what she means:
One question haunts and hurts too much, too much to mention. Was I really seeking good or just seeking attention? Is that all good deeds are when looked at with an ice-cold eye? If that's all good deeds are maybe that's the reason why.
Look at how Fiyero is looking awkwardly away from Galinda because they were meant to be engaged and he ran off with Elphaba, and then Boq is staring at her because he still loves her even though he was stuck with Nessa and Galinda is just trying to help Dorothy and not think about her best friend from uni who has just died and, even though she ran off with the love of her life Fiyero, she is still mourning her death because she really was the better witch omg help
okay, so I’ve decided to do a little something where I periodically post recordings of myself singing NOMTW, Thank Goodness and Popular, basically so I, and maybe a couple of you out there that are interested, can track my progress with them. Hopefully, it gets to the point where I’m actually singing these for my supper, bubble and all (Unlikely, but I can dream, and work for it!) who knows!