Non capisci quando cerco in una sera
un mistero d’ atmosfera che è difficile afferrare,
quando rido senza muovere il mio viso,
quando piango senza un grido, quando invece vorrei urlare,
quando sogno dietro a frasi di canzoni,
dietro a libri e ad aquiloni, dietro a ciò che non sarà…
Vedi cara è difficile a spiegare,
è difficile capire se non hai capito già…
Non capisci quando cerco in una sera un mistero d'atmosfera che è difficile afferrare.
Quando rido senza muovere il mio viso, quando piango senza un grido, quando invece vorrei urlare.
Quando sogno dietro a frasi di canzoni, dietro a libri e ad aquiloni, dietro a ciò che non sarà.
Exactly one year ago I released my first EP and I had no idea what I was doing, what so ever. I can’t believe how much my life has changed since then, the friends I’ve lost and the friends I’ve gained. And tonight I’m announcing my collaboration with these amazing dancers, Enza Cara and Francesco Cara, which is a dream come true for me. Best year of my life. Here’s to another year of journeying, oceans to sail and new ways to live! Thank you all for doing this with me.
Highlights of my year
Released my debut-EP all on my own, with no clue clue of what I was doing, what so ever.
Was forced to learn how to write press-releases, get press-coverage and do interviews the hard way - by making mistakes and learn from it.
Was forced to learn how to deal with rejections.
Was blown away by beautiful words and support from my suddenly existing online-fans.
Had my charity-single I Will Lead You Home reaching #2 on the Swedish Itunes-chart.
Gave up my flat in London because I couldn’t afford it, refused to take a day-job and started to crash on my friends’ floors. Was forced to work harder than ever to prove myself with my music.
Played my first show in the states in New York in November.
Learned that my home will never be a place, but a state of mind.
Practiced recording and mixing like a frikkin Rocky and produced and recorded my second EP all on my own.
Broke down a dozen times because I couldn’t stand myself on the album-cover (the things you don’t see behind the camera…)
Found a way to deal with it.
Broke down again because I was scared to release the album.
Found a way to deal with it.
Released my second EP ’This Is How Ghosts Are Made’ and made sure not to make the same mistakes as I did with the first one (see, I’m learning!)
Thanks to the support from John Deal I got to hold both of my EPs as physical copies in my hand. That’s a feeling I will never forget.
Was named ’Breakthrough Indie Artist Of The Year’ by Lemonade Magazine.
Was played on BBC 6, Sveriges Radio and 3FM,
Went on my first UK-tour with Tiger Lilly, which turned out to be the best and most rewarding experience of my life.
Lost friends and gained friends.
Lost battles with myself and won battles with myself.
But most of all, I’ve learned how to live with myself this year. With this mind, inside this body, without breaking mirrors every morning. I’m not saying that I’m not struggling some days and that it won’t be any hard battles from here on. I’m just saying that there will be no more broken mirrors.
Oh and go and show these amazing dancers some love. They are the reason for my inspiration these days.