fuckin-alone

i want to make a post about how i’m buried in work, but i don’t want to sound ungrateful or whiney i just want to like, explain but eughhhh…

i have a lot to make. and i work a day job near-full time. and i don’t like using it as an excuse but mY GOD depression fucks me up so much, like just days spent unable to even fuckin move let alone work extra on top of my main job and i fuckinnnnn

*screams into the void*

  • Me, playing SDR2:A traitor? But I don't want to suspect anyone, no one seems like a traitor!
  • Me, watching DR3:EVERYONE SEEMS LIKE THE TRAITOR/MASTERMIND AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVE ANYMORE

u ever think about what it would’ve been like if piper had been a side character in the first pjo series and then the story just continued on with her as a main character, bc i think about this a lot. like, she gets introduced in the second book and has this adorable sibling-y relationship with percy and we got to see her interact w/ silena (?and drew? maybe then we’d get to see the change in their relationship after silena dies?) and also nico. she’s not a year-round camper and when she’s there she talks about this mysterious friend leo who everyone gets to meet in the HoO series. like. 

imagine the implications that would have on the next series, too. 

percy goes missing and she’s just as frantic but supporting annabeth as best as she can. annabeth knowing instantly that something is up because piper has never mentioned a boyfriend to her, much less one like jason. everyone meeting leo and realizing “yep of course these two troublemakers are friends, it’s nice to meet you FINALLY”. piper being very outspoken about nico’s disappearance too? because she’s known him for ages too and cmon, she understands what losing an older sibling does and she’s worried for him (then meeting hazel and instantly taking her under her wing. also hearing about percy/hazel/frank’s adventures and being so exCITED to meet these new guys because friendship has always been her thing). piper/reyna not ??? having any weird jealousy issues over jason whatsoever but maybe a little friendly rivalry when it comes to annabeth (lbr here). i could go on and on but pls. consider

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- So what is it you do, exactly?
- You know “rock, paper, scissors”?
- I do.
- Play me.

Friend: “Hey, how are y-”

Me: “Listen, you don’t understandt!! The tables haven’t turned, they flipped! Baek didn’t bite Sehun, Sehun bit Baek and this is a serious issue okay like did you see how much he had to bend down to bite his smol babes shoulder like their height difference™ !! look i am not okay and i need therapy for my feels and-”

Arin made his way up the mountain to find the only witch he knew who had ever brought someone back to life. Mark warns him that the spell is dangerous, and if they can’t do it right it could have very serious repercussions.

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Everything is cold.

It feels as though he fades in and out of existence. One minute he’s there, and the next…

He should be dead.

Every time it feels like death is finally pulling him down, it’s snatched away before he can feel the relief it would bring. Death would be a kindness. A comfort.

He stopped feeling pain a while ago. He’s thankful for that at least, that it’s as cold as it is. Everything is numb. It’s almost peaceful.

His heart still beats, albeit slowly, and he can hear the ragged, broken sound of his own breathing, though it sounds foreign to his ears. He should be dead. It feels like some cruel joke, really, that he’s not.

His body is covered in a thin blanket of snow. The idea alone of trying to move hurts enough to keep him still. What else is there to do but wait for the snow to bury him and the cold to finish the job?

Minutes… hours… days…

But it’s not the cold that finally comes to take him.

-by mistletoestucky