About my name

I introduce myself. “I’m Andira.” That’s usually enough. But once in awhile, like today, some ass, thinking they’re clever, has to add, “Oh, just one name, like Madonna or Beyonce?” Yeah. Just like that. Asshole. 

Online, one name doesn’t matter. Maybe people think it’s an alias. I don’t know. In college, I did use an alias when partying - another story.  In real life, I’ve never encountered another Andira. 

The closest town has about 1,000 people. People with normal names. Having a conversation piece for a name sometimes gets old. Often, I get interrupted before getting out my last name–”What an interesting name!” “How do you spell that?” “What does it mean?” 

Sometimes I make shit up: It means ‘beautiful butterfly’ in Japanese or ‘wise fairy’ in Sanskrit or ‘riddle of sneezes’ in Pig Latin. With correct deadpan delivery, I am often mistaken for being serious. (My parents made up my name, taking letters from family members’ names. Damn filthy hippies, saddling me with a beautiful mess. So it means ‘one should not name children while high.’)

It’s pronounced ‘ann DIE ruh,’ by the way. Nice to meet you. 

Quotations, PR & "reading into things."

I haven’t checked anywhere and I’m not going to, but my guess is many nonshippers are going to say that we should have seen this coming because they’ve been denying a relationship. For me, actions speak louder than words. I also don’t buy it when people say Sam and Cait don’t know about shippers specifically or how they react to things.

Back in March, Sam liked my tweet praising all the shipper tweets that happen when he comes online. Over the summer when we tweeted with him, I specifically asked why shippers were the only ones getting their hands slapped regarding bullying; he said we were not. Caitriona has liked articles about respectful shipping. Sam is aware (because he acknowledged it) of how many of his tweets to Caitriona are interpreted by fans.

Tonight he said “wifey” on twitter instead of wifey, which is unusual. Am I to believe that now that MM is in town he needs to clarify that Caitriona is not the wifey or wife when it’s been perfectly fine for weeks? Caitriona has been calling him hubby and hubs as well - why start this up again when they KNOW how these things are interpreted? If they were planning on introducing the real SOs soon all along, why get shippers all pumped up again?

“It was for PR.” PR for what exactly? PCA votes? They don’t need shippers for that, they get the votes anyways. For charity money? That would be callous and fans were fundraising for them already; thousands of dollars had already been raised for WCC and others.

My point is if they wanted to just get rid of shippers, why start with the affectionate names again? Why did Sam make such a huge frigging deal out of her birthday? Why was Cree talking about getting Cait a blow up doll of Sam? Why did Rosie tell Sam, HER apparently platonic costar, to treat her like the queen she is?

We were already pretty beat down and quiet after the last several months of bullying and silence from them. They didn’t need to get us all hyped up just to put the final nail in the coffin tonight and make us miserable. They could have just shown up with these two tonight and the message would have been received far more clearly. If this WAS their plan all along, they have no idea what they’re doing and they need new people on their teams.

So…after all that rambling, this does not make sense. I don’t understand it. I’m not saying I’m going to just hop back on board the Shipper Express tomorrow because I don’t think I’m ready and as I said in another post, we deserve better.

  • one half of my dash: this is it, biggest and worst queerbait of all time, oh clown, etc.
  • other half of my dash: TINFOIL HATTERY FULL STEAM AHEAD, DO NOT LET THE HOPE DIE, ASKDLFJASDKFJA;SLKD
  • me: it's been 130 years, when will we be Allowed to Rest
(not-so-) complete list of s4 fuckery

-brushoff of the water imagery in T6T as related to Sherlock’s childhood even though HE DIDN’T KNOW/REMEMBER HOW VICTOR TREVOR DIED

-inconsistency/unrealism in “sherlock dives into work” scenes at start of T6T

-john fake-typing a blog post that takes place AFTER mary gives birth when SHE IS STILL PREGNANT and IT ISN’T EVEN AN ACTUAL BLOGGING WEBSITE BUT AN IMAGE ON HIS IMAGE VIEWER (??????)

-the glowing/really glowing/dark skull picture throughout s4

-mary’s unrealistic death (which the show TOLD US was unrealistic per HLV)

-lamp hell

-never saw the “other version” of mary giving birth as confirmed by setlock

-Sherlock never reads contents of John’s note from the end of T6T

-double scenes in T6T that don’t quite match

-Using “T6T” even though it was used as the name for an entirely different case on John’s blog already (you can’t tell me they couldn’t have come up with something else unless this was intentional)

-barely seeing Rosie/not seeing her at all in TLD

-nurse in TLD looks like Mary

-Sherlock’s injection marks on the opposite arm from where they should be given his handedness/in the same location as the IV drips of TD-12

-John beating the absolute crap out of Sherlock, and we’re supposed to think that’s okay due to his sorrow for a wife with whom we never saw him share a genuinely tender moment

-the disappearing blood in the morgue scene

-blog fuckery during the hospital scene (why do characters who like the blog have any issue realizing it’s John’s blog?  that’s never been a problem in the past, for instance, THoB w/Dr. Frankland)

-dark sex parallels in the Culverton-suffocates-Sherlock scene

-HUGE exchange about the importance of romance just…not developed any further

-fade out/establishing shot after John and Sherlock hug

-LADY SMALLWOOD’S NAME CHANGE MY GOD THIS ONLY BOTHERS ME SO MUCH BECAUSE NOBODY IS TALKING ABOUT IT

-”love” mattering so much this episode…and not being followed up in the last episode

-Eurus shooting John…then that non-tranquilizer gun is suddenly a tranquilizer gun and John’s A-OK…????

-jumping out the windows of 221B and being JUST FINE, I SUPPOSE

-the entire horror-movie fuckery of almost the entirety of TFP…I mean, REALLY?  This just isn’t anything like what this show has ever been before, and not in a good way

-Sherlock ignoring Vatican Cameos (while we’re supposed to think John and Sherlock’s relationship is healed by the end of the episode)

-Eurus making weird observations about her BROTHER’S sexual history…and even if this is a poor-taste attempt to tell us something about Sherlock’s sexuality, once again, IT IS IGNORED.

-Eurus being glossed over as a terrifying violent rapist

-garridebs.  ugh.  i can’t.

-WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO MOLLY????  NO.  SHE KNOWS BETTER.  SHE KNOWS SHE NEEDS TO MOVE ON.  HER ENGAGEMENT ENDED BECAUSE TOM WAS TOO MUCH OF A WATERED-DOWN SHERLOCK STAND-IN BUT GOD LET HER REALIZE SHE NEEDS SOMEONE HER OWN, SOMEONE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM SHERLOCK.  AS A CHARACTER SHE DESERVES BETTER TREATMENT BY THE WRITERS.  SHE IS SMARTER THAN THIS.

-blatantly using the “I love you” in the trailer to make the audience believe Sherlock was going to make a real love confession (even without canon Johnlock, I’d have swallowed this better if he was being sincere to SOMEONE, even though John is the only character who would make sense in that context)

-making the best villain of the show (Moriarty) watered down by having been a weird little Eurus-puppet

-Moriarty coming to Sherrinford just to record reaction gifs

-Mycroft’s inconsistent characterization 

-complete cluelessness by old Mr. and Mrs. Holmes…and calling Sherlock “the adult”, and their parental negligence…all of this is really encompassed by the sheer unlikelihood of Eurus being what she is depicted to be

-Eurus’ magical powers that make literally no sense

-The dog bowl for a dog that isn’t a dog, but a boy

-The well that only Eurus knows about (??????)

-Sherlock ignoring John in the well to play with his sister and try to make up for a childhood slight 

-John suddenly being free of his well-chains

-Mycroft being shooed away offscreen

-Mary’s second beyond-the-grave video recording and voiceover…UGH, YOU VILLAIN, THEY ARE NOT YOUR BOYS.

-never got that “29 pages” scene

-never got that “Martin’s emotional filmed-alone scene”

-lots of sets shown to us where no scenes we’ve seen so far were shot (i.e. John’s bedsit from s1)

-recycled soundtrack in TFP

-THE. MOST. EGREGIOUS. QUEERBAITING.  

That’s…not even close to everything. We were told.  We listened.  Then, they retconned everything we were told and made the world a shittier place in the process.  I DO NOT understand, and I feel so bad for everyone who was so depending on this turning out differently.  I truly believed it would; I really thought they were better than this.