you’ve grown haven’t you? physically but most importantly spiritually and mentally i hope. it would disappoint me greatly if you haven’t because i am trying to teach you to stop clutching the river’s bed and either go with the flow or swim against it. only dead things are stagnant and i know we’ve definitely left that in the past along with all our other bad habits. i really hope you’re doing well because i’m here working in hopes that when we do meet i won’t cause you shame. i know you’re busy seeing about your business over there and i have stuff to deal with here but i thought i’d let you know that i was thinking about you. not obsessing or worrying over you, just genuinely wishing in my hearts of hearts that you’re keeping safe, finiding peace and learning to be brave. our eventual encounter excites me more than scares me some days and i really am anticipating it,though not rushing it because i want us to meet when we’re both ready. both doing our best and prepared to only grow stronger even if it means building with the stones that are thrown our way. much love from the past.
— a message to my future self