fragile focus

She seems so cool, so focused, so quiet, yet her eyes remain fixed upon the horizon. You think you know all there is to know about her immediately upon meeting her, but everything you think you know is wrong. Passion flows through her like a river of blood.

She only looked away for a moment, and the mask slipped, and you fell. All your tomorrows start here.

—  Neil Gaiman (Fragile Things: Short Fictions and Wonders)

I’m thinking about this because I did a reiki session just now but:

When I start a session I measure the person’s energy field—both with my hands and in the case of distance sessions, with a pendulum that gives me information on how an energy center is functioning and what direction it’s spinning in–a very blocked area will spin counter clockwise and barely move, for instance. So this gives me a basic road map right away of how the whole body is looking, if we have a case of complete lethargy the whole way down or we have a case of super overactive next to under active centers

The reason I mention this is I check multiple times through a session with my pendulum on how the reiki is progressing, and I notice that if my initial read is complete blocks all the way down and I begin to work out some of the blocks in the head (reiki usually proceeds from head on down from there) this will sometimes trigger a ripple effect all the way down the line–not always for the positive!

So in the middle of the session the head and third eye areas that I read as lethargic may suddenly read super open and healthy after I work on them–and then suddenly the centers below that line who were previously a bit slow can suddenly reverse into being way slower and even more blocked!

I think this is a super fascinating thing to notice because it really does reinforce the idea that the energy in the body is on a balanced tightrope, and focusing on ONE area seems to have unforeseen effects on another, not always for the better. For this reason during a session I treat the entire body, because it’s not JUST about releasing blocks or tension–it’s about bringing the entire energy system into harmonic balance. I work on every single area whether it reads healthy levels or not, but it was just really interesting just now to witness how one center would be unblocked and somewhere by the feet would pick up an imbalance as a result. It really makes me feel like the whole energy approach is indeed the right one to have, because the system is like a fragile ecosystem–focus on one thing and risk another.

I’ve read theories where blocks in one area transfer over time to others, i.e. I’ve observed in my own work feelings literally do get pushed down over time and buried in the lower body areas (hence why people sometimes literally cry during hip openers in yoga) but it’s cool to observe a direct effect with the use of pendulums–like if I poke this, this other thing happens multiple centers down. Cool stuff.

When a male referee asks out a female player during the match and then gives out two red cards and denies her team a penalty kick after being rejected

True story.  Hell hath no fury like a man* rejected.

During a match in the Spanish primera división the referee Santiago Quijada Alcon asked Elena Pavel (Sporting Huelva) out with: “Hey brown-hair, let’s get coffee this afternoon” to which she replied “Better stick to blowing your whistle” And then I guess he punished her and her team for #refereezoning him.

This shows 2 things: 

1. women* are not treated equally in the workplace and can’t count on all men* being professional around them.

2. women* can’t always just say no without having to fear being insulted or attacked.

This case so absurd that it’s almost funny. But when you know that women* are actually physically attacked and killed for rejecting men*, you really start hating everyone who denies that there is still misogyny and patriarchy in this world.