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“I would definitely call myself a feminist. I think that Indian cinema can play an important role in removing patriarchy from our society and help in strengthening women. In older times, the society did not accept the rejection of males by females, but now it is a worldwide issue.

A woman should not keep quiet when it comes to torture. Sometimes under the pressure of keeping a marriage alive many Indian women face domestic violence and we as a society need to support them and help them stand up. Otherwise such social issues will never resolve.“

- Shabana Azmi

how do i unlove you when you’ve left parts of yourself in my home. from your scent that clings to the sheets to the way the flowers bloom only under your care. my living room is no longer for the living right after you stepped out the door without a single goodbye. you have taken the life from every corner. and now, i weep over the ghost of your memories.



tell me, how do i unlove you when you have given me a thousand reasons to live?

It’s been a year and you’re now the nightmare I wake up from at 3 am, 
but now that I’m thinking about it
I don’t even think you were my dream to begin with.
—  m.n.
the flood.

The water flooded my room-
running over the hardwood.
Every word I wrote down
bled off the college-ruled
into a sea of “me’s” and “you’s”
I had secrets that I kept,
now flown like flags from my bed.
Cursive and important,
in puddles around my legs.
Language was the undertow
pulling me to my window
over Polaroids and notes,
over labels once stuck to tapes.
“…Songs to make you better”
“…Songs to keep you sane”
Tiny strips of white and pen
swirl circles in this wave.
I rise and fall with the marble,
marked-up, cardboard covers-
all labeled by month and by year,
by title and by lover.
When I am poured out,
it’s you that I discover.

Maybe I was never meant to be a home to anyone. I am a lone wanderer, travelling from one graveyard to another. You see, I am now a museum of all the dreams that died. My body is filled with tombstones with people I never met, or people I have yet to meet. Maybe I am better left alone while the moon sings me to sleep. I think the bleeding should stop, but I keep the wounds open and left untouched. I let the blood mark all the places people have conquered. I gave too much, like a country left to be explored and exploited. But it was a conscious decision, an open invitation.

Come. Ruin me. Wreck me. Leave me.

Maybe I can never be a home to anyone.

Loki, the patron deity of social justice?

I’ve had questions from friends who have tried to relate to Loki only to be rejected by him, or find that relating to him is an extreme struggle. 

I’ve started to notice a trend in these interactions and the people they happen to.

Now we all know that Loki is a weirdo, an outsider, and queer. So naturally it would make sense for him to be associated with people who have been “othered” by society.

But some of the people I know who have struggled to relate to him are some of the most vocal on social justice issues I know.

I started to notice a pattern.

Loki isn’t just the god of the “othered” he’s the god of change. He’s the god of making a mess, causing chaos, and getting shit done regardless of personal sacrifice. 

Every person I knew who struggled to work with him was very vocal about social justice issues but not active.

They spent significant amount of time blogging about issues, posting memes, and arguing online. But none at all doing anything to help the victims of the issues they were so vocally concerned about.

This was one of the very first issues Loki worked with on me. 

I used to be one of those people. I used to shout anybody down who wasn’t as aware of social justice issues as I was. I felt very superior because I was so forward thinking and compassionate (moments after tearing into a stranger on the internet who didn’t understand cultural appropriation as well as I did). And after all, I was doing something. I was “spreading awareness”. 

From the start Loki swooped in, slapped me across the face, and forced me to take a real, good, hard, look inward at my own prejudices and issues before I was allowed anywhere near trying to correct other peoples.

That’s not to say I’m forced to let things slide if I’m aware of racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, or any other social justice issue. It just means I now have to gently educate, even if it’s blow to my ego. I don’t get to be the most righteous, self-aware, loudly compassionate person in the room any more. But I do get to see some pretty special transformations, when friends who used to be casually racist, or sexist, start educating others on the issues I had to talk to them about months before. That’s what working with Loki has meant for me. I have to be sly, even if it hurts my ego.

This isn’t to say that this is what he wants from everybody. Or that if you’re struggling to relate to him, this is the reason. It just might help to take a step back and look at yourself and your values. Loki likes people who put their money where their mouth is, and figuring out what that means for you might be the key to unlocking a deeper relationship with him. Even if it’s not, self reflection is never a bad thing. And he’ll appreciate any effort to make to further a cause.

One of my sacrifices was having to let my ego slide when fighting for issues I believe in.

Yours could be picking a cause to get out and active in.

It could be donating time, or money.

It could simply be random acts of kindness for those who need it.

Go out and be the change you wish to see. 

“As women, we’re suffering. As activists, we’re dying.”

I recently watched the documentary “The Testimony”, dir. by Vanessa Block, in which this woman, along with many others, gave interviews about their experiences with rape by government soldiers in Minova, a town in the norther South Kivu Province of the Congo. 

This woman counsels victims of rape “to show them this isn’t the end of the line”. From what I’ve gathered, many women who were raped were left by their husbands, as a result. This woman provides support to these women that they desperately need. “After the victim gets medicine and is healed, I take her with many other women to farm. There’s now a group of 180 women that go together. We will continue farming until all these women can get their own plots. And even when society rejects us, we will fight together.” 

acerncshane  asked:

Rawls, Wittgenstein, Chomsky

Rawls: Something that you feel is unfair?
everything. class society, patriarchy, social norms, poverty, climate change, not being allowed to chew on plastic things without damaging my teeth,

Wittgenstein: What is a belief/idea that you used to hold but now reject? Why do you reject it now?
i used to believe that the brutality of the bourgeois state could be reformed, until i discovered marxism. i also used to be an anti-sjw until i realized that they want people like me to suffer and die

Chomsky: If you could learn another language, what would it be and why?
from a purely practical standpoint, spanish, polish, and arabic. learning kurmanji would be useful if i wanted to go to rojava to help out over there. dutch and japanese are also languages i’ve tried to learn before and i think knowing them would be very useful for travel and such