“It was the perfect kind of rain to drive home to – the kind of cold, unpredictable rain that could turn to snow at any moment. I thought about how many people were driving at that moment, the magnitude of other peoples messy lives still surviving, holding onto the last parts of the night hoping it won’t end. I find my own feelings beautiful and flawed, the way I’ve learned more about myself in the time I’ve spent laughing with you in your bed than the rest of my life before you. I’ve little more than a glitched mind and a few photo albums to offer you, so when my hands brush against yours, or our shoulders touch because we meant for them to (or didn’t), sometimes I imagine I’m a better version of myself, a version with something to give, a version of value. Because, it’s true, I do love myself, and all the cracks and fissures other people have left have just made me a hell of a lot more interesting. The truth is, the worst parts of me are the one’s I’ve made up all on my own.
It’s strange to feel both trivial and important, comfortable and nervous at the thought of you. These few adventures we’ve had are a small portion of what I want to show you. I’ve spent enough time folding in on myself that I’m as strong as I could ever be on my own. We’ve only just started growing together, and sure I’m already a tangled mess but we’ve only just started. That’s all I can promise.”
It hasn’t been all that long since I did a gear update, but I’ve been getting a lot of questions about what I’m shooting with these days, so I thought I’d share my main bag. I used to carry a lot more than this, but I discovered that it was holding me back from shooting because I would often not want to carry a big backpack full of gear around and I’d leave it all in the car or at home. I’ve been using this bag and camera system for several months now and since it’s a lot smaller and lighter, I’ve been taking my stuff everywhere I go.
Also, late last year, I switched from an Olympus Micro Four-thirds and a Canon DSLR system to shooting with the Sony A3000 mostly exclusively. It’s certainly not as cool looking as the Olympus cameras are, but it’s more suitable for my needs and it’s been a blast to shoot with. Here’s a list of the core items in my camera bag. Sometimes if I’m going to be out all day, I’ll pack a power bank for my phone and camera, and I often carry whichever book I’m reading at the time in there, but this is just about everything.
Waxed Finnish Military surplus gas mask bag Purse organizer used as a camera insert Sony A3000 w/ Zonlai 25mm f/1.8 Canon 55mm f/1.2 FD ASPH on an RJ Speed Booster Nikon 28mm f/.2.8 Opteka 85mm f/1.8 Neewer square filter kit + backup batteries and SD cards in a felt pouch Cellphone tripod mount Victorinox Swiss Army Classic SD Schrade SCH304M Screwdriver pen set A neat old flashlight I found Travel tripod and head My journal w business cards + a blue pen and a yellow marker
Hope this clears up any questions! If you’re into photography and have a gear list and want to share, link it to me! I’m always interested in seeing what y’all are shooting with.