‪Last night I got to share my story with over 10,000 students at #HOSAILC2017.

These students are all aspiring healthcare professionals—future nurses, doctors, EMTs. For a motivational speaker, it doesn’t get any better than being a part of an event like this. I’m so, so grateful for the opportunity 🙌🙏‬

Before I start this little spiel, I need you all to know: I’m not hating on people who don’t vaccinate their kids, and while I know for a fact BASED ON facts that vaccines don’t cause autism or other “defects”, I’m all for continuing research to make them even better and safer.

But you know what really, really scares me about the anti-vax movement? As a future Public Health Professional, the thing that scares me most about this is the fact that our cultural mindset has become so CHILL about vaccine-preventable/”childhood” diseases that there is even room for such a movement. Let me explain.

Do y’all know what an R0 is? The R-naught, as it is called, is the basic reproduction rate of a disease. It tells you how many new infections can come from one existing infection. For example, an R-naught of 3 (R3) means that, on average, one sick person will infect three other people. Every disease has an R-naught, some greater and some lesser.

Do you remember when everyone was freaking out about Ebola? Everyone was terrified of catching it, because it’s SOOOOO contagious and deadly, right? Ebola has an R-naught of 2. That’s it. R2. One person with Ebola, on average, will get 2 more people sick. And we were freaking out about that.

Well guess what? Measles is the most contagious disease known to mankind, and it has an R-naught of 18. 18. One person with measles will give it to 18 new people, and those people will give it to 18 new people EACH, and so on. That’s what happened with the Disneyland outbreak; it’s so ridiculously contagious that just ONE sick child was enough to start an epidemic.

And yet very few people are as scared of measles as they are of Ebola. Why is that? One reason could be the nature of the disease, sure; Ebola is terrifying in its progression and symptoms. But I would suggest that a major reason is that measles has been so well-contained by vaccination that people no longer fear it. It’s not a part of every-day life anymore; this disease is no big deal because nobody gets it, because so many people are vaccinated against it. Let’s put this another way.

What are the diseases that scare everyone the most: Ebola, HIV/AIDS, and SARS are pretty high on the list of terror diseases. But let’s look at the R0s, shall we: Ebola-R2. HIV/AIDS-R5. SARS-R5. 

Now let’s look at diseases that people are voluntarily rejecting vaccinations against: Measles, Pertussis, and Diphtheria are the major ones. Their R0s? Measles-R18. Pertussis-R17. Diptheria-R7.

Everyone focuses on the former set of diseases– rightly so, I suppose– because they’re more dangerous at the present time. What makes them more dangerous? Not their R0; it’s the fact that there is no viable treatment, and NO VACCINE. Seriously, that’s why the medical community is worried about them. There’s no way to treat or PREVENT their spread biologically. Well guess what? There’s no viable treatment for Measles or Pertussis, and only limited treatment options for Diphtheria. That’s why the medical community doesn’t focus on them as much, because we can prevent them at the biological level, safely and effectively.

But now that the Anti-Vax movement has taken hold so firmly, the medical community is now being forced to once more worry about diseases it had almost eradicated. And not only that, it’s endangering herd immunity for the people who can’t receive their own vaccines due to compromised immune systems. I’m allergic to eggs, so I can’t receive the flu shot, but I’m also asthmatic so I can’t get the inhaled vaccine. I rely entirely on the people I associate with to keep me safe from the flu by getting their yearly shot. This made public school a living nightmare, because almost NOBODY got their shot. They caught it, and while it didn’t affect them TOO terribly because they were generally healthy, when I caught it, it was very dangerous because of my asthma. And then there’s that time when I caught the flu, and then right after because of my weakened immune system, I caught Whooping Cough from someone who hadn’t been vaccinated. I HAD been vaccinated, but my body was so fatigued from the flu that it couldn’t keep up with immune demands. And so I caught it.

Have you ever had Pertussis (whooping cough)? It’s hard enough on someone with full lung capacity; it can break ribs, it makes you cough so hard. You cough until there is literally no air in your lungs, and you have to inhale so forcefully it makes the “whooping” sound that gives it the name. It’s painful beyond belief, and it can last for weeks. Some people will survive it. But add that to asthma, or to a young child, or to an elderly person, and you are looking at either permanent damage or death, no exceptions. When I had it, I was about 6 years old, and asthmatic; I spent 81 hours awake because the coughing was so violent I physically couldn’t sleep. I tore abdominal muscles. I vomited during coughing fits and aspirated the vomit. I was actively dying. The doctors could barely suppress the cough enough for me to breathe at all. My inhaler wasn’t helping, none of the cough syrups or breathing treatments were helping; I was getting pneumonia on top of the virus. It was Hell. I was LUCKY that I didn’t die.

Who would wish that on their child? Nobody, I hope. And if you KNEW you could keep your child from ever experiencing that, wouldn’t you do whatever it took to ensure their safety?

Or would you look at the safeguard and say, “Nah. I’ll take my chances with my child’s life.”?

That is what the anti-vax movement is doing. Perhaps not purposefully, but that’s the end result. These aren’t just names on syringes designed to make a child cry; the diseases are real, and real threats to health and life, and the vaccines are how you prevent them. Yet we are so far removed from the impact and effects of these diseases BECAUSE of the peace brought to us BY vaccines that people now feel no qualm about refusing vaccines.

That’s what scares me about the anti-vax movement; people have become so complacent that they no longer worry about these very real, very deadly diseases. They’d rather risk their child’s life than get a shot? The side effects of vaccines are unproven (nonexistent), but the efficacy of vaccines are very much proven.

When the pertussis vaccine first came out, people jumped on it right away. They were so grateful to have it, and for a while everything was smooth sailing, and whooping cough was on the decline. Then, in the 70s, some groups started claiming the pertussis vaccine was causing brain injury in young children. Less than 50 in 15 million cases were reported, but it was enough to scare people away from the vaccine. And children began dying again. It was later discovered that it was NOT the vaccine, but the result of infantile epilepsy, that caused the brain damage. People began once more vaccinating their children, but not before hundreds if not thousands had died.

And that’s what’s happening now. A falsified claim scared just enough people that time-tested, lab-tested, fully-proven, totally safe vaccines are being rejected, and we’re already starting to pay with lives. And I’m scared it’s going to get worse. People don’t really grasp the full import of these diseases and the necessity of the vaccines until they have experienced the disease. I’m scared that it’s going to come down to new epidemics before people will realize the mistake of not vaccinating.

Right now we’re still in the semi-safe zone. Enough of the population is immunized that we could probably keep most pandemics of these diseases at bay. But if this movement keeps gaining momentum, there might come a day when measles and pertussis could once again destroy thousands of people yearly. Imagine if some terrorist group weaponized Ebola and used it against this country; so many people would die, because we have no vaccine for it, no way to prevent it. That is what could happen with diseases like mumps, rubella, measles, pertussis, Diphtheria, and polio. Except it wouldn’t be terrorists using a disease as a weapon; it would be some kid in your child’s class, or your neighbor across the street, or the guy who delivers the mail to your office. That’s how life used to be, and if someone from the pre-vaccine era could see us now, they’d weep for joy at the idea that we can prevent these horrific diseases; and then they’d weep in sorrow at the idea that people are voluntarily turning down that safeguard.

It’s true, vaccines aren’t always 100% effective; I was immunized, but still got Whooping Cough (lowered immune function, if you recall). But you know who didn’t get it? My baby sister. My big sister. My cousins. My mother and father. My classmates, the other kids at my doctor’s office. The nurses at the hospital. The pharmacy workers. Their children. The kids my mom taught at school. All those people were safe because of vaccines. And you know what else? When I was in India, I was exposed to polio. Didn’t get it. Know why? I was vaccinated. I was exposed to chicken pox in 5th grade. One unvaccinated kid got it, and the other 4 kids in our class who weren’t vaccinated got it. But you know who didn’t? The rest of us who WERE vaccinated.

Vaccination may not be perfect, and the only way we will improve them is by continuing research. But the fact remains that as they are now, vaccines cause no lasting side effects (injection site pain goes away), and are extremely effective at preventing dangerous, painful, debilitating, often deadly diseases. Let’s keep researching, yes, but in the mean time, PLEASE vaccinate. It’s not worth your life, or your child’s, or anyone else’s. Vaccines save lives, not destroy them.


Become a Better Sim Parent with The Sims 4 Parenthood Game Pack!

Gather around for a family meeting. We have some big things to discuss about the household. Why is that? Well, today we’re thrilled to show off The Sims™ 4 Parenthood Game Pack*, which releases globally for PC and Mac via Origin on May 30, 2017.

This is very exciting for us as its been a major community request, which is more, and deeper family focused game play. With toddlers finally in Simmer homes everywhere, we knew this was the perfect time to take a look at your Sim’s home to see which stories you haven’t yet told.

The Sims 4 Parenthood Game Pack adds a few significant features that will change daily life. Your Sim’s offspring will be more ill-behaved than ever, with rebellious teenagers and toddlers who chomp down on their siblings. But don’t worry! The new Parenting Skill gives the adults in the room a way to set these problems upright.

And it doesn’t stop there! Parenting has long term consequences, which leads us to the new Character Values Traits. If your Sims take the time to teach their children good manners, like setting the table, and trying to not burp, swear, or fart, they can grow up with new Traits that will positively affect their lives forever. Or, if they don’t do these things, well, there are Traits with consequences of another stripe…

It isn’t all serious life-changing decisions though. Children will bring home new school projects to work on after class with parents and siblings as well. These create permanent, hilarious objects, like erupting volcanoes and backyard rockets. Future medical professionals can practice their stethescoping skills on teddy bears. Plus, new clothing styles and the perfect household items to really make the home look like, well, the home of your story.

The Sims 4 Parenthood Game Pack is the perfect addition to your Sim’s home that will help you tell new stories that really get to the heart of your Sims. It’s hilarious, serious, touching, and silly, all in one home shaped box. Be sure to check out The Sims 4 Parenthood Game Pack on PC and Mac via Origin on May 30, 2017.

Can You Keep Up?

Originally posted by jeonsshi

Pairing: Jungkook x reader [feat: Taehyung, Jimin and Hoseok]
Genre: DanceAU, fluff, slight smut. 
kWriters April Prompt: Performance Arts!AU
Word Count: 7k

“I’ve never danced with someone like you before. You drive me crazy.” 

Getting into your dream dance studio was the least of your worries once you finally got accepted in. Your new worry was wether or not you’ll be able to make it through the dance competition event the studio was hosting, not only because you’re nervous that you’ll screw up, it being your first event for the studio, but also because you just so happen to be attracted to your new dance partner.

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anonymous asked:

The phandom seems a little dead recently and it's upsetting. People aren't getting as excited or bothered as they used to be and are leaving. The whole "soft and neat" thing didn't really get as much recognition as "pro tip" and "don't cry craft" did and it's all very sad...why do you think that is?

hmmm i’m inclined to disagree w this actually. to respond to your example specifically, i am hopeful that “soft and neat” didn’t catch on because the fandom finally realized that spamming a random catch phrase from a dnp video in the comment sections of other videos is actually pretty rude and a little bit obnoxious. don’t think it has any bearing on the fervor of the fandom more generally. overall i suppose it’s been a bit quiet the last few days because dnp are back home and therefore have been sharing less interesting stuff on social media and haven’t posted a gaming vid or collab in like a week (which in itself should be a testament to how much 2017 has involved them ramping up their commitment to youtube if just a week without a gaming vid but two phil videos and two live shows feels like too little content). but i would definitely say that in my nearly two years of following them and this fandom i genuinely believe the last 6-7 months have been the most exciting and engaging time to be in this community or at least to be in the position of caring about dnp and their lives. so much has shifted, i feel that their content has been more entertaining than ever, they’ve lowered their boundaries with us in substantive ways which gives us more to talk about, they’ve been consistent with live shows, and, maybe most importantly, they are visibly happier than possibly ever. i’ll hands down take this era with videos every few days, family vacays, cute candid pics, worldwide travel, a gentler dan constantly discussing his same gender attraction and rejecting gender roles, a more relaxed phil flirting with dan and also talking about boys from time to time, and all of the potential and uncertainty of their professional futures over the past two years (which were very characterized by their focus on the tour and book and movies and resulted in videos maybe once every couple of weeks with stiffer behavior) any day. and i think a lot of people feel the same. i feel like every little thing they’ve done has produced so much discussion, every selfie has yielded incredible art, every story they share generates lots of fic, and everything is generally so positive!! people seem so happy to see them happy and that feels like the dominant tone and emotion amongst the community right now and i think it’s amazing :)


Spotlight: The Tattoos (and other body works) of Special Collections

On Friday I reblogged and responded to former UWM Special Collections staff member Amelia Klem Osterud’s defense of those who sport visible tattoos in the professional workplace (she is pictured at top). Amelia worked for me first as a graduate student assistant, and then as my full-time office manager for several years. After earning her MLIS, she became the Head of Access Services and Archives and later the Interim Library Director at Carroll University for another several years. She is currently a Branch Manager for the Milwaukee Public Library and is the author of the very popular book The Tattooed Lady: A History, now in its second edition. Amelia is a highly accomplished scholar and library administrator, and a consummate professional. Yet, for some reason, she still has to deal with the issue of being taken seriously because of her tattoos. She writes: “How do we change this? … . We continue to be professionals, we continue to not let our tattoos define who we are. We continue to do what we need to do, and also get tattoos.”

My own current staff take this call to action very seriously. Most are adorned with quite visible tattoos and piercings, and they all accomplish their work just as if –  wouldn’t you know – they didn’t have tattoos. I present some of them here from top to bottom:

Cameron, Art History graduate student and SC fieldworker
      Tattoos on upper arm and both forearms

Alice, full-time SC Library Services Assistant (holds an MA and MFA in Creative Writing)
      Crow tattoo on lower forearm (she also wears a lovely silver nose ring)

Alex, SC undergraduate assistant
      Color tattoo on forearm

Kalani, Information Studies graduate student and SC intern
      Tooth tattoo on upper arm, nose ring, and ear plugs (also variously colored hair)

Elizabeth, Information Studies graduate student and SC intern
      White Rose tattoo on upper arm

These represent the next generation of professional leaders. They all have very visible tattoos. Probably long past time we got used to it.


anonymous asked:

Opinions on ever co-writing a fic with someone (aside from your sweaty because...we know you've tried to write a few fics with her in the past lol)

Hahaha we’re still trying with the Dating Sim AU now!! It’s going well, actually!!

Ok ok ok I’m answering this regarding writing with anyone who ISN’T Justine because we’re good friends so none of what I’m going to say below applies. I’m actually a bit afraid to answer this because I feel like it’s going to make me sound like a jerk but I’m gonna be honest with you ok???

I don’t work well with people. Like at all. I’m actually horrible. I think I’ve spoken about my seething hatred for group projects in the past, and I think writing with other people applies to that. I don’t like being dependent on other people and I don’t like other people depending on me and I think that’s what it really comes down to?

You may notice I don’t use a beta reader – I’ve had beta readers in the past (like several years ago) and I just…. For some reason I just can’t. It’s not anybody else’s fault I just get really weird about it you know?? So I think for that reason I can’t write well with other people hahaha and can’t see myself co-writing a fic with anyone other than a close friend in the future unless it’s just a drabble or something (which I’d totally be down for!).

As for reading fics co-written by other people, I LOVE IT because it offers two viewpoints on the same storyline and I think that’s beautiful!

HOW TO: Be a Theatre Student


The most common negative quality in Theatre Students is a lack of appreciation. There are so many individuals in this world who feel forced into career paths that have nothing to do with their true passion. We are so lucky to be allowed to follow such a unique dream, and to bring joy to so many audiences. Remember even when completing difficult assessments, or doing back to back late nights, we are working towards something bigger. Being appreciative and passionate is an inspiring quality. Embody this. 


We are extremely lucky in my course to be taught by a group of working Professionals, not Lecturers. Although you will spend every day with them, remember they are Professionals who deserve respect. They will be your most valuable resource. Do not waste their time. Ask questions. Drink in all that you can. They will know you better than you know yourself. Theatre Professionals in the Industry do not have time to stop mid-show and explain their decision making. Working with such people is an amazing privilege. Use it. 


As well as observing the Tutors methods, also observe the other students around you. Before screaming about how much potential you have, take time to watch other students succeed and fail. Take from their methods the aspects you want to incorporate into your own practice. Never ignore the potential of those sitting next to you to have incredible ideas. 


Theatre School will immerse you in an environment of external opportunities. My school offers a variety of non-assessed events that we can volunteer to work on. We are also able to be hired as Venue Technicians for weekend work. I would highly recommend using these as platforms to practice your craft and keep you fresh. This will make you a known face around campus, and give you extra experience your peers may not have. It’s easy to get stuck in the classroom. Remember you are here for live art! 


Every day we are surrounded by current and future industry professionals. Although you should feel safe to make mistakes, know that the way you act now is being constantly monitored and will be remembered. Try to handle stressful situations with grace, and always have an air of professionalism about you. People in theatre are good judges of character. Think quickly, and be respectful.


You are completing a Stage Management course. A Stage Manager’s first job is to be a time keeper… So meet your goddamn deadlines. Seriously. There is nothing that makes Tutors cringe more than seeing Students getting extension after extension when they are training to be a professional organiser. Your ability to stay on top of work, even that unrelated to productions, is being judged as part of your work ethic. Although sometimes it is overwhelming, remember this time of your life will end and you DO have the ability to complete the work in good time. Write the essay. Read the play. It will get you one step closer to theatre.  


Although Theatre School can sometimes be a competitive atmosphere, it is important to remember that teaching others actually teaches you. I do my best learning when I have to explain concepts or procedures to someone who doesn’t understand them. Although sometimes you want to keep your knowledge close to your chest, be generous with your learning. It will consolidate the knowledge in your mind, and doing favours for others does not go unnoticed.


You also need to find your own moral ground on when to stop pulling friends across the line. As with any Degree, at the end of the day you need to all individually be capable enough to walk into a theatre and create a Prompt Copy, or set up a console. Don’t do all the work for people who aren’t interested in learning for themselves. Sometimes it takes a blown system or poor grade or yelling Director to wake a Student up. Ensure your work is always  high quality, but it is not your responsibility to manage any other work load. Do not get walked all over. This education is yours.


Use this time to Stock Up! Create useful templates and file them nicely for you to use once you’re in the Industry. Buy a Stage Management Kit, and begin slowly stocking up throughout your time at University. Invest in the Tools you deem most useful. Buy the Stage Management book you keep reading from the Library. Collect the elements you want to be a part of your professional practice. This is the perfect time to gather resources. Do not waste it.


The best advice I received at the commencement of my First Year was to not give up your personal life for a 9.00AM-6.00PM Monday to Friday course. I was ready to give everything away. I moved out of home to be closer to the city, worked through my weekends, and over the year stopped caring about my friends, family and other interests (including this blog!). Let me tell you, this does not get you ahead in your career. It left me lonely, and vulnerable to toxic relationships that I didn’t need. You need a well balanced life and support system to be good at your job. You need to be healthy and happy to inspire passion in those working for you. My best work of the year was during my November production, once I had realised this the hard way. Make an effort with your friends, stay with your family, have other hobbies that make you happy. Don’t throw your life away just because you got an acceptance letter. If this career is going to sustain your whole life, it needs to fit into your whole life. Theatre is not the only beautiful thing in this world. Just look around. You might surprise yourself. 

Best of luck to the 2017 First Years in all the kickass Theatre Courses around the world. I’m here for every single one of you! 

Ella X

What caused VFD’s schism?

How staggering to believe people such as Count Olaf or Jacques Snicket once belonged to the very same organization! Surely it would take an immensely traumatic event, a dramatically expanded argument to lead likewise individuals on such different paths. On one side, a cohort of thieves, murderers and arsonists, determined on stealing fortunes. On the other side, a secretive alliance of researchers and experts evading persecution. Did they ever have anything in common?

“It’s complicated and confusing,” Olivia explained. “They say that long ago it was simple and quiet, but that might be a legend. There was a schism in V.F.D., a great big fight between many of the members, and since then it’s been hard for me to know what to do.
[The Carnivorous Carnival, Chapter Seven]

There is something quite absurd about this conflict. Actually, Kit and Dewey believe the Schism happened when they were about four years old, which means that most of the adults of "A Series of Unfortunate Events” are probably too young to remember it anyway. The origins of the Schism are so obscure they border on mythology: children follow their elders’ instructions without questions, and with each generation, more and more knowledge is lost. Does anyone actually understand what the Schism involves at this point?

Let’s try to move beyond the fog of war and carefully analyze the strategic dynamics of VFD before and after the Schism. Only then will we propose a frightening theory on the reasons which led to this great divide… after the cut.

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lov-lymj  asked:

what were your thoughts on 117 do you think our ship sank permanently? I mean I expected Pin to reject her and not giving her any "wait till you graduated" hopes, but still a part of me just died. Pin is really one hell of a good complex character, a insight chapter would do wonders haha.

Thank you so much @lov-lymj for reaching out to me about my thoughts! I agree that a chapter from Pin’s perspective would be the best thing ever (actually can we get a whole spin-off series of Kimi ni Todoke from his point of view? Please Shiina?). 

I’d been meaning to write out my thoughts on Chapter 117 for a while, but then I thought the moment had passed, so thank you for giving me a reason to get everything out. Unfortunately, you asked someone who LOVES to talk, so your answer is about 4 pages worth of word vomit and feelings.

Still, I hope you and any other ayapinners who are worried about our ship sinking will find some encouragement in my analysis. Obviously these are just my opinions and interpretations, and you are totally free to disagree.

Let me start off by saying I also felt like a little part of me died when I first read the chapter summary for 117, and based on what I was seeing in the Japanese forum I follow, a lot of people felt let down or disappointed with the outcome. Like you, I wasn’t expecting him to “accept” her feelings in this chapter. I thought he would probably reject her, but that we would be given at least a hug or some sort of real indication that they’d get together in the future. When I was reading the Japanese summaries and poring over people’s comments, there seemed to be very little hope.

But then I saw the chapter.

Our ship, far from sinking, has new wind in its sails.

The big event in Chapter 117 is Ayane’s confession, and Pin verbally, formally, rejects her. He says to her roughly what he said to Kurumi at the beginning of the manga, that she’s too young (paraphrasing), and deflects her attempts to draw out his true feelings. Ayane thinks to herself that she’s been utterly defeated, and resolves to make the best of things and move forward; while her eating the cough drop and resolution to become an adult that Pin will be proud of are preferable to seeing her broken and devastated, they do seem to give an impression that things are finished for ayapin.

If we only look at this course of events, it is easy to believe that we have witnessed the bittersweet end of a doomed pairing that, nevertheless, had lovely development.

But there’s a lot more to the chapter than Ayane’s confession. I would even go so far as to say this chapter invites us into Pin’s perspective for the first time, and that if we look closely at that, there’s so much going on under the surface of his rejection.

When Pin thinks she failed, he bends over backwards to comfort her however he can; he makes them coffee, he very gently places her mug in front of her (before carelessly slamming his own on the table), he prioritizes her feelings over his own health, he compliments her efforts and encourages her (using a variety of tactics), and he is visibly distressed when she starts crying (he even moves closer to her while she’s inconsolable).

Then when she tells him she passed the exam, he gets so riled up that he nearly tells her he was waiting for her all day. His reaction as he cuts himself off is very interesting – for some reason, he doesn’t want her to know that he was waiting for her. He almost gets carried away with his feelings, but pulls back at the last second; he then denies it with an immature expression. When he finally admits that he was waiting for her, he doesn’t just say, “Yes I waited a while” or “Yeah I waited a little, I guess” – he fervently declares that he was waiting for her the entire day. This poignant moment is filled with tension, and from the shading and his expression, it seems to be one in which he is releasing very pent-up feelings (kind of a confession in its own right).

The next moment is equally revealing. When she cries again, there are sparkles around her (in fact, there are sparkles around her almost every time she cries in this chapter) – and we seem to be seeing her from Pin’s perspective. He smiles at her affectionately (which she doesn’t see), but his face is partially obscured; the panel has an air of mystery, and is reminiscent of certain panels of his in other chapters (87, 93, 97, 112). I get the sense that something is hidden from us in moments like these. During the toast, her tearful smile really surprises him, and in the next panel he is at a loss for words; I don’t think it’s making too big a leap here to say that, if he hasn’t already (he totally has), this is the moment when he thinks, “She’s cute.” He frantically leaves the room to dry his hair, despite the fact that they were in the middle of celebrating…

(Aaah, nothing like a lot of hot air blowing in your face to deflate the sexual tension!)

When he comes back and notices the box, Ayane asks him if he knows what day it is. Pin, the guy who is always very conscious of Valentine’s Day / romantic holidays (and how popular he is), says, “It’s the day your results come out.” He has been so focused on Ayane Ayane’s exam result that he has entirely forgotten Valentine’s Day! That’s huge!

And during her confession…

He gives her an out. But she refuses to take it. Even knowing that she won’t be accepted, she is completely honest about her feelings.

His expression when she looks him in the eye and tells him she loves him is probably my favorite in the chapter, and maybe even the whole series. I honestly don’t know how Shiina got the lines so soft…He is completely blown away by her. Pin knows Ayane better than any other person in this series; he realized her feelings at Christmas, but he probably never expected her to admit them. He thinks very highly of her, but I think he believed she would always keep her feelings to herself, because that’s what she’s done with her emotions throughout the story. He isn’t allowed to return her feelings while he’s her teacher, so he tries to spare her any added embarrassment by discreetly letting her know that he already knows. So to see this girl he thought he knew so well bravely and defiantly confess to him, to witness her fighting for him despite her fear – there’s such a beautiful sense of wonder and surprise on his face.

And his answer is far from straightforward, despite his line about her being “10 years early” and “out of range”; even though he verbally rejects her, he eats every last chocolate in the box. Not just one out of pity, or two to appease her. The man who makes a point of complaining about how much he dislikes sweet things eats them all, and even says they taste good.

I believe that in eating all of the chocolate, he is actually accepting her feelings. He can’t return them at this moment (concern for her future, age gap, professionalism, all of the above, whatever it may be), but he can accept them in his heart. After eating the chocolate, there is a heavily shaded partial close-up of Pin’s face, and he doesn’t speak to her immediately. He seems to be considering something… If he didn’t have any feelings for her, I don’t think he would need such a long time to formulate a rejection. I don’t think he would keep her waiting in suspense that long for no reason. And he stares at her so intently. In these panels, I see an inner struggle – he wants to formally accept, but more than his own happiness, he wants her to be free to pursue her dreams without a guy (who will probably always live in Kitahoro) holding her back.

So he gives her a genuine smile and tries to reject her with as much levity as possible.

And if we were still in doubt that he’s holding something back, Shiina goes out of her way to give us another telling moment.

When Ayane asks Pin if he ever thought she was cute, he is initially surprised. Looking at her eager, hopeful expression, he seems somewhat wistful, and his face has that meaningful shadow. We know that he thought she was cute in this chapter (before he left to dry his hair), and there have been moments in other chapters when he might have; but he playfully taps her head and denies it with a smile. So what we can infer is, if he’s holding that back, what else is he hiding from her?

The praise he gives her as she’s leaving is also, to me, a sort of confession. We learn that he hasn’t forgotten about the time she gave him chocolate in Chapter 45 – the moment that has been of recurring importance to Ayane throughout the series has not only been remembered by Pin, but treasured. He tells her he was happy when she did that, and showers her with praise for her kindness and personal growth. To me, it sounds as if he’s telling her all the reasons he loves her without being able to use those words.

And that’s what I think this chapter confirms. Pin does love her, and has for a long time, whether he fully realizes it or not. And I think Shiina is telling us not to give up hope, even if the timing is not right at this particular moment.

Looking at the chapter from a narrative point of view, it makes no sense to show us so many reactions from Pin if this really is the end of the line. We see him worry and get flustered over her – what would be the point if this was it? In fact, if her only intention was to give Ayane a bittersweet first love, I don’t think she would have so carefully and gradually built up all of their moments together. Why show us any reactions from Pin at all? He’s technically a supporting character, their chapters are always in Ayane’s perspective – if she was planning for an ending where they can’t ever be together, why have so many scenes that illustrate their mutual closeness? She could have just had Ayane pining for him and shown us a kind but disinterested Pin. Their interactions do not resemble those of Chizu and Tohru early on in the series, where there is a large degree of distance on one side and a childhood crush on the other. Pin clearly cares for Ayane deeply, and time and time again we see his very personal investment in her aspirations and feelings.

As far as what will happen between them going forward, I’m really not sure.

I’ve strongly believed for a while that we will get a pretty heart-pounding interaction between them after graduation, and I’m still hoping for one (why not? lol). Again, thinking about things narratively, and keeping in mind that Shiina loves her ayapin foreshadowing: why have Ayane’s results come out on Valentine’s Day? Why have Ayane confess on Valentine’s Day? She’s given Pin chocolate on the last two, so it rounds things in her arc out nicely. But I think it’s more than that. If her confession happened any other day, there wouldn’t be a follow-up…but what if White Day happens to fall after the graduation ceremony? Pin is, at the very least, “obligated” to give her something in return for the Valentine’s chocolate he accepted…and if it’s after graduation…well, maybe they won’t date, but I’m hoping we get some sort of encouraging interaction since he’ll no longer be her teacher (maybe he’ll give her his number and tell her to keep in touch, or finally admit that he does think she’s cute). I really do believe we’re in for a surprise after graduation, and that some of the depressing “finality” in this chapter is to mislead us so that we’re really surprised later. I think Shiina is building us up for a sweet, unexpected pay-off down the road…

I also think the graduation photo album could have an impact on Pin at the ceremony – in Chapter 115 Chigusa mentions that she’s taking pictures for the album, and Shiina might be foreshadowing a slideshow or something. That picture of them having a great time together really affected Ayane, so maybe it could make Pin realize something too…

And if that doesn’t happen, I’m 95 percent sure we’ll see them either dating, married, or running into each other and connecting in a 10-years-later epilogue (even Pin’s rejection hints at this). I would love to see one of the first two options especially (because after waiting this long it would be great to see them finally together as a couple), but I could also see Shiina doing the classic “What?! It’s you, Yano?!” mix-up (slow-burn til the end, haha).

Having said all of that, I could be wrong. There’s a new chapter coming out this week that may render all of this analysis completely irrelevant, or we may find out in a few months that this chapter was indeed the end for them. But until Shiina is done with this wonderful series, I think we should keep our heads up, because anything could happen.

I personally believe she won’t disappoint us. Ayane and Pin are always featured with the other two couples on magazine and chapter covers (115 spotlighted the 3 couples a ton even in the chapter itself), and after 12 years of slowly and carefully building their relationship, I can’t imagine Shiina just throwing ayapin away at the end; if this were a one-shot manga or a story that had only 50 chapters, I would be a little more concerned. Plus, Ayane has been through so much and endured and grown – I think Shiina will give her a happy ending, ultimately, because she really, really deserves one. If the other two couples are still together in the final chapter, I think Ayane and Pin definitely have a future together.

This was a very long way of saying to you and all ayapin shippers, “Please don’t be discouraged or give up hope!” I’m also anxious to see what will happen, but given the way their relationship was portrayed in this chapter, I’m inclined to believe that this is only the beginning for them. :) 

HP AU (Part 2)

(I’ll leave Aizawa’s not under the cut so you guys can see how it’s set up! Not everyone is in this, just class 1A but if you’d like the others I’d be happy to do them upon request!)

Aizawa Shouta:
Patronus – Ragdoll cat.
Blood Status – Half-blood.
Quidditch Position – None. It didn’t interest him but he did help out others who wanted to train, and thus he has some knowledge of each position.
Future Career – Defense Against the Dark Arts Professor (technically current career). It was a subject he was both knowledgeable about, being a former Auror, and taught with ease. He was big on not just attacking these dark spells, but on learning how to defend.

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Critical Role DWTS AU

Except the Stars are being groomed for major political influence in the near future.

Professional: Vex’ahlia

Star: Percival de Rolo, a minor nobleman from a minor country

The Favorite to win. Percy has a court-polished grace that appeals to the audience.  He’s a bit unnerved by Vex’s tendency towards the provocative, but gets into the spirit of things as they grow closer, which results in some scintillating Latin dances, while his courtly behavior gives their Waltz and Foxtrot some class.

Professional: Vax’ildan

Star: Keyleth, heir apparent to a rather remote tribe who has been deliberately seeking contacts outside her small sphere.

Her lack of people-skills and general anxiety harms her a LOT in the early rounds.  A few weeks in, they stop filming any sort of Backstory and stick to the rehearsals. Vax builds his choreography around the anticipation of her giving into the rhythm, which pays off. They make it to the Finals.

Professional: Scanlan Shorthalt

Star: Pike Trickfoot, a major influence in her religion

Scanlan is known for flashy, crowd-pleasing moves, even at the expense of Technical points.  Pike is rather heavy-footed, which clashes with Scanlan’s fancy footwork. Also, Scanlan plays up an imaginary romance to court the audience, which annoys Pike.  Eventually, he backs off, they focus on the dances, she gains more agility, and something real starts to spark. Scanlan is disqualified for drug possession just-before the quarter-finals.

Professional: Grog Strongjaw

He’s eliminated week 1.

Collateral Damage

On this post @hedgehog-goulash7 said 

Steve has the outlook of a professional leader of soldiers, a commander - he knows there are always “collateral damages” and his practical viewpoint is the necessity of accepting that unfortunate fact. It’s a pragmatic view, but it disposes with individual or personal accountability. But soldiers are “just following orders;” they don’t need to be personally accountable. If soldiers paused to think about valuing each and every human life, how would their “job” ever be done?

They then proceeded to talk about Tony’s more humanitarian view point, but I think this can be elaborated on. Because, in a way I disagree.

A professional leader of soldiers, is aware that there will be collateral damage. However, there is a system for looking at whether or not those collateral damages could have been avoided. And it is their job to work to minimize collateral damage during battles, but also to prepare and train in such a way as to minimize them in future battles. 

A professional leader dealing in collateral damage shouldn’t day “Shit happens., it’s not our fault. end of sentence.” They should say “Shit Happens sometimes, and it sucks. What can we do to make sure that it’s not this bad next time? Where can we improve? What went wrong here?” Sometimes the answer is there’s nothing we can do, or could have done. But the question needs to be asked. 

Steve doesn’t seem to ask that question. He tells Wanda it’s not her fault, these things happen. Maybe that was true, maybe there was no better course of action. Maybe her powers can’t stop an explosion. But isn’t it worth looking into to prevent further tragedies?

I would be far more comforted by efforts to improve, then I would be by the writing off of damages as a lost cause. 

Maybe Tony is too idealistic, maybe his goal of 0 civilian casualties is unattainable (It is.), but 0 casualties is what we should always strive for, and work towards. 

upthefemme  asked:

hi there leela :) maybe this is something you have/will talk about if you do a fullfledged review of the past video but do you think the horse prince is actually, in some ways the most they've pushed the envelope re: getting us comfy w/ them being together? 'cause , like, you can go lol horses all you want, it doesn't change the fact that you're recording romantic/erotic(???) RP with your bro. (dan's fake choking was like...wow y'all are really going there??) Just curious of your thoughts.

hi :) i think it’s perhaps the most comfortable they’ve been in breaking some of the unspoken PG boundaries that exist on dapg. they’re quickly normalizing talking about sexual themes and talking about them together (rather than dan just making a weird sexual remark every now and then) and i think that’s important (though i would argue that other videos have done this too, to lesser extents). i also think it’s been somewhat aimed at getting more comfortable voicing sexual attraction to a male character and making sure the audience knows they experience same gender attraction (though obvi thats a bigger step for phil than dan). and i did write in my response to the first horse vid that it seems notable that they’re rly into the idea of this game that involves them roleplaying w each other so sexually when just a few months ago ppl were like losing their shit over the idea of them doing that two sentence scene in undertale where the guards realize they’re attracted to each other? lmao. 

but despite their excitement around it, i don’t think it’s a specific or targeted attempt to get people comfortable with their togetherness, especially when you compare it to other ostensible “““boundaries””” they’ve been breaking lately: all of their little comments about sharing all of their possessions or their domestic stories that they tell on younow that always involve each other or all the allusions to planning for the future together both professionally and personally or all the ways they’ve been promoting and talking about each other on social media and all the soft touching they’ve become suddenly comfortable with in the last three months and their own organically generated sexual teasing and innuendos that are directed at each other (rather than ones they’re reading from a script) and their openly going on several dates all throughout january and february and a few even in the last couple weeks (the cursed child, all the movie nights, the sushi nights out, the afternoon tea, etc etc) and the way they’ve shared stories about those dates with us quite happily and dan openly going to be with phil and his family for phil’s birthday and the way they kept posting photos about their walk.  for me their togetherness has always evinced itself through these small details and larger stories that demonstrate that they can’t imagine or even begin to talk about their individual lives without talking about each other, much more than sexual remarks ever have–but that’s a whole other conversation about why people define relationships and “togetherness” in such a particular way, and why ppl need confirmation that they touch each others’ dicks in order to be “convinced” that they’re together. like they can literally go out of their way to talk about all of the ways they depend on each other and need each other and do every single part of life together but bc we don’t have those comments about sexual/physical attraction people don’t acknowledge their togetherness? i’ve never understood that. but insofar as that standard does exist, you’re right in suggesting that the sexual comments do take on a particular importance bc for some people they will be a decisive factor in how they perceive dnp’s relationship. but all of that being said, i don’t think they’re really planning or coordinating a strategy to get us to see them and their relationship status a particular way. rather i think what we’re seeing is the cessation of their caring about the way they are perceived. they are just loosening up on many fronts in order to let themselves act more naturally on camera (by which i mean let themselves act more like they do off-camera) and so it’s less about making targeted and premeditated decisions about how to make us see their togetherness and more about acting like their true selves. in the process, we are just seeing more examples and manifestations of what has always been there

y’all wanna be critics y’all better act like critics instead of using the vague umbrella of “critique” as an excuse to be an asshole

1. There are multiple lenses of critique. This is like basic ass entry level “how to critique 101″ but it’s worth mentioning. Tumblr as a trend tends to view things through feminist/gender & queer studies/socioeconomical lenses. Which is good, because those tend to be in the minority for critics! But even so it’s important to remember that your perspective is not the only one. Ideally the creator looks at critiques from all angles and uses the combined knowledge of them to figure what to change/do better for their next project. That’s the creator’s job—not yours. 

2. I repeat: your critique is never, never, the full picture. Ever. No matter how much time you spend on it. The idea of a single critic somehow viewing a piece of media through every conceivable lens, condensing what they’ve learned into a single distilled review encompassing all those conceivable lenses, and presenting that review in a format that’s digestible to readers, is borderline impossible. (And at the very least ridiculously time consuming.)

3. No lens has more weight than any other. This can get a little frustrating, especially when viewing a work through a lens where personal emotions/experiences might be involved, and especially when a Marxist critique drags on 10 pages too long, but playing favorites would severely damage the concept of literary critique as a whole. 

4. Other than in maybe like… two (?) schools of thought, critique never views the work in the context of the creator. I know this is an easy pitfall to make when so many creators are freely available online but pulling up a tweet a creator may have made as support for something you’re trying to prove about a work just isn’t going to fly. The work has to speak for itself. AKA the infamous Death Of The Author.

5. CRITIQUES ARE NOT ABOUT THE AUTHOR/CREATOR. Holy shit. If you don’t like something about a piece of media, a well-written criticism is a perfect way to handle and express that. But it is no reason and, more importantly, no excuse to harass a creator personally. If your critique of a television episode is worded like a call-out post you’re Doing It Wrong. 

6. Critique is about improving the future of media! No professional or academic critic would ever ask (and certainly not harass/threaten/or otherwise obligate) a creator to amend, redo, or censor any work they have published. In fact many would probably argue against tampering with published media! (A la the original Star Wars trilogy, or good old JK and her weird Harry Potter addendums.) Critique is about helping a creator notice their flaws and hopefully improve their future works. Not to alter their current work to what you think it should be.

7. Every artist has flaws and to expect otherwise is to be barely literate in either media creation or critique.

8. At the end of the day, the art is not yours. More and more creators are becoming interactive on social media, oftentimes taking the time to discuss fan concerns or showcase fan-created content. This is a fun thing! But it also might give the impression to the audience that they have more power than they actually do in influencing the creator. Never mistake your own frustration of “How-I-Would-Do-It” as genuine critique. Your ideas of how to “fix it” are better suited to fix-it-fanfics. If you’re interested in the art of actual critique, find your lens, and formulate your concerns with a tone of maturity and respect. You’ll find you’ll get more respect in return. 

songwriters pt. 7

whee here’s part 7! The next Yoongi POV is coming in two parts or so so stay tuned! Thank you to everyone who’s been reading <3 - admin lily

part one | part two | part three | part four | part five | part six 

You woke up the next day feeling like the coaching with BTS had been a really pleasant dream. But after checking your phone, you were reminded that it was very real indeed. You stared at the short conversation you had with Yoongi and smiled to yourself. This truly was surreal, and you had a feeling this new job would change your life.

After a quick breakfast, you headed out to meet Jung-ho at his office. You still had other work to wrap up, which thankfully kept you occupied and avoided you to overthink what had happened with Yoongi. Your next mission with BTS had been confirmed. You were to coach Jungkook on his cover of Charlie Puth’s ‘We Don’t Talk Anymore’. It wasn’t R&B, but he needed a few pointers on his English pronunciation. You weren’t a huge fan of the song mainly because you didn’t relate to the lyrics, but the actual melody had potential.

You rehearsed the song with Jung-ho quickly for his approval before he contacted Big Hit to set a date. The cover was set to be released a few weeks later so you had to feel confident that you coach Jungkook to perfection.

“Y/N, you’ve been singing really well lately. It’s too bad you don’t write your own songs, I’d probably sign you” Jung-ho said jokingly.

“Oh, thank you sunbaenim, but I really don’t think I’m made to perform.”

You always knew that the spotlight didn’t belong to you and you were okay with that. Music had to be a part of your life, but performing really wasn’t your goal.

“I could probably get you a few gigs in bars if you ever want to sing. I think you’d do pretty well, especially now that you’re learning a whole new set of covers for the BTS boys”

“Hmm, well definitely not now but I’ll think about it…Thank you sunbae, your support means a lot.”

Jung-ho looked at you with sad eyes. You knew it bothered him to see your talent wasted, but there really wasn’t anything that you could do for him. You had one track mind, and that didn’t include a stage with your name on it.

The following Monday, Jung-ho came to pick you up to go to Big Hit. You had dressed simply, wearing a knit black dress with tights and black booties. You were still very conscious of not dressing to show yourself off and you valued plainness over flashiness. This time you had your hair up in a messy bun, your bangs framing your face and you wore gold 70s inspired gold hooped earrings to feel at least a minimum pulled together.

This time you were both greeted by BTS’ famous manager Sejin and you found yourself internally fangirling for a second. Sejin was famous for being a very caring and reasonable person, which you really looked up to, especially in this business. He led you to a smaller studio to warm up, letting you know that Jungkook would join you in a moment. You weren’t as nervous as the last time you were at Big Hit, but felt a bit uneasy to coach someone one-on-one. Jungkook knocked and stepped in shyly, politely bowing and greeting you. You stood up and bowed, and noticed how intense his eyes were. He was young but you could tell he had the confidence of a man much older.

“Jungkook-ssi, lovely to see you again. Let’s work hard together today.”

“Thank you sunbaenim. Call I call you Y/N-noona? I feel a bit odd since you’re my hyung’s age.” Jungkook asked softly, his big puppy dog eyes looking at you playfully.

“Oh…well…sure whatever makes you feel more comfortable.” You replied, uneasy at his attitude towards you. You had a quick look at him while grabbing yourself a glass of water and understood that he was quite the heartthrob, his loose jeans and rolled oversized shirt unable to conceal his muscles and veiny arms. You had a weakness for nice hands and arms but Jungkook’s pretty boy act wasn’t enough to sway you away from your professionalism. You were there to coach him, and the eye candy didn’t matter.

You asked him to sing ‘We Don’t Talk Anymore’ for you and understood what you had to work on with him right away. His pronunciation was actually quite good, but he needed a few pointers for some consonants and breathing pointers. His interpretation was fairly good as well, and you suspected he worked hard on understanding the lyrics before covering them.

After giving him a few diction exercises to work on and signalling where you felt he needed to spend a little bit more time, you wondered how you were going to fill the entire hour you had left with him.

“Jungkook I honestly feel you’ve got this song under your belt, did you want to end this short? I know you’re quite busy and wouldn’t want to keep you”.

“Noona, actually, I wanted to ask you if we could record it together so that I can work on it on my own…”

“Oh well…is that okay?” You were nervous at the thought of you being recorded since it wasn’t in the contract you had quickly went over with Manager Sejin and Jung-ho.

“I’ll just do it on my laptop! Honestly it’s just for me to practice, please noona?”

You got up from the piano and sighed. It was really difficult to say no to the Bangtan boys.

“Sure Jungkook. I guess I’ll sing Selena’s part?”

Jungkook beamed. He was cute, gorgeous, and talented, but you didn’t feel the anticipation you felt when performing with Yoongi. Was it because of his age? Or his musical maturity? You weren’t sure.

Jungkook pulled up the background track and his self-confidence radiated. Unlike with Yoongi, you felt like he was looking at you instead of singing with you. It was an odd experience and you didn’t really enjoy it.

Your own performance felt a little bit disconnected but you were happy Jungkook was making an effort to pay attention to what you had just told him. He was quick at self-correcting and you saw the years of training behind him shining through. He really was impressive.

“That was great Jungkook! I’m sure the final cover will be amazing, I can’t wait for it to be released.”

“You’re such a great singer noona…I’m surprised you don’t have a solo career especially since you look so amazing…”

You looked up at Jungkook, alarmed.

“Do you have a studio? I learned so much from you and would love to work more with you.”

Jungkook’s attitude switched to cute puppy to hungry wolf and you noticed it right away. He had moved closer, his eyes were looking lower than you liked.

“Thank you for the compliment, but I really don’t think you’ll need further coaching from me on this song but if your voice coach feel like you need more help feel free to contact my manager.” You said sternly. You were really turned off by this whole situation. The song wasn’t your thing, and the air had become so hormone filled that you felt like you were in a crowded club. You moved away from Jungkook and packed your tote quickly.

“Oh okay. I guess I’ll see you at the group coaching.” Jungkook seemed shocked that you hadn’t fell into his arms and his bitterness was starting to show.

“Yes! Thank you for your time today, you’re really talented. I’ll get going now.” You left calmly but were raging inside. As a woman in the music industry, you often felt like you had to constantly watch how you behaved in case people misunderstood you as a groupie. Situations like these made it difficult for you to stay professional, especially since you were known to have a temper.

The sound of the heels of your booties resonated as you walked down the corridor hastily. As you were rummaging in your tote to reach for your phone to call Jung-ho, you looked up to see Yoongi coming out of a studio.

“Oh.” He said simply.

“Yoongi-ssi” you said quietly. You stopped to talk to him. He seemed in a good mood, his complexion much better than a few weeks earlier. He looked so different from Jungkook, and reminded you of the guys you knew from music school. He was wearing black jeans and sneakers, and an unbuttoned flannel over a tshirt.

“I guess today was the coaching with Jungkook huh…” he said, his voice a little raspy.

“Yes, we just finished. He didn’t need much coaching to be honest.”

Yoongi smiled.

“Yeah they’re hyping up that cover a lot. It’s good that you got to help him a bit.”

“Yes well…I tried my best to help him perfect it.” Yoongi had been acting so gently that it made you feel uneasy and you avoided his gaze, blushing slightly.

“Oh um, well, actually, now that you’re here do you have a few minutes to—

“Y/N! You’re done already?”

Jung-ho had appeared with Manager Sejin, beaming. You turned back at Yoongi who by that point had stopped smiling. You felt disappointed and wondered what he was about to ask you.

“Yes, I was just telling Yoongi-ssi that Jungkook didn’t need much coaching because his cover was so great already.” You turned to manager Sejin and bowed politely. “Thank you for this great opportunity.”

“It’s our pleasure. The boys enjoyed your coaching last time and because of recent international promotions we need all the help we can get. Right Yoongi?”

Yoongi nodded, clearly annoyed.

“Shall we, Y/N? Sejin-ssi, it was lovely seeing you but we shouldn’t bother you much longer.”

You looked up quickly at Yoongi who returned your gaze, bowed and went back in the studio. Perhaps he was disappointed too, you wondered.


In the car, you gave a detailed run-down of what happened with Jungkook to Jung-ho. As you suspected, he wasn’t happy that he had recorded you but applauded you for your professionalism when you talked to him about how you felt when Jungkook asked to meet up outside of work.

“I’m worried this might hinder future professional encounters with them, sunbae…what should I do? Should I avoid working one-on-one with them?”

Jung-ho wasn’t pleased but you were comfortable talking freely to him and Young-ja.

“Big Hit are very sensitive about scandals so I’ll give Sejin a call. He’s a reasonable man and I’ll explain the concerns you’re having as soon as we get back to the studio. And I think you’re right, we should stick to group coachings.”

You were relieved that Jung-ho was supportive but a part of you mourned other one-on-one coachings you might’ve had. Perhaps this was all for the best, you thought to yourself, while looking out the window.

CSBB Author Spotlight: the-corsair-and-her-quill

Today’s Captain Swan Big Bang Spotlight features @the-corsair-and-her-quill!

What is your writing process like?

I usually write down, pen to paper, every scene. I think that’s the best way to think. I read it out loud, imagine the expressions of the character. And when I do write, I mimic some of the actions, see how it comes out in real life so I can incorporate it exactly. I usually write three-four scenes maybe, at one sitting. But I try to make it as long as possible.

What do you think your greatest strength is as a writer?

I think my strength is in how I write my dialogues. Words are everything to me, and I personally think that my lines would be something that resonates with people, and is true to the characters.

What’s a particular trope or kind of story you’ve wanted to try, but haven’t gotten to yet?

I’ve always wanted to try a secret romance trope, or a forbidden romance trope because it has the best parts of all other favs - friends to lovers and angst!

Who is your favorite OUAT character to write?

Killian Jones. ALL FORMS OF KILLIAN JONES, but my favorite is Killian as he is now, a man with flaws and so so so REAL. For one, the character is one I have a connection with. I am the kind of person who knows self-loathing to a T, and I know how difficult change is. I’ve been told a few times how I write Killian so well, and I think it’s mostly because he’s the epitome of what love and kindness can do to bring a man from darkness to light!

If you are new to the Captain Swan Big Bang, what made you decide to sign up? What are you looking forward to?

The first reason I signed up for it is because I wanted to just do something without overthinking it. I knew that it was a huge commitment, but I wanted to do it because I know I can. I just needed that push.

The thing I’m looking forward to most would probably be getting more involved in the fandom. I’ve been a part of it for 2.5 years, and I just wanted to be more active and get to meet and interact with more of the amazing people from the fandom!

Favorite Fics:

Red Hearts and Non-Believers (AO3)

This is my first bigggg fic, and I drew inspiration from my personal AND future professional life. Psychology is a huge part of who I am, and I wanted to give a Grey’s kind of spin to it. And I’m just really proud of the way I stretched out the romance, because that’s really hard for me.

The “‘Are We There Yet?” Series (AO3)

This was the first time I’d worked in OCs in my fic. And I just loved the dynamic between Killian and his niece and daughter!

First In Line (AO3)

This again, I was inspired by my degree. I remember staying up late cramming for an exam the next day, and I came across postpartum blues and I thought “CS in this situation would be sooo painful yaaas!” PS. I love angst.

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