crawling back to you | mingyu

Originally posted by pledisseventeen

characters: lovesick!mingyu/reader (ambiguous)

word count: 1k+

genre: kind of angsty?, more so kind of unintentionally fluffy

a/n: this happened while I was listening to arctic monkeys. sorry abt the small absence, i’ll get back to writing love.exe now. also i don’t know where this came from

other notes: cursing, hurt!mingyu, sexual talk, but no smut, seriously lots of cursing

He coughs, hunching over, feeling bile rise up in the back of his throat.

He pushes it back down, and sloppily gets back up, only keeping his balance by holding on to the bathroom counter. He hated to say it, but for once, Kim Mingyu looked like absolute shit.

It’d been several nights since he’d last seen you, and what could he say? He was having withdrawals. Circles were beginning to form under his eyes, and he looked deathly pale in the mirror, although it could also have just been his vision fooling him again.

He was sweating heavily, and his head pounded. “Fuck,” he cursed, struggling to maintain his balance as he pushed the bathroom door open again.

God, he wasn’t sure what was wrong with him. Mingyu stumbled into his bedroom, sloppily falling on top of his bed, breathing heavily.

His dark brown hair stuck to his forehead in clumps, and he gripped the sheets in frustration.

He needed you.

For once, it wasn’t sexual frustration, no, that even he had too much of sometimes.

This was romantic deprivation. He lacked—no, he absolutely craved your love.

This wasn’t innocent puppy love, either. This was the kind of romance that made him obsessed, made his heart beat faster, and tired him out. It wasn’t cute, love-struck bullshit, no, not at all.

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Traits of an Empath

Traits of an Empath-the highly Empathetic Person or HSP- Highly Sensitive Person

No, you are not Crazy! Posting this in the hopes that others will find some sense of relief in reading this. You are not alone <3

30 traits of an Empath

1. Knowing: Empaths just know stuff, without being told. It’s a knowing that
goes way beyond intuition or gut feelings, even though that is how many
would describe the knowing. The more attuned they are the stronger this gift

2. Being in public places can be overwhelming: Places like shopping malls,
supermarkets or stadiums where there are lots of people around can fill the
empath with turbulently vexed emotions that are coming from others.

3. Feeling others emotions and taking them on as your own: This is a huge
one for empaths. To some they will feel emotions off those near by and with
others they will feel emotions from those a vast distance away, or both. The
more adept empath will know if someone is having bad thoughts about them,
even from great distance.

4. Watching violence, cruelty or tragedy on the TV is unbearable: The more
attuned an empath becomes the worse it is and may make it so they eventually
have to stop watching TV and reading newspapers altogether.

5. You know when someone is not being honest: If a friend or a loved one is
telling you lies you know it (although many empaths try not to focus on this
because knowing a loved one is lying can be painful). Or if someone is
saying one thing but feeling/thinking another, you know.

6. Picking up physical symptoms off another: An empath will almost always
develop the ailments off another (colds, eye infections, body aches and
pains) especially those they’re closest to, somewhat like sympathy pains.

7. Digestive disorders and lower back problems: The solar plexus chakra is
based in the centre of the abdomen and it’s known as the seat of emotions.
This is where empaths feel the incoming emotion of another, which can weaken
the area and eventually lead to anything from stomach ulcers to IBS (too
many other conditions to list here). Lower back problems can develop from
being ungrounded (amongst other things) and one, who has no knowledge of
them being an empath, will almost always be ungrounded.

8. Always looking out for the underdog: Anyone whose suffering, in emotional
pain or being bullied draws an empath’s attention and compassion.

9. Others will want to offload their problems on you, even strangers: An
empath can become a dumping ground for everyone else’s issues and problems,
which, if they’re not careful can end up as their own.

10. Constant fatigue: Empaths often get drained of energy, either from
energy vampires or just taking on too much from others, which even sleep
will not cure. Many get diagnosed with ME.

11. Addictive personality: Alcohol, drugs, sex, are to name but a few
addictions that empaths turn to, to block out the emotions of others. It is
a form of self protection in order to hide from someone or something.

12. Drawn to healing, holistic therapies and all things metaphysical:
Although many empaths would love to heal others they can end up turning away
from being healers (even though they have a natural ability for it), after
they’ve studied and qualified, because they take on too much from the one
they are trying to heal. Especially if they are unaware of their empathy.
Anything of a supernatural nature is of interest to empaths and they don’t
surprise or get shocked easily. Even at the revelation of what many others
would consider unthinkable, for example, empaths would have known the world
was round when others believed it was flat.

13. Creative: From singing, dancing, acting, drawing or writing an empath
will have a strong creative streak and a vivid imagination.

14. Love of nature and animals: Being outdoors in nature is a must for
empaths and pets are an essential part of their life.

15. Need for solitude: An empath will go stir-crazy if they don’t get quiet
time. This is even obvious in empathic children.

16. Gets bored or distracted easily if not stimulated: Work, school and home
life has to be kept interesting for an empath or they switch off from it and
end up daydreaming or doodling.

17. Finds it impossible to do things they don’t enjoy: As above. Feels like
they are living a lie by doing so. To force an empath to do something they
dislike through guilt or labeling them as idle will only serve in making
them unhappy. It’s for this reason many empaths get labeled as being lazy.

18. Strives for the truth: This becomes more prevalent when an empath
discovers his/her gifts and birthright. Anything untruthful feels plain

19. Always looking for the answers and knowledge: To have unanswered
questions can be frustrating for an empath and they will endeavor to find an
explanation. If they have a knowing about something they will look for
confirmation. The downside to this is an information overload.

20. Likes adventure, freedom and travel: Empaths are free spirits.

21. Abhors clutter: It makes an empath feel weighed down and blocks the flow
of energy.

22. Loves to daydream: An empath can stare into space for hours, in a world
of their own and blissfully happy.

23. Finds routine, rules or control, imprisoning: Anything that takes away
their freedom is debilitating to an empath even poisoning.

24. Prone to carry weight without necessarily overeating: The excess weight
is a form of protection to stop the negative incoming energies having as
much impact.

25. Excellent listener: An empath won’t talk about themselves much unless it’s
to someone they really trust. They love to learn and know about others and
genuinely care.

26. Intolerance to narcissism: Although kind and often very tolerant of
others, empaths do not like to be around overly egotistical people, who put
themselves first and refuse to consider another’s feelings or points of view
other than their own.

27. The ability to feel the days of the week: An empath will get the ‘Friday
Feeling’ if they work Fridays or not. They pick up on how the collective are
feeling. The first couple of days of a long, bank holiday weekend (Easter
for example) can feel, to them, like the world is smiling, calm and relaxed.
Sunday evenings, Mondays and Tuesdays, of a working week, have a very heavy

28. Will not choose to buy antiques, vintage or second-hand: Anything that’s
been pre-owned carries the energy of the previous owner. An empath will even
prefer to have a brand new car or house (if they are in the financial
situation to do so) with no residual energy.

29. Sense the energy of food: Many empaths don’t like to eat meat or poultry
because they can feel the vibrations of the animal (especially if the animal
suffered), even if they like the taste.

30. Can appear moody, shy, aloof, disconnected: Depending on how an empath
is feeling will depend on what face they show to the world. They can be
prone to mood swings and if they’ve taken on too much negative will appear
quiet and unsociable, even miserable. An empath detests having to pretend to
be happy when they’re sad, this only adds to their load (makes working in
the service industry, when it’s service with a smile, very challenging) and
can make them feel like scuttling under a stone.

If you can say yes to most or all of the above then you are most definitely
an empath

Empaths are having a particularly difficult time at the present time,
picking up on all the negative emotions that are being emanated into the
world from the populace.

TRAITS OF AN EMPATH by Christel Broederlow

Empaths are often quiet achievers. They can take a while to handle a
compliment for they’re more inclined to point out another’s positive
attributes. They are highly expressive in all areas of emotional connection,
and talk openly, and, at times quite frankly. They may have few problems
talking about their feelings if another cares to listen (regardless of how
much they listen to others).

However, they can be the exact opposite: reclusive and apparently
unresponsive at the best of times. They may even appear ignorant. Some are
very good at “blocking out” others and that’s not always a bad thing, at
least for the learning empath struggling with a barrage of emotions from
others, as well as their own feelings.

Empaths have a tendency to openly feel what is outside of them more so than
what is inside of them. This can cause empaths to ignore their own needs. In
general an empath is non-violent, non-aggressive and leans more towards
being the peacemaker. Any area filled with disharmony creates an
uncomfortable feeling in an empath. If they find themselves in the middle of
a confrontation, they will endeavor to settle the situation as quickly as
possible, if not avoid it all together. If any harsh words are expressed in
defending themselves, they will likely resent their lack of self-control,
and have a preference to peacefully resolve the problem quickly.

Empaths are more inclined to pick up another’s feelings and project it back
without realizing its origin in the first place. Talking things out is a
major factor in releasing emotions in the learning empath. Empaths can
develop an even stronger degree of understanding so that they can find peace
in most situations. The downside is that empaths may bottle up emotions and
build barriers sky-high so as to not let others know of their innermost
thoughts and/or feelings. This withholding of emotional expression can be a
direct result of a traumatic experience, an expressionless upbringing, or
simply being told as a child, “Children are meant to be seen and not heard!”

Without a doubt, this emotional withholding can be detrimental to one’s
health, for the longer one’s thoughts and/or emotions aren’t released, the
more power they build. The thoughts and/or emotions can eventually becoming
explosive, if not crippling. The need to express oneself honestly is a form
of healing and a choice open to all. To not do so can result in a breakdown
of the person and result in mental/emotional instability or the creation of
a physical ailment, illness or disease.

Empaths are sensitive to TV, videos, movies, news and broadcasts. Violence
or emotional dramas depicting shocking scenes of physical or emotional pain
inflicted on adults, children or animals can bring an empath easily to
tears. At times, they may feel physically ill or choke back the tears. Some
empaths will struggle to comprehend any such cruelty, and may have grave
difficulty in expressing themselves in the face of another’s ignorance,
closed-mindedness and obvious lack of compassion. They simply cannot justify
the suffering they feel and see.

You will find empaths working with people, animals or nature with a true
passion and dedication to help them. They are often tireless teachers and/or
caretakers for our environment and all within it. Many volunteers are
empathic and give up personal time to help others without pay and/or

Empaths may be excellent storytellers due to an endless imagination,
inquisitive minds and ever-expanding knowledge. They can be old romantics at
heart and very gentle. They may also be the “keepers” of ancestral knowledge
and family history. If not the obvious family historians, they may be the
ones who listen to the stories passed down and possess the majority of the
family history. Not surprisingly, they may have started or possess a family

They have a broad interest in music to suit their many expressive
temperaments, and others can query how empaths can listen to one style of
music, and within minutes, change to something entirely different. Lyrics
within a song can have adverse, powerful effects on empaths, especially if
it is relevant to a recent experience. In these moments, it is advisable for
empaths to listen to music without lyrics, to avoid playing havoc with their

They are just as expressive with body language as with words, thoughts, and
feelings. Their creativity is often expressed through dance, acting, and
bodily movements. Empaths can project an incredible amount of energy
portraying and/or releasing emotion. Empaths can become lost in the music,
to the point of being in a trance-like state; they become one with the music
through the expression of their physical bodies. They describe this feeling
as a time when all else around them is almost non-existent.

People of all walks of life and animals are attracted to the warmth and
genuine compassion of empaths. Regardless of whether others are aware of one
being empathic, people are drawn to them as a metal object is to a magnet!

Even complete strangers find it easy to talk to empaths about the most
personal things, and before they know it, they have poured out their hearts
and souls without intending to do so consciously. It is as though on a
sub-conscious level that person knows instinctively that empaths would
listen with compassionate understanding. Then again, for empaths, it is
always nice to actually be heard themselves!

Here are the listeners of life. They can be outgoing, bubbly, enthusiastic
and a joy to be in the presence of, as well as highly humorous at the most
unusual moments! On the flip side, empaths can be weighted with mood swings
that will have others around them want to jump overboard and abandon ship!
The thoughts and feelings empaths receive from any and all in their life can
be so overwhelming (if not understood) that their moods can fluctuate with
lightning speed. One moment they may be delightfully happy and with a flick
of the switch, miserable.

Abandoning an empath in the throes of alternating moods can create
detrimental effects. A simple return of empathic love–listening and caring
compassionately without bias, judgment and/or condemnation–can go an
incredibly long way to an empath’s instant recovery. Many empaths don’t
understand what is occurring within them. They literally have no idea that
another person’s emotions are now felt, as one’s own and reflected
outwardly. They are confused as to how one moment all was well, and then the
next, they feel so depressed, alone, etc. The need to understand the
possibilities of empath connection is a vital part of the empaths journey
for themselves and for those around them.

Empaths are often problem solvers, thinkers, and studiers of many things. As
far as empaths are concerned, where a problem is, so too is the answer. They
often will search until they find one – if only for peace of mind. This can
certainly prove beneficial for others in their relationships, in the
workplace, or on the home front. Where there is a will, there is a way and
the empath will find it. The empath can literally (likely without the
knowledge of what’s actually occurring) tap into Universal Knowledge and be
receptive to guidance in solving anything they put their head and hearts

Empaths often are vivid and/or lucid dreamers. They can dream in detail and
are inquisitive of dream content. Often they feel as though the dreams are
linked to their physical life somehow, and not just a mumble of nonsensical,
irrelevant, meaningless images. This curiosity will lead many empathic
dreamers to unravel some of the “mysterious” dream contents from an early
age and connect the interpretation to its relevance in their physical life.
If not, they may be led to dream interpretations through other means.

Empaths are daydreamers with difficulty keeping focused on the mundane. If
life isn’t stimulating, off an empath will go into a detached state of mind.
They will go somewhere, anywhere, in a thought that appears detached from
the physical reality, yet is alive and active for they really are off and
away. If a tutor is lecturing with little to no emotional input, empaths
will not be receptive to such teaching and can (unintentionally) drift into
a state of daydreaming.

Give the empath student the tutor who speaks with stimuli and emotion
(through actual experience of any given subject) and the empath is
receptively …

Bottle spell to banish medication withdrawals

I’m suffering some pretty severe withdrawals from my antidepressants right now and I’ve just developed a spell to try and banish my withdrawal symptoms and feel normal again.

Feel free to use this to ease the symptoms of medication withdrawal. (As with all spells, this should be done in addition to professional help, not as a substitute.)


  • Cauldron or heat safe dish
  • Charcoal disc
  • Herbs and resins for banishing and healing (I used lavender, plantain leaf, st john’s wort, rue, dragon’s blood, frankincense, and lemon verbena)
  • Mortar and pestle or herb grinder
  • Small bottle or jar
  • The medication you’re attempting to withdraw from
  • Other things to add to the bottle for banishing, like black pepper, cayenne and cinnamon
  • Optional: a small black candle


  • In a mortar and pestle, grind together your herbs and resins with healing and banishing correspondences until they are a fine powder. (Make sure to do your research into what is and isn’t safe to burn)
  • In your working space, place your cauldron in the middle, with a sleeve of your medication to either side (can be empty sleeves, the box, or just single pills too)
  • Ignite the charcoal disc and place it in your cauldron. Sprinkle the banishing incense powder onto the charcoal disc and let it burn. Make sure you do this with a window open, because charcoal discs produce a lot more smoke than your average incense.
  • Waft the smoke onto your medication and visualise its effects being banished from your body.
  • Waft the smoke onto yourself, paying particular attention to areas that have been affected by your withdrawals. Waft the smoke onto your belly and visualise the nausea subsiding, waft it onto your head and visualise your depression and dizzy spells dissipating. Take deep breaths and as you exhale, visualise the medication’s effects being pulled from your body and floating away with the incense smoke.
  • If you have anything like bells or tibetan singing bowls, use them to add to the cleansing and healing feeling.
  • Allow the incense to burn out, if you have a lid for your cauldron this will help it go out quicker.
  • Once the charcoal disc and cauldron are completely cool, grind the disc and the burnt out herbs into a fine black powder.
  • Add this powder into a bottle with salt, cinnamon, black pepper, and a few doses of your medication.
  • For extra banishing power, you could seal the bottle by sticking an appropriately sized black candle to the opening with candle wax, and allowing it to burn down completely, dripping wax all over the bottle and sealing it.
  • Keep the bottle for 7 days, until the withdrawal symptoms subside, or until feels intuitively right, and then discard however you see fit.
North American Asexuality Conference zine (2015)

So the Ace Zine Archive tabled at  the North American Asexuality Conference in Toronto. We had pages that people could fill out that we’re planning to assemble into a conference zine. But some people needed more time.

So if you were at the conference OR were aware of the conference and were unable/decided not to go (and you have something to say or draw about it), please send us something! 

We at the Ace Zine Archive will assemble your submissions into a zine and host it online on our archive!

Deadline: July 15th, 2015
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