Because I have a lot of feelings about that hug and, whatever gets thrown at Robron, this is what I’ll keep coming back to. Why? Because this entire scene epitomises what Robron is, what they mean to each other, why they’re special. No matter what has happened - or is yet to come - nothing will ever eclipse the magic of Robron in this one scene.
I just want to start by focusing on the moment that Robert spots Aaron and his whole demeanour changes. He’s no longer nervously fidgeting, but instead he’s suddenly alert. More alert than he has been since he had to say goodbye to his husband. Like he’s been in some kind of trance - just sleepwalking through his life, keeping up the pretence of existing - and now he has his husband back, he’s finally able to wake up. He’s finally able to live again.
And there’s Aaron on the other side of the road, nervous and fearful. Overwhelmed as he tries to find his footing in a once familiar world which now feels so alien to him. And Robert knows this, he sees this. But he sees so much more, too.
Robert can’t take his eyes off Aaron (even as he stumbles out of the car and aimlessly reaches for the door). All he can do is fix his gaze on the man he loves. He doesn’t need to look anywhere else, because his movements are instinctive. It’s an automatic dance his body has learned; to seek out Aaron. They are both united in their synchronicity of allowing themselves to be instinctively drawn back together like magnets. So Robert refuses to tear his eyes away from Aaron, his whole world finally returned to him. Instead, he searches for that eye contact with Aaron. The eye contact he knows Aaron needs; to reassure him that he’s there… He’s safe… He’s home… That it’s real.
And when Aaron’s eyes do fix on Robert’s? That’s when Aaron drops his bag - a bag containing the items that brought him comfort during his ordeal, that made him less scared, that reminded him of the safety of Robert’s presence - because it’s no longer needed. He drops the bag because he can finally replace the items with the man, whom he rushes to now. Because this is the moment he allows himself to believe. Because Robert made him believe… Because he believes in Robert and, in this moment, he’s all he sees. His world; his anchor; his very purpose. Suddenly there again. Real, and within reach. And reach he does.
And it isn’t until they finally wrap their arms around each other that Aaron allows himself to breathe again. Like he’s been underwater this whole time and it’s only now he’s back in his husband’s arms that he’s finally able to break free, crash through the surface of the water and feel the air fill his lungs. Like both of their lives have literally been on pause, and only now can they resume.
The fact that there is no need for words. All they need is each other. To cling to each other as though they are the very air that they breathe; like they are the gravity rooting them to the earth; like two people finally able to latch onto their anchor again, after so long of just freefalling. Like two people being greeted by the reminder of their very purpose; their entire reason for being; their reason for walking this planet. Because they’ve both proven that without the other, they each truly are only half a man. Because they make each other whole. Together they are one. And in this moment, they’re both whole again.
The way they squeeze each other with every ounce of strength they have left, because they’re consuming everything in this moment but it still isn’t enough. The way they stand there, just holding each other, because they can’t bear to ever let go again. Because they’ve both felt so lost, for so long, but now… Now, they’re finally home. And in this moment, everything is right with the world. In this moment, nothing else matters.
And that’s why, whatever they’ve been through and are yet to go through, I will always come back to this scene. Because the poignancy of this moment will carry them, and me, through it all. Because this is what Robron means. Home.
We have been living in reverse. Leaving the nipple in the shadows of our puritanical past. Censoring and blurring it out as thanks for the nourishment and pleasure it provides. One of society’s ways of shaming and silencing the feminine. Denying her as the erotically powerful being that she is. So we join forces in solidarity. We dare one another to step up and break free from taboo. We claim our rightful place amongst the Earth, Air, Fire, and Water as Free Women.
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the air signs represent the closest manifestation to human, and yet this detached unfeeling resonance barely scratches the surface. the air signs are love, their survival relies on their interaction and relationship with others - through voice (gemini) interpersonal communion (libra) and becoming ingrained in the collective (aquarius). libra is ruled by venus, the frosted coating underpinning the joy of people and the pleasurable energies created in synergy, without you, there is nothing. gemini is ruled by venus in esoteric astrology, without people, gemini cannot communicate what is meaningful and develop or streamline their ideas, their existence spirals into a hollow thought tunnel, gemini emanates the love of venus through language and the information they share; to gemini it is an act of love to inform rather than provide a few vacuous moments of sexual pleasure. the venus in libra expresses through their very being. the strawberry nectar infused with the fresh breath of air is naturally delightful and disarming for their company. libra is fragmented in the sense they feel open and leaky without the components of others to stitch the whole, not to romanticize you or please you or they as if they are a passive mirror; more to model their own being, replenish in shared pleasure. they are like the cell in the mitosis first stage of cell division. love is not in what libras say, do, or offer, its the way they are; an intrinsic, enduring solicitous concern and awareness of other people, the warm venus love milk. aquarius is on the axis of divine love (the heart).. this emanates from the sun leo and is scattered, circulated through the collective by aquarius. aquarius is the mother of humanity, born with the innate overview of the shared collective consciousness and infinite oneness, the aquarian empathy is less personal, but their sign represents all that is creativity, boundless imagination, service and healing, purity, intuition and a brilliant sixth sense, there is an electric intermixture created when air and water bearer water annex transmitting a free flowing, light, illuminating energy that replenishes and cleanses collective humanity in divine love. the air of gemini, libra and aquarius is exhaled in adoration, an inborn, tender awareness of others and inhaled in a nourishing, intellectual way. there is a sweet creamy venus, heart, and air loving fusion with the air signs, blown from the edge of a cloud, the air signs are made of heart, and yet encased in a free floating rebounding sheet of airy bubblewrap
Create a hexbag which has been written with the words “Pulmones Aquae Mortisque”, on the reverse, the name of he you wish to curse, and incorporated therewith a vial of water and a pinch of graveyard dirt, to bind the one you want to hurt Ignite the charm’s power with the spell and hide it where he dwells. Once he touches it, he will drown where he stands, even if he be miles away from the nearest lake or pond or sea if it is not too late, destroy the charm to set him free
“Air be water, water be air Fill his lungs if they be there Take your last, be empty breath Breathe not air, but waters of death”
melodrama is such a precious and beautiful masterpiece to me. i am in awe of how lorde has captured so many emotions in just 11 tracks. i am extremely touched by the immensity of the messages and melodies and harmonies and rhythms packed into every song. i am so, so grateful for this album. it has been a rough few years but especially this past year for me. i feel like this album was able to highlight every moment i experienced over these past few years - from the beginning in the shallow ends and wading my feet in the pool of sadness, to my deep dark days in the deep end and fully immersing my body in the water and sinking to the bottom and not willing to get up, to my most recent days and the brighter days to come where my head is starting to stick out of the water for air and learning to break free and splash in the water with people i love and enjoy what life has to offer, despite everything that has happened. thank you thank you thank you. this means the world to me 💙🥀🌙🌱🌸🌹💫🦋⚡️☄️