So everyone will agree that 2016 was an awful year. And for
me, it was an awful year for my emotional, motivational, and productive state.
So yeah, my 2016 was not so hot. And that’s an understatement.
In 2016, I battled a depressive episode that actually, I am
just starting to get out of. I lost interest in everything. In school, in
learning, in friends, in even what I normally love. I hardly read any books
There were times when I felt like my brain wasn’t
functioning correctly. I thought I was becoming this stupid, unproductive
person. I couldn’t focus, I couldn’t recall many things I normally wouldn’t
have trouble recalling.
This year was bad physically too. My sleeping pattern was
completely shattered. I missed meals frequently, resulting in me nearly
fainting from low blood sugar one time. Hygiene-wise, also nada. Gross I know,
but low morale guys, don’t judge me too hard.
It was scary as hell. It still is.
But that doesn’t mean I’ll give up on myself and on the rest
of the world.
I need to get myself back together. It’s a slow process.
It’s hard to get up. Because a part of me wants to stay in
this state. Because I know that getting up will mean having to face the world.
And the thought of that terrifies me. A part of me likes being in this dark
place where I can curl up into a ball and remain uninterested and disconnected
with the rest of the world. But the other part of me, is determined to get up.
To become better. I am disgusted with myself and how I’ve been for the past few
months. And that’s a good thing.
Because I have now admitted to myself that I’m not happy
with the way I am and that is the first step towards change.
So I’ve made my decision. 2017 better watch out because I
WILL OWN THIS YEAR AND SO WILL YOU.
Even if 2017 turns out to be a bad year for the world in
general, I won’t allow it to be a bad year for my own mental and physical
I will take care better care of myself this year. I will
conquer my negative and depressing emotions and replace with emotions that will
pave the way to success.
It’s not going to be easy. And I know that there will likely
be consequences waiting for me due to my poor performance this year. Especially
in the area of academics. But moving forward slowly and painfully is certainly
better than being stuck down here, wasting my potential.
So to kick off my grand plan to make 2017 the year I kick the
ass of everything holding me back, I have decided to make a playlist that I can
sing along to. A playlist that will motivate me. And a playlist that can
motivate you too.
If 2016 wasn’t your year, it’s okay. But you guys also need
to remember that if you want to change, you need to admit that you need to
So chant the lyrics to these songs with me and let’s kick
ass together like the majestic creatures I know we can be.
I Lived – Onerepublic
Ordinary Human – Onerepublic
Titanium – David Guetta feat Sia
Alive – Sia
Weightless – All Time Low
Missing You – All Time Low
The Reckless and the Brave – All Time Low
Rise – Colton Dixon
Scars – Colton Dixon
Golden Year – LOLO
Comeback Queen – LOLO
Immortals – Fall Out Boy
Ready To Go (Get Me Out of My Mind) – Panic! At
All Of Me – Tanlines
Today – Smashing Pumpkins
My Hair – The Maine
Migraine – Twenty One Pilots
Forest – Twenty One Pilots
Something Good Can Work – Two Door Cinema Club
June 26, 1992 was the evening I took these pictures of the Rollins Band at Trees in Deep Ellum, Dallas, TX. I was never a huge fan of any Rollins Band LP other than Lifetime. After begrudgingly going to this show I was a fan of the Rollins Band without fail. Say what you like about ole Henry but live he and the band never disappoint. The Toadies from Fort Worth opened the show and played their usually great set.
Hey! I've been following your writing for years now but CP did make me look for you on tumblr. If you feel like it, could you write something from Nikandros POV? His views on Damen+Laurent canon/au/whatever.
The sky is heavy with clouds when they approach the palace gates, and the air is softly promising rain. The sunlight is dulled. There is nevertheless enough of it to catch and gleam on the yellow head that is visible on the ramparts, standing apart from the guards.
Nikandros glances at his oldest friend, who has been alternately chafing and morose for the past two weeks, and who now, gazing up at Laurent, looks like a man coming across a clear stream of water after stumbling through the desert.
“Stop making that face,” Damianos says, not looking at Nikandros.
“I was going to say the same thing to you.”
Damianos smiles and kicks his horse into a final burst of speed, moving ahead of his men, through the gate and into the courtyard.
1. Where’d You Go by Fort Minor | 2. Sierra Leone by Mt Eden | 3. Late Night (Koreless Purple Cowboy Remix) by Foals | 4. (I Just) Died In Your Arms by Bastille | 5. Sweet Disposition by The Temper Trap | 6. The Funeral by Band of Horses | 7. Genesis by Grimes | 8. Dust Clears by Clean Bandit | 9. I Follow Rivers by Lykke Li | 10. Constant Conversations by Passion Pit | 11. Holocene by Bon Iver | 12. Spanish Sahara by Foals | 13. The Mother We Share (Moonboots Remix) by CHVRCHES | 14. I’m Good. I’m Gone by Lykke Li | 15. Oblivion by Grimes.
People take selfies at the Bandra Fort Band Stand, a famous tourist spot near the Arabian sea, in Mumbai, India on February 25th 2016. According to reports, around 19 people have died taking selfies in India since 2014. Mumbai has now banned selfies in 16 areas because of safety risks. Credit: EPA/Divyakant SolankiI