“I was scared. I wasn’t sure of what to do. What did I do? In an effort to convince myself I wasn’t gay, I got Gabi pregnant. I didn’t just sleep with her, I GOT HER PREGNANT! I wasn’t thinking about having a baby. I wasn’t even really thinking about Gabi, I was thinking about me. 

No! I am a screw-up and I have been my whole life! Drunk frat boys use protection, but not me. God knows that I love Ari more than anything in the world. But I am a screw-up. And that pregnancy should have never happened.”