gabe and me

@gabriielreyes you made like……1 singular post about this a few days ago but i havent stopped thinking about it

also:

Cisco paused in the middle of Wrath of Khan, a tentative attempt between himself and Barry to repair their friendship, earning a confused glance from the other. 

 “Check it out.” He pulled his phone from his pocket and nodded towards the clock. 1:59AM turned to 1AM, and Barry didn’t pretend to understand what Cisco was trying to say. 

 “You wanted to show me Daylight Saving Time?”

“We time travelled and managed not to fuck anything up.“ 

“Dude — ”

Okay, Okay. I like the Gabriel Reyes who eats hispanic food, who curses and throws shade in Spanish, celebrates/ sticks to traditions and what not. But I’ll raise you super(and maybe a bit racist?) Hispanic Gabe for...

A Gabe who is torn between two cultures. 

A Gabe who is a first generation Mexican(or whatever you headcanon him as)-American. A Gabe who can understand most Spanish but fails to communicate in it. A Gabe who’s first language is English because his parents wanted him to have more oppertunities in school and not be made fun of for struggling to speak or for having an accent. A Gabe who is shunned by Spanish-Speakers for not being able to speak it fluently. A Gabe who is called a Pocho constantly. A Gabe who knows more about American Holidays than Hispanic ones because it’s what his school and the Media taught him. A Gabe who felt insecure about his Hispanic heritage. A Gabe who tries to learn more about his heritage and language. A Gabe who gets shit on so bad for making a mistake on either of those things. A Gabe who looks Hispanic but is more American because he assimilated too well. 

A Gabe who didn’t fit in either category. A Gabe who grew up in LA never fitting in with his own kind and looking like a poser among the whites. A Gabe who tried to learn Spanish in High School only to be made fun of. A Gabe who was poor but couldn’t fucking relate to anybody. A Gabe who was judged by white people for how he looked and by Hispanics for how he acted. A Gabe constatly called ‘white washed’. A Gabe who floundered between both cultures with no solid footing in either. A Gabe who couldn’t relate.

A Gabe who never felt good enough. 

A Gabe who felt like an inferior Hispanic and a wannabe White. 

A Gabe who didn’t feel like he wasn’t fully one or the other.

A Gabe who felt…like he was nothing.

Yeah, yeah, it’s fun to think of him as being fully Hispanic in culture. I see comics and stories with ‘la chancla, tortillas, pendejo,’ etc. But…fuck do you know how fitting it is for Gabe to be a ‘Pocho’?

He doesn’t have any spanish lines and he grew up in LA. His parents probably wanted their boy to be more ‘American’ because they themselves struggled to fit in to the country because of the language barrier and cultural barrier. They thought they were doing Gabe a favor by making him more ‘American’. But in the end they did more harm than good. And that left him feeling horrible and conflicted his whole life.

And I know some of you are like ‘Well you’re just trying to white wash him!’ But that’s not the point. I was the same. I grew up in an American Culture but with a Mexican apperance. It sucks being stuck between two cultures. It really fucking dose and the idea of having Gabriel Reyes, aka Reaper, going through the same shit I did is really comforting. 

I’m not saying you should adopt this HC, I know not everyone is like this. But a lot of people are and I think it’s important to point out that someone can be Hispanic without being full on stereotypical. It takes away a lot of depth from a person and charachter, y’know?

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I know there’s something you’re not telling us, and I’m trying not to be a cop at home. I want to be a wife and a mother. Come on, babe. But I know this isn’t the first time you’ve lied to us, so we’re gonna stay here until you tell us what’s going on. This isn’t an interrogation! I know that! And I didn’t want it to be, but here we are.