They were lying together in bed like they did most nights now. She’d explained their whole situation to Adam by this point and he understood and, still a bit hesitantly, let her go sleep over with Holden most nights. And so there they were, so much more comfortable and familiar with each other now than the first night she remembered both of them being stiff and unsure, but now they fit together perfectly and he held her and she curled up to his side and- it was just everything she could ask for and everything she was so afraid to lose. Because she loved him- and she wasn’t really sure in what way yet. She didn’t think she was in love with him, but that didn’t mean she could love him in a different way. Even if it was confusing. And then she thought back to weeks before when she’d talked to Jace in that stupid grocery store and she’d shouted feelings she didn’t even know she had… Sex? Holden was attractive- more than that he could even be hot at times without really understanding it even though Emma knew plenty of other girls did too. And on top of it- there was this hope… Because Emma never thought anyone would want to be intimate with her in that way due to the scars that were sketched into so much of her pale skin. But Holden wasn’t afraid of her and he didn’t think they were disgusting. “Hey Holden?…” she whispered, knowing he was still awake because his breathing hadn’t really steadied the way she learned it did when he fell asleep, “I uh- I was just wondering if you’ve ever had sex before…” she muttered, knowing the question was out of nowhere, and personal and her cheeks heated up a bit as she curled a little closer into his chest.