What I hope I said when I proposed

Today is September 19th. I am posting this October 11th.

I am writing out some things I hope I was able to cover when I asked Kaitlyn ( strivingformediocracy ) to marry me.

I knew when I first met you when you moved to Mulvane that you were some one incredibly special. I remember Madi Cox asking me a few week later who I had a crush on and I blushed and said Kaitlyn. Third Grade was when that was. You were able to light a spark in my heart in third grade.

I am not a super religious person,but God put you in my life for a reason,I don’t know what I did to deserve some one like you but I know I would do whatever it was again a million times if I knew you would be in my life.

In retrospect we are still young,but I don’t care,I realize about a year ago that things were solidified when I stopped thinking about ‘what will I do when…’ And began thinking about ‘what will WE do when…’

I don’t know what I am going to do in a year. Or what to do for a career. I don’t know where I’m going to live or how long I am going to live for,hopefully til 3005. The only thing I know for sure is that I want you by my side til 3005.

I want make you smile when you are sad.

I want to see more concerts than we have money with you.

I want to see the cardinals play in a World Series game and you are sitting next to me in the nose bleed seats because that’s all we can afford with my student loans putting us in debt.

I secretly always have wanted the high school love story and by God we are the prime example.

We don’t know when we will get married.

We don’t know when we can live together.

But there is something we can do right now.

Kaitlyn Ashley Gundlach, whether you get a career or your dream Audi,whether you are sick or healthy, I don’t want to miss a thing. I want you to be a Freund forever.

Will you marry me?

While writing this reflection, my fiancé sat across the room indulging in some acrylic painting. Occasionally, I asked him for specific incidences that I could reference, but he came up empty on ideas and instead responded with “Well I don’t know. Everything is just natural for us, so nothing stands out.” The best way to describe our relationship is that it’s natural. Naturally, we adapted to college life. Naturally, we moved in together with ease. And naturally, we decided to spend the rest of our lives together.
—  Reflection for a sociology course

For anyone who wants to watch a sappy video of my trip with strivingformediocracy .

SPOILER: There may or may not be a clip with the proposal.


Last night was pretty indescribable. I had no expectations going in to the venue and I was pleasantly blown away. I met the biggest super fan of Kiss ever, he has seen Kiss 76 times including Australia,Japan,Paris,and Canada. Not knowing but three songs, I had no idea how enjoyable the show was going to be,but from the fire,blood,lights,flying, and confetti I had a blast.