No matter how hard I try, I can never seem to keep these thoughts from my head. The ones that keep you awake at night, the one that make you feel so small. I wish I could just leave and never return. Im tired of wandering the earth trying to find a place that doesn’t exist. Just thinking about it makes the thoughts hurt me even more. If I could leave this world, I wouldn’t have to pretend anymore. I wouldn’t have to be strong for other people’s sakes. I could give up and give in and be what I am suppose to be. The less I struggle the easier it is for my thoughts to consume me and steal me away from this cruel world. They could lead me to the place of no return and I will be safe.