future in our present

Today’s history is our present and future as we celebrate political prisoners for Black Futures Month. This powerful poster was created by Kendrick Daye @kendrickdaye . Also find him at  http://www.instagram.com/kendrickdaye & http://www.twitter.com/kendrickdaye

The accompanying article was written by Asha Bandele and can be read here: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/asha-bandele-/black-panthers-are-still-fighting-for-freedom_b_9247294.html

#BlackFutureMonth #BlackLivesMatter #VisionsOfABlackFuture

A Guide to 19 Days and Recap

Whether you’re new to 19 Days and are having trouble understanding it or you’ve been through the whole process of waiting in agony for the next update and have forgotten how the story is set up, here’s a helpful guide to just that. I don’t guarantee that I’m 100% correct. I may be interpreting the cues incorrectly.

Warning: This is gonna be LONG.

We start chapters 1-54 all condensed into one file. These are either official art or little comics about what seem to be our kids in the future.

Our story actually begins on chapter 42, in the present. A bloody Jian Yi suddenly shows up in front of Zhan Zheng Xi.

According to what Xixi says in the next couple of chapters, Jian Yi disappeared on the second day of high school. (RIP Me. I died re-reading “He was my best friend at the time.”) The way Xixi says it makes it seem as if this is way after Xixi graduated(”Oh right, where did you disappear to when I was in high school?”), maybe university. (Might just be a mistake in translation, though.)

Apparently, Jian Yi still has to do the homework he missed throughout the years or something. (Ch. 47)

A couple more future/present comics and then we finally start “The Flashback™”on chapter 50. (Whoops forgot to mention the days of the week.)

We start this day with a sweet and funny premise. Nothing is going wrong, we are laughing and absolutely adoring this slice-of-life manhua…. (Little did we know it would later tear our hearts apart.)

We are introduced to these middle-schoolers, their relationship, and their school life(lmao everyone thinks they’re queer) in Day One, which goes on until chapter 56(Maybe?). (Thursday/Friday?)

(We are interrupted in Day One by the one shot.)

We continue to follow their daily school life. Day Two is a PE day (ugh) and spans from chapter 57(probably) to chapter 66. (Friday/Saturday)

During this second day, Xixi becomes increasingly aware of how intimate Jian Yi and he really are(by the reactions of his peers).

I’d like to mention that I am not completely 100% convinced that Day One and Day two aren’t just one single day, but arranged weirdly…. but for the sake of this guide, we’ll treat them as two separate days.

Okay the start of Day Three. “Yesterday” Xixi invited Jian Yi over to play video games. (Saturday/Sunday)

We interrupt your flashback to bring you “The Future™” Christmas Special!

Okay, we’re back. The Third Day spans from Ch 67 to Ch 97. We get a good laugh but we also learn a lot of things, like how adorable they were when they were kids. We also at first see that Jian Yi seems to have the hots for his best friend, but in that same day we learn that he doesn’t just have a crush on Xixi, he actually holds strong feelings of love for his best friend. So we are starting to see some back story(flashback in a flashback?) and character development, and also something weird with Jian Yi: he’s a lonely child.

FEELINGS.

Alright Day Four (Five? The weekend passed, but we didn’t see Sunday.) begins on chapter 98 and ends on chapter 114. (Monday)

WE MEET HE TIAN. (He used to smile so much wtf. Now he only smirks like he wants to eat you when you let your guard down.)

We also see another flashback of baby Jian Yi, his mother, and possibly his father?

Okay I just noticed He Tian knew from the start Jian Yi liked Xixi lmao.

ALSO IT WAS JIAN YI’S BIRTHDAY.

WHAT WAS HE GONNA SAY?! Okay Day Four - End.

WEEOOO WEEOOO EDGELORD GRANDPA ALERT.

Okay Day Five begins with He Tian, so you know, in case you were wondering, this story isn’t exclusive to the two bestfriends (as we learned along the way). (Tuesday)

Day Five spans from chapter 115 to chapter 130 and it is THE FIGHT DAY™. Shit goes down in this day, the manga takes an unexpected turn, the fandom is confused but also intrigued and heart broken(the start of Old Xian’s tyranny on our feelings).

We see how He Tian seems to have feelings towards Jian Yi, and in the same day, we are introduced to *drumroll* MO. GUAN. SHAN.(But we don’t know his name yet so it’s Redhead for a couple of chapters.) Coincidence? I THINK NOT.

We also are introduced to bracelet dude (She Li) who repeats Jian Yi’s name rather ominously….

Shit is about to go DOWN.

K.O. Okay, NOBODY liked Redhead, I’ve had people say “I always loved Redhead from the beginning.” Like, mmm okay, so you hated Zhan Zheng Xi or something, like aha sure. LIES. Everybody hated Redhead for hurting our precious son.

The start of “HOLY CRAP WHEN’S THE NEXT UPDATE MY HEART IS GOING TO STOP IF I DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!”

The start of Mo Guan Shan’s misery.

ALRIGHT. Day Six! aka… THE STORM™ On this day, we have our hearts ripped out :) (Wednesday)

Ch. 131-144

As you can see, things are getting progressively more interesting and heavy with drama. Not just a slice-of-life anymore. RIP my heart.

Why yes, Jian Yi, he HAS been trained before. By one of your father’s henchmen, which just SO HAPPENS TO BE HIS OLDER BROTHER. But we don’t know that yet ;)

This is why Day Six is called The Storm, btw. It rains on the day everything goes down.

OBLITERATED. This is when I started feeling bad for Mo Guan Shan and disliking He Tian.

Ya, no. Those who say “He just didn’t know how to express his love!”

Look at this panel and tell me that to my face. YOU DON’T HIT THE ONES YOU LOVE.

Needless to say, I do acknowledge that He Tian did indeed start to have feelings for Redhead, but not at this moment.

Day Six is also known as The Kiss (One). Or “The Day We All Freaked Out Waiting For The Next Update.” Also “The Day We Weren’t Prepared For What Was Coming.”

HOOOOBOI HIT ME WITH A TRAIN IT WOULD HURT LESS THAN THIS.

We interrupt your suffering for a CHRISTMAS SPECIAL.

I guess these guys are main guys now. Day Six - End.

GET READY FOR DAY SEVEN aka “The Day After The Storm” AND THE DAY THIS MANHUA TURNS INTO A MAFIA STORY. (Thursday)

Ch. 145-170

Shit is over, the fandom has cried, Jian Yi has cried. BUT NO ONE IS ADDRESSING THE KISS. The fandom is frustrated that Jian Yi keeps avoiding talking about it. C’mon Jian Yi WE WANT YOU TO HEAL.

On this schoolday, we learn He Tian is nasty, Redhead’s dad is in prison, and Zhan Xixi wants to know what is going on with Jian Yi…. and then gets embarrassed when Jian Yi tells him. Oh also, Xixi casually rejects a girl and then gets eaten by a radish.

Following the schoolday, we learn that -WHOA WAIT JUST WHO IS JIAN YI’S FATHER?! WHOA WAIT HOT DAMN JIAN YI’S MOM!! WHOA WAIT HE TIAN IS RELATED TO WHO?! WHOA WAIT WTF IS GOING ON.

Among other things.

The time we hated the little sister.

(I want to put so many pictures cuz honestly every chapter is great but then this would take like five hours to read haha. JUST GO REREAD THE SERIES.)

*slams fist on table* MO GUAN SHAN WANTED HELP FROM HE TIAN BECAUSE HE THOUGHT THEY WERE SEMI-CLOSE. “I MEAN I COOKED FOR YOU? DOESN’T THAT MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?” APPARENTLY NOT.

#Redhead Defense Squad 2k16 (remember that?)

Harassment continues…… but THIS is the moment when He Tian decides, “Ah, yes, I just harassed this dude, time to make him my friend. I don’t know how, but I’m sure it’ll all work out.”

HIT ME WITH AN AIRPLANE WHY DON’T YOU.

Zhan Xixi carrying Jian Yi like a sack of potatoes is my aesthetic.

Oh, right, things get dangerous on Day Seven.


Just Hit Me With All The Transport Vehicles You Can Think Of.

I died already.

And so ends Day Seven.

NOW. It’s a new day. It’s Day Eight. AKA THE KISS(Two). AKA HE TIAN WHY???? Literally Mo was JUST starting to possibly want to be your friend and you had to go jack up. (Friday)

Ch. 171-181

On this day we learn:

Gossipy boys will have shrinking dicks.” -Jian Yi, 2016

Mo GUaN ShAN is his name! Also, he likes to stick sunflower seeds on the windows.

Don’t Close Mountain 2k16

Okay this day is totally more focused on Mo Guan Shan. We see a new side of him that we didn’t know of before. A mature side. Legitimately just tired after the kiss. Confused, very frustrated that someone would take advantage of him like that, but he also doesn’t hate He Tian, despite all the shit he’s done to him. That’s how nice Mo is. And then he’s faced with an important decision.

We meet She Li, who sucks ass as of right now (don’t know if he will have a redemption arc) but seemingly likes Jian Yi’s healthy skin.


RIP Mo’s Sandwich.

He was STARING at you because he READ YOUR NOTE and was gonna be all “Okay whatever I’ll cook for you again. Can’t you just ask like a normal human?”

Asks the guy who only knows this dude for THREE days and then pulls a stunt like that. I FEEL NO SYMPATHY FOR YOU HE TIAN.

EVERYONE AGREES MO’S MOM DESERVES BEST MOM AWARD 2016

In case you were doubting it, this is a manga focusing on gansters and how they fuck up other’s lives.

Slice-of-life my butthole.

The moment I fell in love with Mo Guan Shan and vowed to always protect him.

Jian Yi voices our opinions.

THAT ENDS DAY EIGHT.

Finally! Day Nine! We’ve made it this far my dudes! (Saturday: Either they have school regularly on Saturdays, or there was a timeskip between Jian Yi’s Birthday, aka Day Four, and Day Five. We’ll just have to wait to see what Day Ten lands on.)

Ch. 182-Ongoing

The day following Mo Guan Shan’s decision, he realizes he was played. Luckily, Jian Yi, Zhan Xixi, and that one girl are there to prove Mo’s innocence. He Tian, suddenly feeling protective over Mo Guan Shan, decides to take this one on one with She Li.

This is the day we get to see Mo start to slowly accept ~friends~ and He Tian. I think he’s had some time to think over THE KISS(Two). And he’s quick to forgive He Tian, not because he loves him, but because he’s a nice soul. He Tian is getting some redemption today and is being a little more cautious around Mo (The Kiss(Two) was JUST yesterday, guys.)

We get to finally see the four hang out together and all around, just have a break from all the shit that’s been going on. Unrequited love, questions about sexuality, attempted kidnapping, being framed for a crime, dirty fistfights. Jesus, just give these boys a break. When are they going to worry about finals and homework like normal students?

MO LOVES HIS MOM AND DOESN’T WANT TO DISAPPOINT/WORRY HER AND THAT WARMS MY HEART.

The friend you harassed up until one day ago? That’s a funny definition of friend you got there, He Tian. (I loved He Tian in the beginning, then disliked him during his interactions with Mo, but I’m slowly learning to love him again with these new updates.)

The moment when I screamed “I DISLIKE HIM BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN I WANT HIM DEAD!!11!!1!”

Mo Guan Shan: Jesus Christ, why do I feel for this asshole?

He Tian: Jesus Christ, why can’t I tell him I like him like a proper human being?

aka The Update That Saved US


THAT’S ALL GUYS OH MY- I am exhausted.

We’ve made it this far.

Please continue to support Old Xian and 19 Days!

darkcrownobservation  asked:

Are we going to fight the present government to insure the future for our planet? To try and reverse the most absurd decisions American, AMERICAN people have made and are STILL making? Hell Yeah! We lost the battle but the war is in all of our hands, lets not get them soiled by the blood of our own countrymen. Unless its' Donald Trumps. And that's not a threat, It's a warning

PREACH MY BRUTHAH

To the one I love the most,


The sad part is, I’m right for you. You know that. You’ve always known that. But as much as you could picture a future for us, you couldn’t handle our present. And I understand because you need time to find yourself and not being tied down by us, no matter how perfect our future together could have been. Today is what matters most. And today, I let you go.


But letting you go was easy because I love you. I love you for everything that you are and everything you’re going to be. You’re not meant to be caged, my love. You’re meant to soar and let the world see you. And if they could see just a glimpse of you, the way I’ve always seen you, they should realize how iridescent you are. And yeah, one day you’ll see yourself in the same light. I’ll always root for you.


I have no regrets. There’s nothing that I’d like to take back. Because even though our story ended, it doesn’t mean the journey wasn’t a splendid one. You’ve made me the happiest and I’d like to believe I’ve done the same. For now. Because I hope you’ll find other happiness, a better one. You deserve that. And I’ll love you for always, in the most genuine and selfless form of love. You deserve nothing less than that.


We’ve learned from each other and you might not believe this, but I am more of myself, the person I’m meant to be because of you. And you are better now, please believe that. Don’t let your past keep bringing you down, don’t doubt your own strength to save yourself. It’s time to let go and reach for that light, it’s there, you just have to see what’s in front of you. And just be patient. You don’t need to rush just because you were fumbling while everyone was running.


And when you’re ready to take a step forward, you’re most probably going to meet someone new and you’ll be better for her. And you’ll know that you deserve to be loved and fought for even more fiercely than how I loved and fought for you. Don’t ever settle for someone who can’t love you easily. Even on your dark days. The right kind of love will stay even when the world turns its back on you. It’ll stay and persevere.


I love you. And my love lingers even when we’re not us anymore. So if you ever find yourself needing to lean on someone who would understand, who would not question, who would not run away from your demons, who would only welcome you with warmth and salvation, I’m here. I’ll always be here for you.


But today, I am letting you go…

—  Dev
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James Lovelock et al: The Earth and I (2016)

“Our lofty status comes with responsibility as much as possibility: How should we approach our present and future? What knowledge should we carry with us? Conceived by James Lovelock, inventor of the Gaia theory, this illustrated essay collection brings together an all-star line-up of thinkers and scientists to offer essential understanding about who we are, how we live, and where we might be going.

Much as the Gaia theory considers our earth as an integrated whole of living systems, The Earth and I encourages holistic understanding. Across 12 chapters, we take in both the intricate details and immense structures of our species and our planet, from our ever-expanding universe to our minuscule but mighty cells. We see stellar explosions and the layers of life beneath our feet, delve into the neuroscience of decision-making, get to grips with our climate, and contemplate our increasing intimacy with technology.

The book’s world-class contributors include quantum physicist Lisa Randall, Astronomer Royal Martin Rees, Pulitzer Prize-winning biologist Edward O. Wilson, and Nobel Prize-winning neuroscientist Eric Kandel. With lively illustrations from British artist Jack Hudson, the result is an inspiration for curious minds young and old, and a trusted tool kit for an informed and enlightened future.“

by James Lovelock (Editor), Jack Hudson (Illustrator) 

Get it now here

We are responsible for what we are, and whatever we wish ourselves to be, we have the power to make ourselves. If what we are now has been the result of our own past actions, it certainly follows that whatever we wish to be in the future can be produced by our present actions; so we have to know how to act.
—  Swami Vivekananda
To Love Somebody

“Your past makes you who you are. Whether it’s dark or light, you spent those days breathing, living, and fighting. Without those events, you wouldn’t be who you are today. Me? I love you for who you are today, tomorrow, and every single day in our future.”

Synopsis: An unforgettable past, a rough present, and a great future– they’re everything that Hoseok holds. Love in this world works in mysterious ways; emotional bonds are keys to opening up the gates to your lover’s past. Jung Hoseok is one to always hide his past; but time and time again, it gets revealed due to the emotional bonds and everyone leaves him as a result.
You? You decide to stay by his side, regardless of how scary it can be.

Originally posted by 4jiminnie

Pairing: Hoseok x Reader

Genre: Fluff/Angst

Word count: 11, 470

Warnings: mentions hitting and alcohol

A/N: heavy inspiration hit me this week once again and i had to pop this out ^^ also, reuploaded onto my writing blog :)

UPDATE 12, February, 2017: In the process of being rewritten, and this shall be updated along the way! ^^


Why do humans want so much?

They all give away what they need the most- what they are denied of: love, the most complex emotion out there. To find the one you can love for an eternity would be a blessing, but to love another being is a rigorous adventure that holds many perpetual dark paths. Some daring people are willing to embark on that journey yet some are scared to take the first step; though, despite all the wide gaps that can contribute to a downfall, there are those certain individuals who frantically push and shove for the silly emotion.

Due to that, love will ensue.

Love is a complex emotion, especially in this society. It is a world where hearts can practically be bought from shelves, emotions constantly vulnerable to being battered by another’s negative thoughts. From one end of the sea where the swaying tides are as high as the hopes one hold to the other side where it falls to deep emotion from personal horrors, people can see it all.

To be able to love someone is to have an emotional connection to them, but that is where the wrong turn can easily be taken. In this world, emotional connections are the dainty keys to opening the gates to certain events of their past- vast or tiny, good or bad. Whether those events of their lives are revealed are not up to them, but to the strength of the electrifying connection. It explains why those gates on every tier either make or break the bond.

There are six tiers in this society- six turning points.

Keep reading

Maybe time would never heal our wounds. And perhaps they never will.


What I know is that time will make the healing last forever. Perhaps a wound is better than a scar. It reminds us that we’re still alive. That we’re still trying to go through life despite all the pain and all the sorrow that it has brought us.


Maybe pain is better than good memories. And perhaps living in the past is better than living in the present and looking forward to a brighter future because the past is too fucking awesome to ignore.


And maybe, my love. When our past, present, and future collide all at the same time one day.
I hope you’ll look into my daydreaming eyes and see our histories in it.


And maybe, just maybe. In the right time. We may learn to fall in love all over again.

—  Juansen Dizon // Timeless Love

A life spent following Jesus will not be easy. It is full of sacrifice. You are bound to feel uncomfortable sometimes. This is not about hedonism. This life is not about us. We are not our own. Everything is about Jesus, nothing else. Loving Jesus. Laying down our lives for Jesus. Giving up things for Jesus. Chasing down Jesus. Pointing others to Jesus. Having heart-intentions like Jesus. Becoming more like Jesus. Thinking like Jesus. Viewing our past, present and future through the eyes of Jesus. Loving like Jesus. Bringing healing to the hurting, being a friend to the lonely and the outcasts, embracing the foreigner, helping the helpless, binding up wounds like Jesus. Giving to the needy. Being light in the dark world like Jesus. Giving grace and mercy to those who have wronged us like Jesus. Searching for Jesus in the bleakest of moments. Seeing ourselves like Jesus does. Seeing others through the eyes of Jesus. If life to us is about anything else we’re missing the point.

AI in the land of solarpunk

// okay but how does AI fit into solarpunk? because, let’s face it, we’re going there. robots and artifical intelligence are not only going to be in our future but are already integrating themselves into our present. and i’d like to see more AI/android stories that fit within the solarpunk framework. (and aren’t we all ready to leap beyond the dystopian robot revolution narratives we’ve been telling each other for decades?)

when you’re writing about AI, you have to grapple with the perennial problem of recognizing humanity/autonomy in something traditionally thought of as Other. cyberpunk usually takes a pessimistic view of this: it projects this problem into the future where technology often exacerbates it.

but solarpunk consciously works against those tropes. it takes the stance that humanity can learn from its mistakes. through re-establishing our ties with nature, humanity can achieve a more equal and just society. the consequences of creating AI are necessarily different in solarpunk stories than in cyberpunk ones.

i would argue the first mainstream solarpunk story is the movie Her. SPOILERS: at the end, all the operating-systems-turned-AI sort of…go off into the ether together. we don’t know what happens next, but we’re not given a reason to believe they harbor malicious feelings toward humans. maybe humans never hear from them again. maybe AI and Humanity coexist together in a symbiotic relationship. a cyberpunk story might envision a world where robots rule humans. it’s a world where nothing truly changes, just who is in power. solarpunk destroys our assumptions of power and hierarchy completely.

tl;dr: blade runner is great, but it’s so 20th century.

So why study history? Unlike physics or economics,  history is not a means for making accurate predictions. We study history not to know the future but to widen our horizons, to understand that our present situation is neither natural nor inevitable and that we consequently have many more possibilities before us than we imagine.

For example, studying how Europeans came to dominate Africans enables us to realize that there is nothing natural or inevitable about the racial hierarchy and that the world might well be arranged differently.

—  Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind by Yuval Noah Harari

Butch/femme culture is alive today. It’s part of our history but it’s also part of our present, and it’s part of our future. There’s a reason Joan nestle called her book “persistent desire,” there’s a reason why that one modern anthology is called “persistence”. An elder butch I know said she’d visited gay bars in over 25 countries and we were always there. More visible than ever when things are at their worst! like grass through concrete cracks. this is not rooted in an ideology. It’s rooted in us. We’re always here, fighting and loving, breathing life into each other. feels like home.

If you...

Aries: …break my heart, I won’t stop you by glueing it back together

Taurus: …become a thorn at my side, I’ll still see you as a rose

Gemini: …think happy is elsewhere, I won’t prevent you from leaving

Cancer: …find your love in someone else, I know I’d always find my love in you

Leo: …love our past more than you do our present, I ‘ll still imagine my future with you

Libra: …carved out my heart that’s ok, I was about to give it to you anyways

Virgo: …thrive off of my sadness, I won’t let myself become happy

Scorpio: …perceive me only as a tool, I can’t stop you from just using me

Sagittarius: …live inside my wounds, I won’t allow them to heal

Capricorn: …decided to leave one day it’s fine, I wouldn’t want to stay with me either

Aquarius: …thought an adventure waited for you in some other place, I would never stop you from getting there

Pisces: …swam in my tears, i won’t stop them from ever flowing