology almost all of my life in an attempt to understand my abused mother; why she stayed, what it meant about her and how she viewed herself. On and on. Here nor there. I learned a lot about how people interact with each other. I learned a lot about what certain subtle hints or shifts in body language mean. I learned how to detect lies from people who didn’t even know they were lying.

All that said; Ryden has always fascinated me.

From a professional stand point, they acted like a couple. Not in words or time spent together, but in body language during the time spent together. Stage antics aside, because bands do that all the time. But when they were hanging out casually, as a band or as friends. When they would look at each other. There was more than friendship there - from a professional stand point.

With how accepting the fans would be of the relationship, and how both are advocates of gay rights, you would think they would be open about any potential relationship they had. Especially now that it’s so long in the past.

Much like with any other fan - I can’t help but wonder. It fascinates me, seeing the claims that fans make, seeing them interact with one another.

If they never had a real relationship, they are an anomaly to the human condition.

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The Advocate, Oct. 14 1986. Pages 48, 49 and 111.

A short piece about lesbians involved in the fight against AIDS, and more broadly, the way the relationship between lesbians and gay men has been affected by the AIDS crisis. The piece also mentions the effect that gay male sexism had on lesbian participation in community work:

“Overwhelming, draining” is how Caitlin Ryan described the sexism she found in AIDS agencies. “Had I been a man, it would have been a lot easier,” said Ryan of her work as the executive director of AIDS Atlanta and, until last year, AIDS program manager of Washington, D.C.’s Whitman-Walker clinic. “So many gay men have no [feminist] background,” she continued. “[That] was part of my decision to get out of gay community work.” Ryan, however, is still involved with AIDS through her work as a health consultant.

150 years ago, they would have thought you were absurd if you advocated for the end of slavery. 100 years ago, they would have laughed at you for suggesting that women should have the right to vote. 50 years ago, they would object to the idea of African Americans receiving equal rights under the law. 25 years ago they would have called you a pervert if you advocated for gay rights. They laugh at us now for suggesting that animal slavery be ended. Some day they won’t be laughing.
—  Gary Smith
You’d be surprised.

If there’s one insufferable-yet-popular opinion I highly dislike within the XIV community, it’s “FCs and LS’s that advertise being LGBT+ are just using that label as a marketing tactic.” 

For anyone who has verbally expressed this viewpoint, I’m sorry you feel so grievously offended by safe spaces in MMOs that you feel the need to label them all as fake. Some of us actually enjoy playing the game and socializing without having to put up with homophobic attitudes, racist/sexist slurs, and general bigotry. No one is forcing you to join these groups, nor is it your right to tell other people whether or not they belong to the LGBT+ community.

Whenever I hear someone say “Aren’t all FCs and groups LGBT+ anyway? Isn’t that the default nowadays?” I can’t help but be blown away by that sheer amount of ignorance. My answer to that is always “You’d be surprised.” but we all know those kinds of questions are never asked out of sincere curiosity.

I’ve lost count of how many of our current FC members have joined NOX due to their previous FCs being aggressively run by pro-Trump, racist, transphobic, anti-gay, white power advocates. A lot of us have had enough of that shit. No matter how often we’ve been told the more mature route is to just be apathetic or tolerant about it, we reserve the right to avoid it when we see it. What LGBT+ people don’t deserve is to be put in the “yall are fakin’” bin by some bored idiots who want any excuse to insult and demean an entire group of people they don’t even know.

Love Has No Labels

Beca groaned. They were NOT having this conversation again. “Jesse, no.”

“Jesse, yes!” Sitting across from her was her dorky, goofy-grinning best-friend-slash-ex-boyfriend, being as persistent as ever when he wanted something from Beca.

In this case, for her to admit she was in love with her roommate. Who was a woman. A certain, specific, gorgeous redhead. But still.

“Beca, you can’t deny that you have a certain attraction–”

“Actually, Jesse, I can. Because I’m not gay.” Beca sat back in her chair and let the breeze play with her hair. New York was nice, but she couldn’t wait to get back to LA. It was warmer, for one, and she missed the beach, and her own studio. The one they had here for her was nice, but it wasn’t her equipment. Idly, she took a drink of her smoothie and watched Jesse toy with the ring on his finger. “Dude, I can’t believe you and Aubrey are getting married.”

Jesse smiled his dopey, lopsided smile, like he always did when he was thinking about his fiancée. “Well, when you’re in love.” His smile morphed into a grin. “And love has no labels,” he added pointedly, making Beca huff in exasperation.

“Jesus, are you some kind of gay advocate now or something? Do I need to get you a rainbow tattoo?”

“Actually, it’s Jesse.” Beca groaned and dropped her head onto the table. “And no to both of those questions, thank you. I just know love when I see it.”

“Says the guys marrying my freshman year drill sergeant.”

Jesse laughed, warmly. “Beca, have you even actually thought about it?”

“No, because there’s nothing to think about. I don’t think about Chloe like that. I don’t.”

“Uh huh. That’s why your ears are turning red, right? And your neck?”

Beca shrugged her jacket higher over her shoulders, trying to ignore him. Even so, she muttered, “Because this conversation is embarrassing. And unnecessary.”

“No, it is necessary. You’re at least bisexual, Beca, and it’s okay to accept that.”

“Even if I were willing to admit to that,” Beca said, irritation coloring her voice now, “that is awful pushy of you.”

Jesse sat back, his expression contrite. “Sorry. I just – it’s hard to watch, you know. The pining thing you do when you’re away from Chloe.”

“I’m allowed to miss my best friend, Jesse,” Beca shot at him, and he raised his hands in surrender.

“Becs, it’s not the same thing,” Jesse said, and his voice was oddly strained. “You get this look in your eyes when you talk about her, or look at her, and I recognize it, okay? You used to look at me like that, and somewhere that changed. Just because you’re a hot shot superstar doesn’t mean that’s changed about you.” Beca grumpily stirred her smoothie with her straw; she felt Jesse’s eyes on her, contemplating her for a minute before he spoke again. “You tell me, then.”

“Tell you what?”

“About Chloe. How’s things in LA? You guys live together, don’t you?”

Beca’s lips quirked upwards in a reluctant smile. “Yeah. It’s a nice arrangement. As quiet as it can be with Chloe in the house.”

Jesse smiled at that. “Still singing?”

“Every chance she gets. I wanna surprise her with the opportunity to record with me soon, my boss and I’ve been discussing it.” That made Beca grin, thinking about how quickly Chloe would light up at the idea of performing again.

Jesse grinned his impish grin again. “Okay, so tell me if this sounds pretty accurate.”

“Jesse–”

“Bear with me, Bec, c'mon.”

“I’m gonna tell Aubrey you’re being mean to me.”

Jesse rolled his eyes. “So out in public–and I’ve seen you guys do this, you can’t deny it–hand-holding, flirting–”

“You can’t count that,” Beca said quickly. “That’s just Chloe.”

Jesse shrugged. “I’ll take that. She did run up and kiss me once.”

Beca sat bolt upright. “What?!”

That set the man to laughing. “Your little green monster is not helping your case, Becaw.”

Beca felt her face heat. “Shut up, Jesse. And stop messing around.”

Jesse attempted to control his outburst, but his grin remained in place. “Anyways. So you work mostly from home, don’t you?”

Beca refused to look at him, glaring at her smoothie instead. “Yeah, usually.”

“And I know you can cook, so I would assume you probably cook, have something on the table when Chloe walks in the door?”

“Well, she’s gotta eat too, doesn’t she?”

“Okay, grouchy pants,” Jesse retorted. “What do you usually do after dinner?”

Beca thought about it. “Chlo helps me clean up. Then we usually watch a movie or something.”

“Or something. Beca, you hate movies.”

“So?” Now Beca was being defensive. She really didn’t like the points he was making; she didn’t have any argument against him, and that scared her.

Jesse could see he was winning; he changed tack. “Beca, how many times in eight years have you told the woman ‘no?’”

Uh oh. “Jeez, Jesse, I don’t know.” Except she did. She could literally count them on one hand and Jesse knew it. But so what? Telling Chloe no was like kicking a puppy, you don’t do that, what’s wrong with you?

Jesse smiled that winning smile again. “D'you enjoy that though? Spoiling Chloe, especially now that you have the money to?”

“Well yeah. I mean, it’s nice to see her light up and smile and it just–she’s just –”

Realization slammed into Beca with the force of a wrecking ball.

The smiles. The touches, the cuddling, the flirting. The way Beca’s stomach flops every time midnight eyes meet crystal. The dancing in the front room after too much wine. The heart-beat-turns-into-a-bassline when Chloe is nearby. The I’ll-play-with-your-hair-because-you-like-it.

Jesse smiled gently. “See.”

Beca rubbed her face. “I don’t … Does she know? Is she… I mean, can I even tell her about this? What do I do?”

“I think you should talk to Bree,” Jesse said. “She and Chloe are closer than you think.”

“Okay.” Beca nodded. “Yeah. Sure. But uh, I need to think. This is…”

“A lot. I know.” Jesse pulled his wallet out and got to his feet, tossing a twenty onto the table. “Take what time you need, 'kay? Just remember Aubrey locks the door at eleven.”

“Yeah. Okay.” Beca watched him as he headed down the street and out of sight.

Well fuck.

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Okay, so I believe @misspelled-url was the one who wanted #10? I think so. Here you go, love. Stay tuned for more!

theguardian.com
News Corp journalist quits gay rights lobby's board after being 'targeted' over employer
Complaints suggested Shannon Molloy’s involvement compromised NSW Gay and Lesbian Rights Lobby
By Naaman Zhou

A gay man who has been an outstanding advocate for gay rights in Australia for many years, including writing a very compelling piece about homophobic bullying has been forced to resign from the board of a prominent gay rights organisation after bullying and harassment by trans activists and “queers” on social media and elsewhere in a targeted campaign to bully him into quitting.