Fanfiction and Tumblr have basically ruined/enhanced my life. Now instead of watching a movie or TV show and seeing the couple on screen I’m like “Dude those two chicks are so fucking gay. They are gay as fuck. They are gay for each other. There’s no room for Jesus in that gayness. Cheezus fuck just kiss already. Why aren’t y'all married with like eight kids? Ugh… forget this. I’m going back to my gay fanfiction.”
So thanks fanfiction and tumblr. My life is a gay ass lovely mess because of you gay ass lovely people but I love it.
i got thru 100 pages of meg cabot’s abandon (modern rendition of the persephone myth/her attempt at breaking into the dark fantasy romance whatever section, i am guessing) last night and it was pretty bad and disappointing in a couple ways, like even aside from the very creepy relationship, the writing style was very ehhhh. idk i’ll try to finish it tonight and see if it gets better. i am very happy with my post-winter poem series and my little art bits in that and my own attempt at retelling the myth. idk idk i’m gonna go write
Inferior Te? More like a catastrophe waiting to happen
As a Fi-dom, you will never be able to win an argument with me. The closest you’ll get is an “okay, this has gone on for long enough, I don’t feel like continuing this since you obviously won’t see this from my perspective” or something along those lines. But, how does my Te act?
Well, first of all; I’m bossy. Not the regular, ‘hey, everyone listen to me so we can work together’, no. I’ll say, ‘now, everyone shut the fuck up; I know how to do this.’ I’ll point at people, tell them what to do and how, organize everything in detail and focus on getting it done (some Se-aux comes into the picture too). Does this make me popular between my classmates/colleagues? Not at all. But when my Fi-Te is in action, I couldn’t care less.
Some people would argue and say that it doesn’t sound like inferior Te, that I must have it as my auxiliary or tertiary function. Of course, I’d agree; but that isn’t the case.
My Te is probably very well defined because I was raised by two Te-users, (ENTJ and ISTJ). Seeing it being used so much around me, it’s caused me to develop it further than my other functions. I think early childhood and being exposed to different functions is an important part in how you use them yourself. (Now, I’m probably not the healthiest ISFP-example, so don’t worry if it’s different from yours)
But how do I know it’s inferior? Well, first; my Se takes over where my Te ends. I can organize items for hours (my desktop was sorted in alphabetical order), but when something changes (an item is added, removed etc) I immediately give up. I let it all fall into a mess once again. Only an inferior Te would have a bedroom as messy as mine (and no, I barely even have my own 'system’ to find anything in it. It’s a complete mess (something that drives my Te-dom and Te-aux parents crazy.))
I’m also not very good at taking in information. If something doesn’t make sense to me, I won’t be able to proceed a single step until I’ve figured it out. I can memorize everything, I can do everything 'textbook style’, but if it hasn’t really 'clicked’, I’ll get half of the answers wrong. I have no idea why, but that’s the way it is (I’m barely getting through science lessons, it drains me to try to understand something that my brain refuses to take in).
Worst/best thing about being a dominant Fi and inferior Te? It’s all or nothing. Either I’m the boss, or I don’t do anything to help the project at all. Either my room is cleaned in a flawless manner, or my rug will be invisible under all my clothes. Either I find something interesting, or it’s plain boring. Either I love you, or I hate you.
If I like being a Fi-dom? Not really. If it has it’s perks? Hell yeah. If I’ll try to love my functions for what they are? You fucking bet I will.