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Edge of collapsing (personal)

Okay. 


First of all my apology for the nature of this post. I try to avoid personal posts for that reason that I wish to keep my blogs art related what people can enjoy. Unfortunately this year just really like a disaster and tragedy on my end not helping me to be that productive as I planned since January with good timetable to catch up on my back log and it just shoving to my direction more and more problems I by my human capacity start to have serious troubles to handle. 


Very few people aware I am taking therapist for the past 3 months to help with heavy depression which downed me and made me withdraw as much I could trying to get through it or solve it. 

Many things contributed to this stage. Heavy health issues in my family almost death close problems with my aunt and eye-sight loss threat with my father putting me middle of the family to pull everything together and keep things calm for each side. 

I never encountered this many computer problems like this year. My drawing tablet broke, my hard drive died with lot of data loss, my mother board died with 3 years of warranty in 1 year which can not be repaired then more then a month waiting to get a new one. I had other computer breaking issues and my only reason could keep my active files, that I use dropbox to store them in case things might happen. 

I know - everybody has their problems nobody exception and I hardly have right to complain knowing how many more people having their own problems even heavier then my own. I am sorry about that - but at this point I am just unable to process and just get through it. I was already lingering edge of suicide thoughts due of rl pressure and just on the time it was about to solve I had to discover that someone hacked my paypal account and within 3 days of time drained it empty and apparently as Paypal can’t detect third party activity they find my case closed without hope of refund. That was all I saved up for not only holidays but also for my family next to everything else. That is about 1400$ of balance I apparently can’t retrieve (friend theory they just used some program which copied my ip address which not even a new thing, several other people also suffer from this problem).

I am edge of collapsing as I just can’t handle this anymore - I can’t just lock it inside of myself or solve. Can’t make up, can’t fix - don’t find any help or support to save myself. 

I … turning to you people to help me. Give me anything I could walk on to solve somehow to.. do something.. I am out of ideas, I don’t know what to do. What can I do? How can I win justice? How you people can deal with things as this, how you people survive? What can I do to not collapse into this entirely and just keep my sanity.    

anonymous asked:

Okay man like is this blog a joke? Because if not then please leave meme mom alone, girl probably didn't do nothing to you.

Yes, this blog is 100% a joke. Someone sent Kylee an ask from a blog title i-love-kylee-henke and I said to myself, “hey, you should go get ihatekyleehenke so it can’t be used for evil.”

So I did. I actually hadn’t planned to do anything with this url, but then Kylee reblogged the post where I said I was hoarding the url and said she “hoped I lovingly roasted the shit out of her,” so here we are.

Friendly Shipping Reminder

Shipping Youtubers is perfectly okay. I do it all the time, it’s fun. But don’t take it too far and try to make it a reality when it already isn’t.

Creators like Pewdiepie, Markiplier, VanossGaming, JackSepticEye, DanTDM, NetNobody, et cetera, are real people just like any of us. They have relationships, and aggressive shippers have managed to ruin some Youtuber’s relationships in real life.

But it’s not wrong to ship Youtubers, as long as you ship the username and not the actual life in front of the camera.

Mark Edward Fischbach is a heterosexual male with a beautiful girlfriend and a happy, healthy love-life. He won’t be dating Seán William McLoughlin, Felix Arvid Ulf Kjellberg, or any of his other Youtube friends anytime soon.

But Markiplier is as much as a character as Mark Edward Fischbach is an independent person.

Write fanfiction about how Markiplier exists in a world where he’s bisexual, single, and there just happens to be a really hot and gay Irish person that lives down the street. Call him Mark Edward Fischbach, but remember that he’s far from human. He’s fictional, and that’s okay. His ideals are still the same, and they are just as impactful. 

Draw a picture of VanossGaming and H2ODelirious making out or whatever you want, but don’t go forcing it down Evan Fong’s throat expecting him to magically turn bi or gay or whatever and go hunt down his anonymous friend.

Some Youtubers also have children. Adam Dahlberg wouldn’t want the life of his child threatened because he won’t have sex with another content creator. NetNobody creates music, not porn.

Keep their subscribers in mind, too. DanTDM has a young audience, don’t expose them to something mature like smut of the family-friendly Youtubers. Censor your work accordingly and/or upload it to adult-only sites if it has those kinds of mature things. Sometimes it can’t be helped like on Tumblr, when they may not have the safe search on, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be cautious. On DeviantArt, if your work contains mature themes, enable the “mature content” option in a picture’s settings. If it’s really mature, make it “strict” so only people who are 18 or older can view it.

Youtubers create for a living. They do it for us and to support themselves. Don’t scare them away from their passion just because they’re not perfectly aligned with your fantasies.

If it helps, imagine they’re AI, living in a digital world that’s just like our own, but where you have the power. Write about that world, pretend it’s real, but don’t try to make it real.

So go and write or draw your OTP or any ship you like. It’s okay, it’s entertaining, and sometimes you’ll make some friends while doing it.

But please remember.

Ship Markiplier, not Mark Edward Fischbach.

Ship VanossGaming, not Evan Fong.

Ship JackSepticEye, not Seán William McLoughlin.

Ship DanTDM, not Dan Middleton.

Ship NetNobody, not Adam Dahlberg.

Ship PewDiePie, not Felix Arvid Ulf Kjellberg.

Ship the body, mind, and soul of the channel, not the spirit of it.

They have feelings too.

Please help spread this message.

  • Marlene: Why don't you like James?
  • Lily: James' staggering amount of vanity mixed with his tendency to talk about it makes for rough conversations
  • James: What? I'm not vain!
  • James: I am just simply aware that I am usually the most striking individual in any assorted company
  • Sirius: Um you're not me, so you can't be serious

anonymous asked:

If you're doing serious ratings, how about charizard?

Charizard

Strong Points

  • Skillfully blends Ken Sugimori’s stylistic elements with the classical concept of a fire breathing dragon.
  • Their long, slender neck and large wings coupled with its squat, cartoony body and face blend nicely to make Charizard look strong, but at home in the world of Pokemon
  • Looks similar enough to Charmander to look related to it without simply looking like a bigger charmander.
  • Expands upon the fire salamander legend by turning Charmander into a dragon, a literal fire salamander.
  • The warm colors + cool wings give Charizard a recognizable color scheme that doesn’t look to garish.
  • The flame tail is an incredibly cool stylistic choice and I adore it.

Weak Points

  • Charmeleon was red, and Charizard goes back to orange to match Charmander. I’m not sure if this is too much of a problem, but it’s definitely something that stands out and makes me think.
  • I said I love the tail thematically, but it does make me question how Charizard survives during heavy storms and around water.

Overall Rating: 8/10