wincest meme≡ favourite scenes  You’ve saved my life, over and over. I mean you sacrifice everything for me, don’t you think I’d do the same for you? You’re my big brother. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you.
I’m guessing you can’t hear me squeal over your own squeals, but I’ll just keep at it a little longer, okay? Okay.
Man, this episode read like very good fanfiction, and while I’m disappointed Dean never found out Cas used to be a woman (although, they did have a conversation about that, so Steve gets points anyway), everything else was plain amazing. I’m actually tempted to do a recap that’s just shouting words into the void, because, seriously, that would be enough, but - okay, let me watch that thing again and then I’ll write a proper meta.
So, let’s get one thing out of the way: we already know why this story works so damn well, but it’s worth saying it one more time, because this is what the whole episode was about.
A human and an angel: not meant to be.
Ishim said humans are dangerous to angels, and I agree with him: if angels want to understand humans, to truly become friends with them, to live among them - well - look at what’s that done to Cas. Caring about humans is, apparently, different than caring about another angel; it forces you to give up something deep inside yourself. You become - weaker, unhappy. Doubt-ridden. Trapped between two worlds, and fit for neither. And as for humans - if they truly wish to get closer to angels - to speak their language, to know enough about their magic and weapons to be able help them when they’re in trouble or hurt - that literally costs them their souls.
It’s a tragedy. It’s doomed.
But, of course, it’s not completely hopeless. What would be the point of writing a love story if you know from the start nothing can never happen at all? No - love can conquer all, and this episode dangled it in front of us - the angel who chose humanity, who tried to defend the person he loved from his own brothers, and the human who was fascinated with angels and knew enough about them to make it work.
(They had a daughter, sort of, and let’s cry about that for the rest of eternity, because can you see it? Dean loves kids, and -)
Anyway. We’ve known for a while that angels - I mean, the price Cas paid for his loyalty to the Winchesters (his love for Dean) - that’s harrowing. But this idea that humans need to sacrifice their soul to become closer to angels - thanks for that, Steve. I’m fine.
And surely, at this point, there is no other way this could end? Because what Sam and Cas share - yeah, that’s what friendship looks like, but Dean and Cas - right. And so Cas went and said it (“You mean too much to me.”) and Dean just holed up in his room for the rest of the week? He never said a word to Cas? And, Jesus, Cas thinks Dean’s angry? At him? I’m glad this, at least, was spelled out clearly, because apparently some people still don’t get it and read Dean’s emotions at face value and no, Dean was not angry - he was worried out of his damn mind, and he’s got reason to be, because Cas still doesn’t fucking get it: “I don’t regret what I did, even if it costs me my life”.
The idiot - the useless, fucking idiot.
(“Smelly. Dirty. Twice the worry about getting ganked.”)
WITH SPECIAL APPEARANCES BY DEAN AS WELL AS MY COMMENTARY
LOOK AT HIM. LOOK AT HIS BEAUTIFUL WINGS THAT LOOK LIKE STARS AND HIS HEADS AND OMFG IMAGINE HIM TRYING TO HOLD A TINY KITTEN AND FML
BUT LOOK AT HOW HE’S HOLDING DEAN OKAY WITH HIS HEADS FUCKIN LOOKING ALL CUTE AND HAPPY THT DEAN WINCHESTER ACCEPTS HIM AND IS PETTING HIM LIKE THE CUTIE HE IS. FUCK OMG IM SO EMOTIONAL
LOOK AT THE FUCKIN HALO AND THE FUCKIN DETAIL LIKE HOLY MOTHER OF FAJITAS HOW DOES ONE ART LIKE THIS OMG LIKE MY CASSY BBY WITH HIS FUCKIN TIE AROUND HIS WRIST OMG IM DONe SO GORGEOUS AND IM SO SAD RN LIKE OMG
FUKCLHBJCBL THIS SYUGSHUISGT KS LI NON WHY OMKBHSUBLSHSL BUT SYUGSLBHSFUCKIN DEAN IN CAS’ ARMS AND CAS IS STILL WATCHING HIM TO MAKE SURE HES SAFE IN HIS BIG ARMS SNSJKNSKJNS AND LIKE FOR ONCE HE’S BIGGER THAN DEAN AND HE PROBS THOUGHT DEAN WULD BE AFRAID OF HIM WHEN HES ACTUALLY FUCKIN COMFORTABLE AF AND CAS’ FACE IS LIKE “He’s still here…” AND OMFG IUHSL STSHAP THE PRESSES LIUSHLS
THERE IS NO ANIMAL HEADS IN THIS ONE AND IDK IF THE ARTIST WANTED TO MAKE THIS HIM IN HIS TRUE FORM BUT EITHER WAY I PUT IT IN AND HOLY FUCK HOW PRETTY AND HE’S FUCKING GRIPPING DEAN TIGHT FROM PERDITION I THINK AND HE’S JUST STARIN AT HIS SOUL SO HRD AND THE COLORING IS GREAT AND WOW IM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YU ARTISTS LSHGS S
HOLY FUCKIN SHIT LIKE OMFG THIS IS HOW YOU FUCKIN UYGBLH THIS IS ART OMG IM LITERALLY FEELING SO MANY THINGS WIT THE FUCKIN HANDS AND THE FUCKIN WINGS ON CAS AND HOW HE’S HOLDING DEAN IN HIS ARMS FUCKIN SAVING HIS SOUL LIKE SO INTENSE OKAY FUCKED ME UP IS WAT IT DID
THIS IS SO CUTE OKAY DNT BEGIN WIT ME. DNT FUCKIN TRY TO EVEN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE. FUCKIN DEAN WOULD ACCEPT AND CARE ABOUT CAS EVEN IF HE SAW HIS TRUE FORM OKAY AND IM SO. FUCKING. UP. FOR. IT.
FUCKIN CAS HOLDING DEAN IN HIS ARMS ON HIS LAP AND JUST OBSERVING HIM AND THINKING HOW CUTE DEAN IS IN THAT SIZE AND REMEMBERING WHEN HE CARRIED HIM FROM HELL HOW EVEN MORE FRAGILE HE WAS AND FUCK ME
THE FUCKIN PAIN. NOINLINSNLSJNS DEAN HOLDING CAS AND TRYING TO OBSERVE EVERY LAST THING SO HE KNOWS CAS’ (THE REAL CAS) PROPERLY AND SEES JUST HOW UNIQUE CAS IS AND BEGINS PETTING THE TOP OF HIS HEADS AND OMG FUCKING CAS CLOSING HIS EYES IN COMFORT AND FALLING ASLEEP IN DEAN"S LAP NOPE WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF NOPE
OMGOMG BUT CAS WITH THIS MANY EYES WATCHING DEAN BUT DEAN CNT SEE HIM BECAUSE CAS IS INVISIBLE AND DEAN PROBS THINKS CAS IS DEAD SINCE SOME BITCH ASS DEMON OR ANGEL OR SOMETHING STABS CAS WEN HES AS JIMMY BUT CAS WATCHES DEAN IN HIS TRUE FORM BUT CNT REVEAL HIMSELF OR SPEAK BECAUSE IT WULD HURT DEAN AND DEAN DSNT KNOW CAS IS FINE AND IS MOURNING WHCH IS MAKING CAS SAD AND FMLMDKDNKSJN AND THE FUCKIN PAINTING IN THIS IS BRILLIANT OKAY LIKE WOW
OMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMGOGM LOOK HOW FUCKIN TINY DEAN LOOKS DOH AND LIKE I BET HE WULDNT BE AFRIAD OF CAS LIKE HE WULD JUST BE SHOCKED OFCOURSE CUZ FUCKIN DAMN CAS IS TALL AS SHIT LIKE SHAQ CAN HARDLY FIT IN THT CAR IN THT COMMERCIAL BUT JUST IMAGINE CAS LIKE FUCKINAY BUT HES SO BEAUTIFUL AND DEAN CNT STOP STARING AND CAS FEELS EMBARRASSED BUT DEAN REASSURES HIM THAT HE LOOKS SUPER COOL AND CAS SMILES ND OMG UYGBLUHYLLHHBCAN WE JUST FIRST TALK BOUT THE BACKGROUND IN THIS CUZ HOT DAMN I WANT TO FUCKIN PASTE THIS BACKGROUND INSIDE MY EYELIDS SO WEN I CLOSE MY EYES I SEE THIS BEAUTY AND ALL THE DETAILS OF CAS AND HIS WINGS AND OMG SO BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE HOW HE STILL HAS THE ANGEL BLADE AND THE ARTIST JUST PUT SO MUCH EMOTION LIKE U CAN EVEN SEE IT IN CAS’ FACE AND EYES AND WOW HOLY SHIT FUCKIN WANT THIS HANGED IN A FRAME LIKE WOWGOD HOLY HELL LOOK AT ALL THOSE PRETTY FLOWERS AROUND PRETTY CAS WITH HIS PRETTY ANIMAL HEADS AND OMG IM DYING. LOOKS LIKE I WOULD SEE THIS HANGED NEXT TO LIKE THE MONA LISA AND DAMN OMG I WULD JUST BE LOOKIN AT DIS LIKE THE OWL HOLY
HOLY SHIT THIS IS THE MOTHER F'ING COOLEST THINGS EVER LIKE HE LOOKS LIKE HE"S MADE OF LIKE EVERY ELEMENT OR SOMETHING AND THE FUCKIN WINGS LIKE SHIT THEY’RE SO FANTASTIC IM TEARING UP OMG LIKE IMAGINE HOW HIGH HE COULD FLY WITH THOSE AND HOW HE FLIES IN THE SKY WITH SAM AND DEAN ON HIS BACK OR IN HIS ARMS AND THEYRE ALL SMILING AND IN AWE AND OMG HOW CUTE WULD THT BE OKAY.
LOOK HOW FUCKIN CUTE THEY R HOLY SHIT. DEAN AT THE TOP BREAKING MY HEART AS HE CHECKS IF HIS BBY IS OKAY AND THE BOTTOM LEFT CAS POSING HIS BOD FOR VOGUE AND THE RIGHT BEST COUPLE AWARD LIKE DAMN I ALREADY SHIP DESTIEL HARD AF BUT IF THE WRITERS LET CAS BE HIS TRUE FORM AND SOMEHOW DEAN CAN SEE IT WITHOUT LIKE YOU KNOW HIS EYES FUCKIN BURNING THEN BAI. MY LIFE WULD GO EVEN MORE DOWNHILL. FUCKIN BE SO FAR GONE.
LOOK HOW CUTE THIS IS OMG IM GETTING A CAVITY FROM THE FUCKIN SWEETNESS OF THE WHOLE THING LIKE FUCKIN DEAN HAVING A NORMAL CONVO WITH CAS CUZ HE DNT CARE HOW CAS LOOKS CUZ CAS WILL ALWAYS BE ‘HIS’ CAS AND FUCKIN CAS ON THE FUCKIN FLOOR TO LISTEN TO DEAN BETTER LIKE FML SO ADORABLE STFU
CASSY MY FUCKIN BBY LOOK HOW FUCKIN PRECIOUS HE LOOKS AND THE FUCKIN STAR WINGS AGAIN FUCKS ME UP AND DEAN LOOKING UP AT HIM AND THE EMOTION ON THE ZEBRA’S FACE LIKE NOT KNOWING HOW DEAN’S GUNNA REACT AND HOLY SHIT MY HEART LIKE SERIOUSLY IF I HAD A HEART IT WULD BE HURTING SO MUCH OMGLOOK HOW CUTE THEY R WITH FUCKIN CAS SMILING AT DEAN LIKE “Babe I know. I look fuckin badass now let’s go cream some bitches.” LIKE OMG YAY MAKES ME SO HAPPY AND HE LOOKS SO CONFIDENT AND OMG.
THIS HAS BEEN THE END OF MY ART COMMENTARY AND I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THIS ART NOR HAVE DONE ANY OF THEM. LIKE COME ON SERIOUSLY. ALL OF THESE ARE TOO PERFECT AND I’M SORRY THT I DIDN’T TAG ANY OF THE ARTISTS LIKE I SAVED THESE AND DDNT CHECK THE URLS. IM SO SRKIYTGRBKHBK BUT IF UR SEEING THIS AND MADE ONE OF THESE LIKE HOLY SHIT I WANNA SHAKE UR HAND.
FUCKIN BEAUTIFUL. WE NEED MORE TRUEFORM!CAS ART OKAY THTS THE LESSON HERE CHILDREN.
Imagine Dean finally realizing what you really meant…
Dean was walking home after a long day of casing the town for info on a potential case. He thought back through what he had learned, everyone he had talked to… He hoped Sam had gotten some more substantial info.
He had talked to you at the coffee shop where you worked as a barista. He stopped in for a quick pick-me-up and thought he’d ask some questions while he was there, figuring a lot of people probably frequented the place. It was a small town.
Your face popped back into his head as he turned over the interaction in his mind again. She was cute, Dean thought to himself. It wasn’t the first time his mind had drifted back to the charming barista.
* * * * *
“What can I get for you?” you asked. You couldn’t help eyeing the man’s strong jawline.
“Large coffee, please,” he said, putting down some cash on the counter.
“No problem,” you said pulling out a french press and adding some grounds and hot water. “In town on business?” you asked, eyeing his suit and tie.
“If you can call it that,” he said. He smiled; just a little one, but that was it. You were gone. Those green eyes and that smile might as well have been Cupid’s arrow straight to the heart. He asked you a few questions about the town and some of the local businesses. You managed to chat, praying it sounded casual. The whole time you were worried that the heat you could feel rising into your cheeks, a result of him staring at you intensely, was turning your whole face pink.
His coffee was done brewing and you handed him his cup. “Well, I hope ‘business’ keeps you around a while,” you said, managing a smile.
He accepted the cup from you gratefully with a murmured thank you, but seemed distracted as he put an extra buck or two in your tip jar and said goodbye with another thanks.
* * * * *
Dean stopped abruptly in the middle of the sidewalk. “Son of a…” Realization had just struck him and he glanced back up the row of shops in the little downtown area. “Dean, you’re an ass!” he mumbled out loud to himself.
He turned back, heading straight for the coffee shop, hoping to God that you were still working…