ugh I want to say I’m gay and I am but there’s always this cloud of doubt in the back of my mind saying “you’re into guys. disregard all those times you felt sick to you stomach thinking of them that way.” which sucks. it’s just uh very nerve wrecking to me that I may not be a lesbian even though I thought that until I was 13 and those 3 years of being confused thanks to the split attraction model (s.o. to the MOGAI community u fukt me up)

as a child i literally always assumed if i had to go to the hospital in emergency and i fukt up and didnt have insurance or something somehow id just give a fake name and skedaddle later