Summary: You can tell that Dean has been
struggling lately and think it’s about time you two talked about it. What he suggests surprises you.
Characters: Dean Winchester x reader
Word count: 526 (Drabble)
Warnings: Season 12 spoilers (If you haven’t watched 12.03, “The Foundry” then you should probably catch up first), angst, feelings of abandoness, insecurities
Author’s Notes: This is my submission for @angelschallenge gif+adjective drabble challenge. Thank you so much for organizing this, Angel!
My adjective prompt was “troubled” (it is included in bold in the text below) and my gif prompt is under the cut.
You tiptoed to the library carefully, not wanting to wake up Sam. Dean hadn’t been in bed when you’d woken up in the middle of the night -again- and you knew he’d be there; he was predictable like that.
Leaning against the doorframe, you found him on the couch, a bottle of amber liquid in front of him, half empty glass in hand.
“A penny for your thoughts.” You murmured softly and he looked up, surprised and troubled, that half smile that meant to reassure you everything was fine but did anything but, spread across his lips.
Can we talk about this scene? Okay, we all know this is a heartbreaking moment for everyone involved, but there is something that really stood out to me. The last thing Dean says to his mom is, “You’re home now,” which sets off the rest of the conversation. There is nearly four minutes after this where Mary continues to talk and then the episode ends, and Dean says absolutely nothing at all. Four minutes of no dialogue whatsoever on his part. Mary keeps explaining, leaving these long moments between sentences where she expects Dean to say something and he doesn’t, so she jumps in again and tries to explain more. When Sam finally interjects and asks what she means, it’s only after a quick look to Dean to realize he’s not going to do it. Even Sam is expecting him to say something, and he just doesn’t. This is so important to me. Can you recall a time in the series where Dean is in the shot for more than a few minutes and doesn’t say anything? Or a time when someone repeatedly trails off to let him respond and then he doesn’t? This is the first real time where we’ve seen Dean so thoroughly broken and upset that he physically doesn’t have words. He is rendered speechless. You can see it in the way he breathes, the way he audibly exhales in disbelief, the way he blinks in this quick progression as he processes what must feel like his heart being ripped out of his chest. He could beg his mom to stay. Plead with her. Tell her things will get better and everything will be okay. But he doesn’t. He doesn’t say anything at all. His mom waits for it. Sam waits for it (Sam, who knows him better than anyone else, waits for him to say something). And there’s nothing. No questions. No promises. No attempt to do anything at all to sway her decision. The last thing he says is, “You’re home now.”
i just privated my post about bigender dean & mary because i realised i made a very big mistake
i was really happy but now i’m REALLY UPSET AND CONFUSED
let me go through it again
i was under the impression that this bigender symbol
was the same as what i was seeing here
which IT IS NOT
WHAT’S BEHIND DEAN IS THE SYMBOL FOR HETEROSEXUALITY
THANKS ROBERT SINGER and/or SET DESIGNERS
FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT YOU WERE BEING PROGRESSIVE AND INTERESTING BUT N O P E
i’mma paste what i wrote when i was happy and have it mean the opposite thing, why not:
THAT IS A METAL OR WOODEN ROOM DIVIDER. SOMEONE HAD TO COMMISSION A BLACKSMITH OR CRAFTSPERSON TO MAKE THAT. SOMEONE HAD TO DESIGN IT. THEN MAKE IT. THEN INSTALL IT, AND MAKE THE WHOLE ROOM MATCH. IT’S NOT THERE BY SOME UNCANNY ACCIDENT.
(THEN THEY STUCK DEAN IN FRONT OF IT.)
AND IT’S A FUCKING HETEROSEXUAL SYMBOL
and that on the right is the female half of the heterosexual symbol over one bed. (over the other bed there’s the male half). to the left of this shot, three piles of fabric (including the pink in the fold-out bed) make up the bisexual flag.
WHY THE MIXED MESSAGES HUH??? (almost like the director said “let’s make a room that says ‘everyone is straight’” and the set designers were like “let’s make it blue/purple/pink to counteract that” THERE’S A FUCKING WAR GOING ON IN THIS ROOM GUYS)
i WAS SO HAPPY BEING CONFUSED ABOUT WHY THERE WAS SUCH AGGRESSIVE SYMBOLISM ABOUT BIGENDER-NESS BUT NOW I SEE THE TRUTH AND THAT IT’S AGGRESSIVE BISEXUAL ERASURE HOLY FUCKING COWS ON A BICYCLE COULD YOU ANNOY ME ANY MORE WITH THE BACKGROUND WHAT THE F U C K
fuck you robert singer, i don’t like your heterosexual motel room