from hate to lust from lust to love

I didn’t want to wake up. I wanted to stay in my dream world forever, as long as I could be next to you.
—  An excerpt from my diary.

Never have I ever loved anyone as much as I knew how much I had loved you. Maybe that’s why you mattered.

Maybe that’s why mornings ain’t mornings without a good morning text from you.

Maybe afternoon talks aren’t afternoon talks after all if they weren’t spent with you.


Maybe night calls aren’t night calls if it wasn’t your voice I was hearing all along.


Maybe you mattered; maybe you mattered too much that I wasn’t minding being hurt at all.

And at my grasp you were still on the tip of my fingertips and I could have sworn to myself I never had to tighten my grip, but goddamn this feeling, I was all over you. Head over heels in love, “you and me against the world.” And the sad part… it was all on me. Right? The joke has always been on me.

Someday, I hope to find myself. But this time, not in your arms anymore. Not my head on your chest trying to find the heartbeat that was once throbbing for my name. Not on my knees begging every bit of your soul to stay. Not in your lies and
promises that led this love astray. No.


One day i’ll find myself. To a place, to someone else’s arms, where everything will eventually make sense.

anonymous asked:

To me the Lust arc is very big IH scene. Althought, Hollow saved and turned Ichigo into monster, we can deny that his desire to save her and his will to fighting for her gave his inner hollow the opportunity to take over completely. So that's why this arc is called "The Lust Arc". His desire made him commit sin. That's what I think, so can you tell me your opinion in the lust arc. Thank for reading! Btw, I love your posts about Bleach, you truly understand it more than anyone I've met.

Thank you very much it really makes me happy to hear that ! 

For the Lust arc there is 2  theories out there . With one being much more probable than the other . 

Either ichigo , hearing Orihime’s cries , turned into a monster to protect her . 

Either the hollow inside Ichigo was anyway programmed to save Ichigo in case he got hurt real bad and his awakening coincided with Orihime’s cries . 

I think the second theory is the one in the real because of this : 

And this works just as good for Ichihime than the first theory actually  . This post words it perfectly but to sum it up in a few words : 

The hollow woke up , saved ichigo and defeated Ulquiorra . Only instinct was at play here because ichigo’s hollow is pure instinct . 

But the goal of the hollow was to protect ichigo , only ichigo . He did not care about Ishida or Orihime ( zangetsu/ hollow mixed said to ichigo “ the things you want to protect and what I want to protect are different things” before ichigo turned into Mugetsu . Meaning Ichigo wants to protect those he cares for but his powers want to protect only ichigo ) . 

So how come ichigo says this while he turns into a hollow ? 

We know the hollow doesn’t care at all about Orihime . So the person thinking this is Ichigo himself and not his hollow . Meaning that while he was dead the only part of humanity remaining in him was his desire to protect Orihime . Fucks me up every time 

Maybe , as you said his desire to protect Orihime helped to trigger his transformation into a hollow but I don’t think that’s it . I think his desire to protect Orihime is what helped to trigger his transformation into a dead boy . 

And that brings me to the most important idea which you brought up in your message. His desire to protect Orihime as a sin . 

The thing is that Ichigo and Orihime are both people with very good intentions and their very good intentions turned their reality into a nightmare during the lust arc . 

Like when he went into Hueco Mundo Ichigo’s only motivation was his desire to protect Orihime . He affronted Dordonni and Ulquiorra and grimmjow and then Ulquiorra again because he wanted to bring Orihime back home  . 

Wanting to protect someone you love is a good thing right ? 

And Orihime , since she met Ichigo her faith in him was unwavering . She would always be there to support him , she would watch him from afar even if it’s killing her not being able to help ( see : Orihime having to physically restrain herself to stay back during ichigo’s fight with Byakuya ) because she believes in him . 

////A lot of people have twisted this faith in him into a bad thing but it isn’t presented by the narrative as such . And it’s making me so angry to see that when the doctor says about Rose “Well, I’ve seen a lot of this universe. I’ve seen fake gods and bad gods and demi-gods and would-be gods. I’ve had the whole pantheon. But if I believe in one thing… just one thing… I believe in her!” It’s seen as so romantic and amazing but when Orihime expresses the exact same feelings through her actions then this is bad for her and her love for ichigo is toxic ( I’ve always been baffled by this fandom tendency to infantilize Orihime ) . ////

So just before the lust arc you have ichigo motivated by his desire to protect Orihime and Orihime believing in Ichigo with all her being . 

They’re both good people with good intentions and good motivations . Then why did it turn so bad ? Why is the Lust arc so tragic ? 

To me it was Kubo’s way to show to Orihime and Ichigo that they were  humans and not characters . 

It feels funny to write that but that’s exactly what happened . In Shonen usually the good intentions of the protagonist is often enough to give them unlimited amount of powers and a guarantee to beat their opponent . 

Not in Bleach . When Ulquiorra invoked his second resurrection we knew ichigo was fucked . We knew that no matter how strong he had gotten he wouldn’t be able to beat Ulquiorra . But he was the hero so surely something would happen to help him beat Ulquiorra . He is the hero he cannot die trying to save his friend . 

And yet he dies . I think that is something that is not often reflected upon . Ichigo was dead . It was over . He wasn’t strong enough . 

He went to such terrible length to protect Orihime that he died . His good , pure desire to protect Orihime got him dead . 

And same for Orihime . 

Her feelings which were pure and true pushed her to cry for the help of a dead boy . ( I’ll fucking fight you if you try to see this in a negative light . Orihime’s depression which premises we are shown in the Vizards arc just went worse and worse during the Hueco Mundo and in the lust arc she just snapped . She was no longer herself when she called for him . She never believed in herself , always thought she was useless and completely disregarded her own life but she believed in Ichigo  . He was her pillar and now he is dead on the ground . She doesn’t know what to do , she sees Ishida’s arm being tore off from his body , she is desperately trying to heal ichigo but she can’t do it so she just turns for ichigo , for his guidance for his help . She doesn’t do it consciously she just snaps and is not herself anymore when she calls for his help ) . God this scene is so powerful , the lust arc is really the peak of Bleach . 

So here it is . Two kids who have the best motivations are confronted with realities . 

They are both 16 here , very young and this moment is what will turn them into adults ( I am convinced that without the lust arc the whole arc about ichigo giving up his powers to defeat aizen would have gone differently ) . 

They are both selfless and both have the flaw to completley disregard themselves and ALWAYS , ALWAYS put other’s people needs and wishes before their own . 

During the lust arc they went to terrible lengths to protect the other . Lengths nobody should ever go . And while doing so they completely disregarded their own lives  . 

Ichigo died for Orihime and Orihime constantly throughout all the Hueco Mundo arc showed a total disregard to her own life and well being . She let herself be beaten by Loly and Menoly ( because she was sure she deserved it because her friends got hurt getting in Hueco Mundo trying to save her ) , she let herself be strangled by Grimmjow because she did not want to heal ichigo to have him be even more hurt by grimmjow 

And during the lust arc she is healing ichigo and protecting ishida with her shield while herself remains completely unprotected ( she already did that during the fight against Nnoitorra shielding Yachiru and healing nell while she remained in the open completely unprotected ) . 

The lust arc is what made them grow up . What made them understand that good intentions often aren’t enough in the real world and no matter how much they want to protect the other , how much they believe in the other sometimes they just won’t be strong enough . 

To Orihime the growth triggered by the lust arc is clear as day . 

Here we have everything . Orihime understands that Ichigo is human and no matter how much she believes in him he will sometimes fail . She also understands that , in order for him to get up she would have to be strong . She does not think she is useless and weak anymore , she does not think her own life is worthless . 

She grew up . She understood that both her and Ichigo were human . She got out of the vicious circle of self loathing . All of that because she saw him died . 

As for ichigo I think the Lust arc , along with learning the truth about his mother and making peace with his powers is what made him understand he had to rely on his friends during battle . He cannot shoulder it all alone . Sometimes he’ll need the help of his friends in order to win . His desire to protect them is strong , he cares for them very much and wish to be able to shoulder the burden on his own . But he cannot . He realizes he needed his friends help in order to win and that is why this : 

( along with him trusting Ishida and then Ganju and Chad to affront their opponents alone ) is one of ichigo’s biggest character development . We all know how over protective he is with Orihime ( certainly because he is in love with her ) but having him bring her voluntarily into the battlefield  is completely at odds with the dynamic they had before where he asked orihime to stay behind while he protected her ( see all the vizards and Hueco mundo arc ) . Here he understand that his desire to protect her should not cloud his judgment and that he would need her shielding / healing abilities against an opponent as strong as Ywach especially because he needed someone to protect him while he awoke his hybrid powers . This , coupled with the realization that Orihime trained so hard to be able to fight alongside him that he discovered during the fullbring arc is what brought up this character development . 


So in summary the lust arc is a story of two selfless kids with such good intentions and such love for the other that pushed them to go to terrible lengths for the other . Lengths no one should ever go to and living this nightmare is in part what shaped them into the wonderful adults they became . 

So sorry this answer is not exactly answering to your ask I talked more about the consequences of the lust arc and its implications than of the lust arc itself . The point you made was good and from a narrative standpoint the transformation of ichigo into full hollow seems to be triggered at least in part by Orihime’s cries so I think you’re right there isn’t nothing there but even if indeed it had nothing to do with orihime the lust arc is still one of the greatest ichihime moment and the one with the heaviest implication of Ichigo–> Orihime which had been later proved by canon . Their relationship was actually unbalanced before the lust arc ( Orihime relying too much on ichigo and Ichigo being too over protective of Orihime ) but this had been changed by the lust arc . It allows them to become more mature , including in the way they act upon the feelings they have for each other . It allows their relationship to evolve to become one of the most healthy in the history of shonen mangas. 

zinstorm-blog  asked:

With pride relieved you now have seen all of the seven deadly sins... I'm wondering which one is your favorite in terms of personality/character design, abilities and "love to hate" factor (you can even have a choice for each category if you wish... hell I'd prefer it).

In terms of character design, I rank them (from favorite to least favorite):

Wrath > Envy (Human) > Greed 1.0 > Gluttony > Envy (True) > Pride > Lust > Sloth

In terms of personality, I rank them (from favorite to least favorite):

Greed 1.0 > Envy > Wrath > Pride > Gluttony > Lust > Sloth

In terms of their powers, I rank them (from favorite to least favorite):

Pride > Envy > Wrath > Sloth = Gluttony > Greed > Lust.

So in short, Lust and Sloth have the short end of the stick, IMO. However, I concede that we probably haven’t seen Sloth’s special gimmick (along with Pride’s), so my thoughts on them will probably change significantly later on.

Settle down with me
Cover me up
Cuddle me in

Lie down with me
And hold me in your arms

And your heart’s against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I’m falling for your eyes, but they don’t know me yet
And with a feeling I’ll forget, I’m in love now

Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We’re falling in love

Settle down with me
And I’ll be your safety
You’ll be my baby

Yeah I’ve been feeling everything
From hate to love

From love to lust

From lust to truth
I guess that’s how I know you
So I hold you close to help you give it up

I don’t know how I did it. How I forced myself to be okay. But I guess it’s not really okay, because all I feel is numb. And empty.
—  An excerpt from a book I’ll never write.

anonymous asked:

Can you explain how having a crush on someone differs from falling in love?

Crushes tend to be a temporary infatuation, whilst love involves comitment, honesty and trust. 

Biologically, if we look at Helen Fisher’s 3 stages of love model (which I made a graphic about) we see love develops from lust, to attraction to eventual attachement. In the case of a crush, you may feel lust and attraction but attachement requires a much deeper conection which is only possible if the two have a pre-existing relationship. Only then can the experience be labelled as love.

Signs as Ed Sheeran - Kiss me

Aries:  Lie down with me and hold me in your arms

Taurus:  I was made to keep your body warm

Gemini:  I’m cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms

Cancer:  Settle down with me, and I’ll be your safety, you’ll be my lady

Leo:  My heart’s against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck

Virgo:  Settle down with me, cover me up, cuddle me in

Libra:  So I hold you close to help you give it up

Scorpio:  I’m falling for your eyes, but they don’t know me yet

Sagittarius: Kiss me like you wanna be loved

Capricorn:  And with this feeling I’ll forget, I’m in love now

Aquarius:  Yeah I’ve been feeling everything, from hate to love, from love to lust, from lust to truth

Pisces:  This feels like falling in love, falling in love, we’re falling in love

near to you // a 5986 fanmix.

i. love song requiem by trading yesterday // ii. heavy in your arms by florence + the machine // iii. illuminated by hurts // iv. iris by goo goo dolls // v. near to you by a fine frenzy // vi. kiss me by ed sheeran // vii. loving you by g.na // viii. make it rain by colbie caillat.

“yeah, i’ve been feeling everything: from hate to love, from love to lust, from lust to truth. i guess that’s how i know you. so, i hold you close to let you give it up." 

art: [X].

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kaisoo + lyrics
     ↳ kiss me by ed sheeran
            I’ve been feeling everything
            From hate to love
            From love to lust
            From lust to truth
            I guess that’s how I know you

  • Settle down with me
  • Cover me up
  • Cuddle me in
  • Lie down with me
  • Hold me in your arms
  • Your heart's against my chest
  • Lips pressed to my neck
  • I've fallen for your eyes
  • But they don't know me yet
  • And the feeling I forget
  • I'm in love now
  • Kiss me like you wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • This feels like I've fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • Settle down with me
  • And I'll be your safety
  • You'll be my lady
  • I was made to keep your body warm
  • But I'm cold as, the wind blows
  • So hold me in your arms
  • My heart's against your chest
  • Your lips pressed to my neck
  • I've fallen for your eyes
  • But they don't know me yet
  • And the feeling I forget
  • I'm in love now
  • Kiss me like you wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • This feels like I've fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • Yeah I've been feeling everything
  • From hate to love
  • From love to lust
  • From lust to truth
  • I guess that's how I know you
  • So hold you close
  • To help you give it up
  • So kiss me like you wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • This feels like I've fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • So kiss me like you wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • Wanna be loved
  • This feels like I've fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • Fallen in love
  • Kiss me - Ed Sheeran.

Clexa Week: Day Seven - Song I associate with them.

‘Yeah I’ve been feeling everything from hate to love, from love to lust, from lust to truth, I guess that’s how I know you, so hold me close to help you give it up.
So kiss me like you wanna be loved.’

Kiss Me - Ed Sheeran

anonymous asked:

*different anon* wrITE THE ESSAY

All right little ones, gather around! And by little ones, I mean every poor soul out there who knows of the coupling that is Bellamy Blake and Clarke Griffin. Due to anon demand, I’ve decided to compile a list of reasons why I ship Bellamy and Clarke, and because I know my rambling tendencies, I apologize in advance for the novel that’s likely to slap you in the face and send you tumbling to the floor.

1. ♫ FROM HATE TO LOVE, FROM LOVE TO LUST, FROM LUST TO TRUTH, I guess that’s how I know you ♫

Fuck this song honestly, I’ve spent too many nights crying over it and applying it to these two idiots. Obviously Bellarke have not reached the lust stage just yet, but they have transitioned from hate to love. This is canon. The kind of love is open to interpretation, but we have been blessed with seeing their relationship transform from hostile enemies, to begrudging co-leaders, and currently, to close friends who need each other. I mean, in the S2 finale, we had both of them in tears because Clarke needed to leave Camp Jaha. If anyone told Pilot!Bellamy or Pilot!Clarke that the future of their relationship consisted of respect, admiration, protectiveness, and a preference of leading together instead of alone, they would laugh in their faces. They wouldn’t believe you. AND THAT IS FUCKING EVERYTHING TO ME. Give me beautiful, drawn out development filled with fluff, and angst, and conflict, and yearning. Give me slow burn. I don’t want to root for a couple who gets together in less than a season. I want to root for a couple who fights against obstacles, both as a team and as individual characters, and decide that they still need each other, want each other, at the end of the day. Each season. Because they are that important to each other.

2. Opposites Attract

I’m weak for this trope and always will be. Bellamy and Clarke are from different worlds despite both of them falling from the same damn sky. Bellamy had responsibilities that a child shouldn’t have when he was growing up. He witnessed the corruption of the system that was suppose to protect his people, his family. This system, the government, was the reason why his sister wasn’t allowed to live above the floorboards, why his mother had to resort to sleeping around to support her family and give him opportunities, why he ended up as a janitor for trying to give his sister a moment of freedom, and why his mother ended up being executed. Bellamy was part of the working class. Clarke grew up under completely different circumstances. Clarke grew up as a privileged person on the Ark, the princess that was the embodiment of everything Bellamy grew up to resent. This didn’t exempt her from struggles and grief, no, but how could she ever understand him? Oh, but she did. Eventually she did. When we were introduced to Bellamy and Clarke, they constantly butted heads. He was wild, she was all about the rules. He was rebellious and chaotic, she was serious and moral. He was selfish, she was selfless. If he said blue, she would’ve said red. And then it all changed, slowly, and the dynamic between them was suddenly much more complicated once they start leading together. It changed the moment they started trusting each other.

3. Two Sides of the Same Coin

Yes, I know I just said they were opposites. But they are also very similar and work so well together, I just cry thinking about it. They don’t change who they are for the sake of the other. Their co-leadership and relationship involves actual discussion and compromise. She’s the head and he’s the heart. Yes, different functions, but one cannot function without the other. They both prioritize their people. They both felt loss, had their lives turned upside down, before they were sent to the ground. They both shoulder the responsibilities of being a leader. They are both whole people with broken pieces inside, still having the capability of loving others and persevering despite life trying to knock them down. They make such a fantastic team, the King and Queen of the Delinquents. They infiltrated Mount Weather and fucking brought them to their knees, don’t underestimate them. Be very afraid because this power couple will FUCK YOU UP, make no mistake. 

4. Boy is willing to do anything for his girl

I have a weakness for OTPs where the boy is willing to fight or die for the girl he’s in love with. Bellamy is this tall, baritone badass who’s insanely attractive and Clarke is this tiny, blonde badass who’s also insanely attractive. But I’m going to be real, I’m all for a guy being wrapped around the girl’s finger because it’s a damn good dynamic and has the potential for so many good scenes. Bellamy is protective as fuck and we’ve seen this 

clearly being

extended to Clarke

5. They’re always in tune with each other and have an understanding

Do me a favor and just watch them on screen together. 

They’re almost always in sync and aware of each other’s presence. 

Always.

They communicate with glances, for fucks sake. 

STUPID GLANCES, OKAY, WHAT THE FUCK??

6. Their chemistry is insanely palpable

I live for the scenes where they interact. 

Whether it’s standing next to each other, walking together, strategizing, having deep conversations, joking around or fighting.This also includes the way that they look at each other and react to each other’s absence, mind you. Clarke is more subtle about it because Bellamy’s always been the more expressive of the two, but one thing is clear from the way that they look at each other: they mean something to each other. Yes, we are all well aware of Bellamy making heart eyes at Clarke, we cry about it all the time. 

But Clarke

reacts to him

in ways that make me want to rip my heart out

and throw it into a pit of boiling water 

7. They respect each other and support each other’s decisions

Clarke always acknowledges Bellamy’s importance and respects him as a leader 

and as a person that she’s come to care about

and Bellamy supports Clarke and always reassures her

8. Their foundation can set up one of the greatest sci-fi love stories on TV

The greatest thing about Bellamy and Clarke is that they’ve got room for so much more development. Their journey is goddamn beautiful and if it continues the way that it’s going, audiences won’t question if they do get together eventually. In fact, people are already questioning why they aren’t. Because it does make sense. And if it makes sense, eventually the narrative will make room for it in the future. Yes, this show, this couple, is in a universe that’s fictional and takes place in a post-apocalyptic world, but their dynamic is relatable. Their love is relatable. It’s not an all-consuming, love at first sight ordeal that’s romanticized all the time in shows today. Their romantic love would be a product of respect, trust, and friendship.

These are the reasons why I ship Bellamy and Clarke, and why I will ship them until the day that I die.

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                 Yeah I’ve been feeling everything
                           From hate to love
                           From love to lust
                           From lust to truth
            I guess that’s how I know you
                    So I hold you close to help you give it up