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a letter in neil's kevin binder
  • Andrew: Did you write a love letter to Kevin Day?
  • Neil: In a lot of ways, yes, I do love him, but that is not a love letter in the way that you're thinking of! Okay? There's nothing sexual or...
  • Andrew: Okay, sounds good. I'm going to read it.
  • Neil: Yeah! Read it!
  • Andrew: "Dear Kevin," Oh, shit! There's stickers! My God...
  • Neil: Yeah, you gotta jazz it up.
  • Andrew: You sure do. Okay, "Dear Kevin, I feel like I can call you Kevin because you and me are so much alike. I'd like to meet you one day, it would be great to have a match. I know I can't shoot as good as you, but I think you'd be impressed with my speed. I love your hair, you run fast. Did you have a good relationship with your father? me neither. These are all things we can talk about and more. I know you have not been getting my letters because I know you would write back if you did. I hope you write back this time, and we can become good friends. I am sure our relationship would be a real home run!"
  • Neil: Yup!

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.