forms in transit

Oh, Danny. Where would you be without your wingman?

Inspired by a scene from chapter 19 of Treading Water. I laughed hard and had to draw it. Go read it if you love the fandom. I guarantee it won’t disappoint. ;)

Retrograde Planets in the Natal Chart

There seems to be some confusion about retrograde planets going along the internet. If you were to average out all the posts describing what happens to an Rx (retrograde) planet, it would likely read something like this:

“Retrograde planets appear to be moving backwards through the sky from the perspective of earth which gives them special properties. The planet’s energy is turned inwards and things that planet rules tend to go haywire, so here are some tips for surviving a retrograde and the shadow period before it:

1)      Take some time and reflect on what that planet means. Retrogrades are time for reflection.

2)      Expect things to go wrong, even things that planet may or may not rule. Retrogrades are just kinda hectic, so wait till everything is direct to move forward.

3)      Don’t do anything that involves that planet. At all. ESPECIALLY if it’s Mercury retrograde.

4)      Hide in a bunker under the ground. Wait for all the planets to go direct. It’s just safer that way, ok?

Retrogrades in the natal chart may have a very muted expression because their energy is turned inwards. Don’t worry, it doesn’t mean your doomed, but you’ll just have a LOT of extra difficulty and awkwardness as a result of your retrograde planet because other people won’t get your weird way of doing that planet’s action. On the bright side, though, sometimes these retrogrades can actually bring special talents because the planets motion is turned inwards so it’s like doing a lesson over again.”

It is true, a retrograde planet CAN cause some hiccups when they are transiting, but descriptions like this stigmatize people who natally have retrograde planets. Are they doomed to never be able to use that planet’s energy because it’s “turned inwards”? What does it even mean for a planet’s energy to be “turned inward”? Why are these planets “awkward”? And what exactly are the “special talents” retrograde planets give the native? Those are questions the questions that really need to be answered.

When astrologers describe a planets energy as being turned inwards, what they are trying to get across is a slightly more complex idea in simpler language and that idea is this: Retrograde planets, karmically speaking, are places where we subconsciously know the consequences of using that planet’s energy. All of our actions have consequences both good and bad whether we realize it or not. People with a planet retrograde are likely to have an uneasy feeling about using their retrograde planet’s energy because they can feel the consequences. This doesn’t mean there aren’t consequences from acting with a direct planet, but when we do that, we often aren’t conscious of what could go wrong.

For example, a person with a Mercury Rx will tend to think twice before saying anything or may opt not to say anything at all because they are painfully conscious of the weight their words carry. This can lead them to being labeled as “awkward” in the way they communicate. In transit form, this often looks like communication chaos, but in reality, Mercury Rx is trying to remind us to slow down and think twice about what we say, both verbally and nonverbally, because even small acts of communication can have a big impact on our lives and the lives of others.

How can retrograde planets be hidden talents, you may ask? Well, karmically, people tend to learn through trial and error. They do something, they learn the consequences either good or bad from what they can see. They watch the effects of their actions. That being the case, people with retrograde planets can tap into their planet for a ridiculous amount of talent, but they also tend to be very aware of the cost of doing so and will not do it unless they have a very, very good reason. Again, using Mercury as an example, somebody with a Mercury in retrograde likely knows EXACTLY how to communicate what they’re feeling, they just choose not to because they don’t want to hurt the other person’s feelings. Saying how they feel could result in a lot of emotional fallout, so while they have the talent to really get their point across when provoked, they’re often sorry later if they do.

Hopefully that helps explain the formula for how interpretations for retrograde planets are created. Here are some of my personal interpretations for each planet retrograde when in the natal chart, but if you have anything to add or ask please do so in the comments below.

*Note: These interpretations are single-planet, meaning other aspects and planets in the natal chart can change the expression. These are meant to be combined with the rest of the natal chart.


Mercury Rx: Natives with this placement often get a reputation for being quiet, not having a lot to say, or not being able to get their point across. The truth is, they often know exactly what they want to say but are more aware of the consequences of speaking their mind and would rather stay quiet than deal with that. They also tend to process information more thoroughly than people with direct Mercury placements do because they know the consequences of spreading false information or assuming something is correct right away.

Mars Rx: Natives with this placement may be labeled as weak willed or apathetic since they tend not to be self-starters or have much drive to compete. Often times, the gentle placement of Mars Rx simple doesn’t like the collateral damage of competition. While people with a Mars direct may enjoy activities that require competing, Mars Rx knows that for as high as the winner gets, the loser gets equally low. This may lead them to forgo participation in anything they must do alone, so they may get run over by more competitive types. The upside is they’re generally pretty good at waiting and are very patient people although their lack of a rush can frustrated more ambitious people. While they can be exceptional competitors under the right circumstances, you’re unlikely to find Mars Rx using that ability.

Venus Rx: Natives with this placement tend to shy away from the material side of life. As a result, they often get labeled as having poor financial management and eating disorders when in reality, they tend to not need a lot of physical objects to be happy. It’s not that they don’t like stuff, they are just aware of how it can complicate things. The stereotype about being unloving is absolutely not true, as Venus Rx can know a love beyond what physical needs dictates, but they often question WHY someone loves them and for what reasons. They can get whatever it is that they want or need, but typically that isn’t much because that’s all they want, not because that’s all they can get in whatever house Venus is in. They don’t want to deal with the burning questions of why they do something if material investments are involved, so they keep it simple.

Ceres Rx: Natives with this placement may lead hectic, disorganized lives because frankly, they know how boring a routine can be. People with Ceres Rx are completely capable of running a tight ship but would prefer to let things be loose. They likely frustrate those around them with their apparent lack of discipline and routine, but if they absolutely have to they know how to get themselves back on track just in time to go back to a messy, surprise-oriented way of living.

Juno Rx: Natives with this placement may avoid partnerships and seem to be very “independent” instead. These lone wolves, however, are just trying to avoid dependence on somebody. It’s not that they can’t have partners, it’s just that they often don’t because they don’t want to use another person to compensate for what they can’t do; they want to be able to do it themselves! Juno Rx people typically won’t settle down until they can be for themselves what they want in a partner. This can lead to their partner feeling useless since Juno Rx tend to have a “If I want it done right I’ll do it myself” mentality but they can and do depend on partners once they’re satisfied with their own capabilities.

Jupiter Rx: Natives with this placement may avoid questioning things too deeply or be uneasy about learning too much about topics like politics and religion. These people often have the ability to pull off miracles of luck in their given houses, going much further than their Jupiter direct counterparts but they tend not to because they’re aware of how bad the crash from going too high is. As a result, Jupiter Rx natives tend to be more low key and avoid situations where they learn too much too fast. People may think of them as ignorant or as “killing the vibe” but it’s because Jupiter Rx knows subconsciously about the come down of a good time all too well.

Saturn Rx: Natives with this placement often have a lack of outside structure and as a result get very, very good at structuring themselves. Often, these people are disillusioned with the true cost of achievement and may choose to live life as free spirits rather than submitting to “the system”. Saturn Rx can work remarkably hard and know all the steps that go into making something big happen, but because they can see all the steps and work ahead of time, they tend to abstain. People with Saturn direct may think of them as downers but that’s just because Saturn Rx people know the grim reality of ambition.

Uranus Rx: Natives with this placement are often labeled as old fashioned or unable to keep up with the times because they’re not excited by new ways of doing things and technology. Uranus Rx, however, is very aware that anything that claims to solve a problem is likely to just create another in its place, even if it isn’t obvious. These people may find comfort in tradition because at least then they know what the consequences of the actions that have been tested over generations are and they don’t have to deal with figuring out new solutions to the new problems.

Neptune Rx: Natives with this placement are often labeled as grim and being downers when they feel they’re just being the voice of reason. Neptune Rx knows subconsciously the consequences of getting one’s hopes too high and they know that life is rarely as magical as we build it up to be. While these people may seem to move through life without a sense of wonder since they keep their expectations low, it’s because they don’t want to ruin a truly beautiful moment by making it more than it is in their head.

Pluto Rx: Natives with this placement are often labeled as “chill”, or more frequently, unpassionate. People with a Pluto Rx are usually pretty good at letting things go, especially in their house/sign that Pluto Rx is in, because they know the consequences of obsessing over something. They generally avoid pain because although they are very capable of gritting through rough situations when they need to, they don’t like how those types of experiences shape people. Pluto direct people are more likely to accredit their strength to a hard event they overcame while Pluto Rx people are more likely to wish such events never happened. Inside, they know they have the strength to survive hardship so the appeal of proving that they can isn’t readily present. While they may seem to lack a bond that drives them, they’re quite happy living life in its more gentle manifestations.

Transits - Walking into a New Room

Your natal chart is your cosmic birth certificate. It was printed when you took your first little breath, and it can never be altered or changed. But the planets kept moving. And they continue to orbit above your natal chart and introduce new energies and experiences. The natal chart is never changing. The transit chart is forever changing. 

When Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto transit through the houses these areas of life activate to an intense degree. It’s like walking from one room to another. The example chart highlights the 2nd, 4th, and 10th houses and the experiences these entail, like the 2nd house briefly contains our money and possessions, the 4th house is home, and the 10th house is the profession. When these slow moving planets progress through these life arenas they activate them to the extreme degree. Saturn moving into the 2nd can become uncharacteristically concerned about the money they have as security. Uranus moving through the 4th can trigger changes in residence. Neptune moving through the 10th can inspire a new vision for the profession. These areas of life become rattled and refurnished over many years. It’s likely that for planets beyond Saturn, you will never again experience their transit through this particular house in your lifetime. They symbolise pivotal life chapters. 

Reading Transit Charts 

In this chart you can see these transcendental planets in transit. The natal chart is the inside circle, and the transit chart is the outer circle. We can see that transiting Saturn in Sagittarius is in the 7th house. It means that even though there are no planets in this house the experience of life is still activated, experienced, and very real. Houses with no planets are extremely awakened by transcendental transits. Above the 7th house in the 8th house we see transiting Pluto in Capricorn directly on top of Neptune and Uranus. This makes transiting Pluto conjunct Uranus and Neptune, a configuration lots of people born during the late 80′s and early 90′s are experiencing. Transiting Neptune is on top of the horoscope, crossing over the chart’s midheaven. The planets crossing the angular points (1st, 4th, 7th, 10th houses) are very noteworthy. Finally in the 11th house we see transiting Uranus. This is how you can read your transit chart. There are astrology apps and free online resources that offer transit chart calculations. 

Reflecting on the transit chart can help you to prepare (useful in the case of Saturn’s movement), feel a sense of justice or validation for the things you have been going through but haven’t been able to explain or find a release from. It can help in reminding us that chaos is still a form of order 

-C.

sappho (80) notes ✨

asteroid sappho signifies personal aesthetic; the desire to bond deeply with others; education of females in the fine arts; emotional extremes in love; friendship needs; poetic ability; romantic and artistic sensitivity, same-sex bonding that exceeds ordinary friendship etc

inharmonious aspects to sappho indicate difficulties in forming close friendships; loneliness; problems in expressing or understanding love and sexuality; and trouble in balancing of intimacy needs with other areas of the personality.

sappho’s natal sign placement shows what the individual does for or with close friends; while its natal house placement shows what he or she most needs to share.

in synastry, sappho highlights sensual and sexual attractions.  the sappho person will respond to the planet person with creative and passionate sensuality. the planet person becomes sappho’s muse. sappho wants to guide her muse through the inventive use of art, poetry, music, sexuality or any other form of creative expression.

 transits involving sappho highlight common ground between people and accentuate interaction with close friends. 

#1: Accept reality.

Acceptance is crucial to overcoming mental challenges. Instead of fighting negative emotions such as anxiety and stress, it’s vital to accept them for what they are because doing so will actually make their impact on you weaker. Keep in mind that acceptance involves patience and balance much more than indifference or apathy.

#2: Don’t obsess over pleasure.

Doing so puts human beings into an infinite loop of temporary satisfaction that will only keep you wanting more and more short-term pleasure in the long-term. Instead, allow yourself to enjoy life in general, especially when you have the opportunity to simply think to yourself about whatever you enjoy thinking about.


#3: Don’t rely on fleeting feelings or emotions for guidance.

Human emotions are always in some form of transition, so if you base your decisions based on how you happen to feel inside at the moment, then you’re usually not making the wisest decisions possible.

#4: Contemplate the world more than yourself.

A wise Chinese Proverb argues that, “If you want happiness for an hour, take a nap. If you want happiness for a day, go fishing. If you want happiness for a year, inherit a fortune. If you want happiness for a lifetime, help somebody.”


#5: Don’t ever be a slave to desire.

Buddhism reveals that desiring leads to suffering, because when you desire you are inherently dissatisfied with your current state. Instead, be content with existing—and living freely.

#6: Don’t harbour regret.

Quite simply, you can’t change what has happened in the past, so you should instead appreciate that you can learn from the past in order to experience greater happiness, success, and peacefulness in the future.

#7: Don’t harbour jealousy.

Quite frankly, it just isn’t positive or productive. Instead, be happy for other people who succeed, and attempt to learn from them to enhance your own happiness and success.

#8: Accept separation.

You must accept being separated from someone or something before you can genuinely move on—and move forward.

#9: Don’t harbour resentment.

Instead, learn from the situation or circumstances, and take action to ensure that similar experiences in the future will be more positive and less frustrating.

#10: Don’t be a slave to lust.

The feelings and emotions won’t last forever, so focusing on them in the present will only lead to disappointment—and possibly even heartbreak—in the future.

#11: Don’t be a slave to bias.

Having biases will only leave you unprepared for other scenarios which are just as likely to transpire, and it will only cause you to feel disappointment whenever things don’t occur as you’d most prefer.

#12: Don’t imprison yourself in one place.

If you have the opportunity to experience greater happiness, success, and peace somewhere else in the world, you shouldn’t hesitate to embrace moving. By the same token, don’t up and move when you’re perfectly content where you already reside.

#13: Don’t be a picky eater.

Unless you’re being picky about health and nourishment. Aside from that, learn to enjoy a wide variety of different tasting foods (you’ll be more satisfied more often).

#14: Don’t be a slave to possessions.

Instead, eliminate clutter and appreciate having more space to live and breathe in.

#15: Don’t be a slave to tradition.

Respect tradition, but be progressive whenever possible; if something makes the world a happier or better place overall, then do it (regardless of custom).

#16: Don’t use weapons unnecessarily.

Know how to defend yourself—but never intimidate or victimize.

#17: Don’t fear death.

Instead, learn to feel fortunate and privileged for receiving the gift of life, period—in any duration.

#18: Don’t obsess over your legacy.

Enjoy the time that you have to be alive, and do the most amount of good that you can, while you can. Let history decide what your true legacy will be—it will do so whether you try to interfere or not.

#19: Respect Buddha and the gods, but don’t rely on them.

If you can utilize your faith in order to be more productive in life, then do so whenever you’d like. However, be aware that you are responsible for accomplishing what you’re required to regardless of whether or not you receive divine help or energy.

#20: Preserve your honour.

This means always saying and doing what you feel is right.

#21: Learn for a lifetime.

This means that you must continue to learn and grow as a human being every day for your entire life.

#22: Focus on the present.

Live without being distracted by the past or future; as mentioned, you can’t change the past—and the future is constantly becoming the present anyway.

#23: Listen to your inner voice.

Ignoring it, fighting it, and arguing with it will only delay positive and productive action.

#24: Accept what you can’t control.

Refusing to do so will only cause you significantly more frustration and pain than you deserve to experience.

#25: Be conscious of all thoughts, feelings, and actions.

You are responsible for everything you think, say, or do whether you realize what you’re doing or not (so pay attention and act wisely).

#26: Never give up.

Doing so will only make it harder to try once you realize that you have to—and it’s the job that never gets started that always takes longest to finish.

Miyamoto Mushashi 26 rules to make life more enjoyable 🦄

Originally posted by smlyz

At this point in ceratopsian evolution we’ve reached the ceratopsids – the big, elaborately horned and frilled group that includes famous names like Triceratops and Styracosaurus. First evolving from their smaller North American ancestors around 90-80 million years ago, these dinosaurs rapidly diversified and developed a huge variety of different head ornamentations during the last 20 million years or so of the Cretaceous.

Here the family tree gets a little more complicated, with two major subdivisions of the ceratopsids splitting off from a common ancestor: the centrosaurs and the chasmosaurs. We’ll be focusing on the centrosaurs to start off, and moving on to chasmosaurs later in the month.


Ceratopsian Month #09 – Diabloceratops eatoni

The centrosaurs are known mainly from the northern region of western North America (Alaska, Alberta, and Montana) – although a few ranged further south with remains found as far away as Mexico, and one even made it into Asia. They often had prominent spikes on their frills, and many also developed large nose horns or nasal bosses.

Diabloceratops (“devil horned face”) was one of the earliest members of the group, dating to about 80 million years ago in the Late Cretaceous. Discovered in Utah, USA, it was probably around 5.5m long (18′), with a small nose horn, relatively short brow horns, and a pair of long “devil horn” spikes at the top of its frill that inspired its genus name.

Its skull was shorter and deeper than those of its later relatives, and retained a few “primitive” features from its ancestors. It was also the first centrosaur found further south than Montana, and with it being such a basal member it’s possible the group may have actually originated in the southern part of the continent with their descendants dispersing northwards.

Eucritta melanolimnetes, an amphibian-like creature from the Early Carboniferous of Scotland (~335 mya). About 25cm long (10″), it had a mixture of anatomical characteristics similar to baphetid stem-tetrapods, temnospondyls, and reptile-like amphibians, making its exact classification difficult. It’s currently considered to be a close relative of both the baphetids and Crassigyrinus, and it was probably close in appearance to what the common ancestor of all later tetrapods would have looked like.

Its name means “true creature from the black lagoon”, in homage to the 1954 monster movie.

Her Instinct/Imagine Jared Leto is Your Best Friend’s Dad - Chapter 11

Chapter 11 - Homecoming

This chapter was inspired by the song Side to Side by Ariana Grande. Feel free to listen as you read!

Sleep was useless. I was completely restless with thoughts of Mr. Leto crowding my mind: his smoldering eyes as he fumed at me, his crafty hands as they slid across my hips, and his breath against my face….ugh, I couldn’t seem to stop! I just wanted his hands on me, to feel his touch. I missed his kiss against my lips, my neck, my body. I craved him; no, I needed him.

I tossed and turned in the bed, ending in a twisted position on my back. It pained me that this torture was all my fault, too. I stared at the ceiling of my room, blackened by the blanket of darkness. I tried not to make too much noise to wake Allegra up. I could barely maker her outline in the nighttime. She seemed to be sleeping who was peacefully on the air mattress across from me.

I pressed my eyes shut, trying to force sleep to overcome me. Soon, my thoughts drifted to him wishing he was here, just 2 blocks down on Mayfield Street. I drifted into a dreamlike fantasy of sneaking out and going to see him. He’d open the door, no words between us, just impassioned silence. He’d pull me close to him, his scent hypnotizing me as he quickly leads me to his room with our clothes in their respective locations on his bedroom floor. He’d sit me on his lap as he hands roamed my body. His kisses transition form warm to gentle, then rough as he slowly makes his way down my body.

“Kerri..” he’d whisper in my ear. “Kerri….” Over and over…as we let our emotions solely control our actions…

“Kerri!” Allegra whispered urgently, shaking my shoulder.

Even in my fantasies Allegra always manages to get in the way. Can I at least get a break in my own mind?

“Kerri, are you okay? You’re sweating!” she touched my forehead.

“What?” I asked half sleep in disbelief. I try to pull the damp clothes away from my body. Well, the sweat explains a lot considering my dreamful fantasy, but this is bad.

“You think it’s a fever?” She asked worriedly.

“No way!” I yelled. My defense sounding a little too strong. “I just had a…nightmare, that’s all.” I replied softly.

“Let me get you some water and you can tell me all about your nightmare when I get back,” she said as she ran out the room to the kitchen.

Just when I thought this night couldn’t get any worse. Now I have to make up some ridiculous nightmare with whatever little focus I had left. Oh yeah, and at 2:00am. Here goes nothing…

Allegra walked back home to meet her dad when he returned home. Apparently he had an immediate meeting once he returned home. Too bad for me. I desperately wanted to see him.

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On Sunday, my mom, brother and I were in Home Depot searching for this ridiculously hard to find floodlight. We were completely lost or at least that’s what my mom didn’t want to admit.

“Mr. Leto!” Nico squealed as he ran over to him.

It was like the heavens heard my cry. This was just what I wanted.

He ran toward Nico wearing black jeans and a button-downed black top. He left the top three buttons opened, revealing his sweetly trimmed chest. He was smoking.

I dropped my jaw as I took him in. How can a man look this sexy shopping in Home Depot?

He greeted all of us as he walked Nico back to us. He glanced at me and kept his focus on my mom and tried to further button his t-shirt as he greeted her. 

There was no point, his chest was forever imprinted in my mind for other reasons.

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Virtual Insanity | Dick Grayson x Reader

Description: You, being the inventor of the team, create a training program that allows the team to face their darkest and deepest fears. Maybe you made the program a little too perfect.

Words: 1867

Notes: This imagine isn’t based on the song, but if you haven’t heard “Virtual Insanity” by Jamiroquai, GO LISTEN TO IT OH MY GOD. It’s my JAM.

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“I’ll test it first.” You said. Your fingers rapidly type at the holo-screen’s main console, the keyboard and screen casting a light glow of blue against your face. You can see the rest of the team mentally preparing themselves through the blue hologram. You meet eyes with Kaldur, who questions you both with his eyes and his voice, apprehensive,”Are you sure that the holo-room will be successful in it’s job? And are you sure that you want to be the first to test it?”

“I’m sure.” You confirm, sliding away the screens and pulling your gloves on a little tighter. You straighten up and the flock of young heroes gradually silence until your voice is the only one that can be heard. You raise your hands in surrender, displaying the [color] pads of your palms to everyone. You find making eye-contact with Dick is easiest, as being the center of attention has never been something you looked forward too, and he gives you an encouraging nod to begin.

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The Vertex in Synastry and Transits (Part 2)

Jupiter/Vertex
Here the Jupiter person brings a lesson of expansion, luck, optimism, faith, spiritual and perhaps travel life lessons to the Vertex person. Upon first meeting the vertex person may find the Jupiter person quite jovial and very fun to be around. There may be an instant connection revolving around spirituality and philosophy. The relationship can also experience a rapid growth and expansion together not long after meeting. The Jupiter person may present themselves as a spiritual teacher to the Vertex person, teaching and showing them things that expands their perception of the world around them. The Vertex person may meet the Jupiter person overseas or may have to travel long distances to interact with them in person. The Vertex person may see the Jupiter person as a ‘stroke of luck’ by where they didn’t ever expect to meet someone like the Jupiter person, so the Vertex person holds them in very high regard. The Jupiter person may introduce something that feels 'foreign’ to the Vertex person, then altering their perspective and opening their mind to what else they can experience in the world. The Vertex person may find themselves traveling great distances with or for the Jupiter person. There is a mutual feeling of fun and optimism though other connections in the chart will be needed to show a romantic connection.

Transit: Jupiter conjunct or opposing may bring karmic lessons as the ones mentioned above. You may be confronted by a spiritual teacher or guru who opens up your perception to a spiritual practice and/or philosophy that changes your life course. You may suddenly take an overseas trip that expands your perception of life and what you can experience in the world. You may come into contact with someone from overseas that changes your life course. You may unexpectedly come into good fortune or have a sudden stroke of luck. Something may occur that enhances your faith and optimism.

Example: Vertex conjunct Jupiter in cancer. This may bring lessons of expansion and growth in the home and family life. You may unexpectedly buy a house overseas or move location. You may find out a family member is pregnant. You may have a new baby, expanding your family which certainly changes your life course. How does your beliefs resonate with the family? How does your families spiritual beliefs affect you? What can you learn from families overseas? What would it be like to live overseas and how would that change who you are?

Saturn/Vertex
Here we have the heavy karmic energies of Saturn fused with the life changing lessons of the Vertex. Here the Vertex has drawn a person that may make you mature at a rapid rate. Upon first meeting you may have felt like you needed to be an authority figure around this person, guide them and help them achieve their goals (and vice-versa). You may find that Saturn person rather intimidating or even fear them. They may make you feel restricted and/or try to control you and what you do. They may make you feel suppressed and like their word is the only word. They may on the other hand, guide you towards your goals and ambitions and show you how to build and structure things in a way that’s it’s built to last. You may feel restricted around them, but their stern guidance may feel beneficial if you to follow and proceed in your course of action. They could also feel like a natural authority figure over you and you may feel as you have no choice but to work under them. The Saturn person may come into your life completely blocking your life path, so much so you are forced to take a new direction. You may feel determined to evict the Saturn person from your life if you feel like they are holding you down, and their presence is stopping you from doing what you most desire. You may make a life long commitment to them in which completely paves you a new spiritual life path. People who’s Saturn conjuncts your Vertex brings huge karmic lessons that will completely block and/or redirect your life course for better or for worse. Their lessons may not be the most enjoyable but will definitely provoke you to mature and advance quite quickly.

Transit: Heavy karmic lessons for a rather long period of time is indicated with this transit, in the themes mentioned above. If Saturn turns Retrograde over the Vertex, the lessons will be much like the Saturn return, though the lessons will involve other people and will be more focused on redirecting the life path in what you are going to do and where to go in life. You original life plan may become completely blocked, forcing you to change what you are doing and where you are going. These lessons may make you become mature quite quickly. You may be forced to face your fears of something, and if you overdone it, the fear no longer blocks you, allowing you to advanced on your life path. You may be set a long term goal where your entire life is changed and set to work towards achieving this goal.

Example: Saturn Conjunct Vertex in the 7th house in synastry will bring karmic lessons around building a long lasting and stable relationship together. The Saturn person may establish them selves as a type of authority figure in the relationship. The Vertex person will feel strongly committed to the Vertex person and feel that they are who they wish to establish a long life relationship with through marriage. The Saturn person may also take authoritative role as a business leader in a partnership for work. What kind of long term goals does the Saturn person bring in a relationship with them? How solid is your relationship structure with them? Does this feel like a long lasting relationship? How does this person act as an older and wiser guide in the relationship for you?

* For the generational planets, please look at the natal connections in the chart of you have this aspect since all of those born in your generation will have this connection, neutralising the conjunction in synastry.

Uranus/Vertex (+ Transit)
Upon first meeting with the Uranus person, they may feel a sudden uneasiness around them. The Uranus person may seem quite eccentric and different to the Vertex person. They may suddenly arrive into the Vertex persons life, flipping it upside down and turning it inside out. Their suddenly encounter may destabilise the Vertex persons course in life.
In regards to transit, Uranus’ progression over the Vertex will be far more significant, as it will last for several years. The nature of Vertex events and manifestations themselves often feel like a Uranian encounter or transit, so Uranus to the Vertex may bring sudden and unexpected turns on the life path on a grand scale. Depending on the house location, the Vertex person may experience much switching and changing in the life path, which may very well be liberating, bringing new and innovative changes to the Vertex person’s life. Sudden insights of genius concepts and ideas may come rapidly, which may impulsively direct you and your course of action in life. Since Uranus and Vertex energies feel similar in their suddenness, you can expect sudden comings and outgoings faster than you can count or even be impossible to predict.

Neptune/Vertex (+Transit)
This connection in synastry can either cause an overriding sense of romantic connection and infatuation to the Vertex person OR it’s possible that the Neptune person may fly under the radar, not even being noticed by the Vertex person. The Neptune person may project chameleon like energies that allows them to blend into the background of others until they prominently make themselves known to the Vertex person.
The Vertex person may have a difficult time seeing the Neptune person as they truly are, idealising them on first interaction and compromising a fantasy of the two, and it may feel all too easy to lose themselves in the Neptune person. The Neptune person will bring lessons of empathy, spirituality, compassion, unconditional love, ecstasy and possibly addiction to them.
In transit, Neptune brings sudden life changing lessons that can bring great psychic insights and dreams, visions and strange psychic phenomena. It’s possible to reach high forms of enlightenment during this transit as long as the Vertex person doesn’t allow feelings of becoming a victim or martyr if things become difficult or challenging along the way. Themes of addiction and drug/alcohol use and abuse may arise, teaching the Vertex person the need to overcome self sabotaging tendencies and facing reality without fear.

Pluto/Vertex
Here the conjunction if not in the natal chart of the Vertex person will only manifest in large age gaps between the Pluto and the Vertex person. The Pluto person first interaction with the Vertex person may feel instantly transformative and eye opening or it could feel obsessive, possessive and all consuming. The Pluto person may bring drastic changes in the life of the Vertex person, destroying their foundations, forcing them to forge a new path. Lessons of intensity, merging, psychology and possible violence, extremes, abuse and power may manifest to change the Vertex person for better or for worse. The Pluto persons presence may affect the deep subconscious mind of the Vertex person, bringing to the surface self destructive tendencies and fears to be faced and eliminated. Themes of death and rebirth may also change the way the Vertex person feels and sees the manner of death, ether enhancing or eliminating their fears. The Pluto person may also teach the Vertex person about power struggles and dominance. This conjunction can also bring tremendous transformative healing.
(Personal story: My grandfathers Pluto conjunct my Anti-Vertex. He passed away when I was 9. I saw him have power struggles in his relationship with my grandmother and mother where he was always the dominant man. I always had a subtle underlying fear of him, however I was empathetic towards him and a month before his death, we bonded and our friendship managed to transform his hard interiors and allowed him to be more gentle towards my mother and grandmother. His death allowed me to be fearless for I saw his passing as a sense of relief once he had completed his lesson showing me that kindness and compassion can be transformative for both people involved.)
With the transit, all lesson above is a possible manifestation of the Pluto conjunct Vertex. Themes of elimination, transformation, destruction and reconstruction as well as healing, the occult and blind passion can suddenly come into the Vertex persons life to deeply regenerate their path in life.

(Link to Vertex conjunct the nodes and Anti-Vertex)

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Ceratopsian Month #08 – Turanoceratops tardabilis

Turanoceratops (“Turan horned face”) was very slightly younger than Zuniceratops, living about 90 million years ago in the Late Cretaceous. At around 2m long (6′6″) it was another small transitional form very very closely related to the true ceratopsids, but there’s still disagreement about whether it was actually a proper member of that group or not.

Its fossil remains were discovered in Uzbekistan, making it the earliest ceratopsid-like ceratopsian known from Asia rather than North America – and showing that there were still populations of ceratopsians dispersing back and forth between the two continents.

Only fragmentary fossils have been found, so while we know it had large brow horns we don’t know whether it had a nose horn or what the shape of its frill was. So most of the rest of its appearance here is rather speculative.

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KNOW YOUR BATS: Yinpterochiroptera!

Bats, which are mammals of the order Chiroptera, were once divided into two main suborders: Megachiroptera (i.e. Pteropodidae, the Old World Fruit bat family) and the Microchiroptera (literally all other bats). But new genetic evidence shook up this traditional view, as well as debunking the commonly-held belief that bats were close relatives of primates. It turns out they’re an ancient sister group to the one that encompasses carnivores and hoofed mammals, with no close living relatives. Given the fact that their fossil record is scanty, with few transitional forms, the origin of bats is still very mysterious!

Since then, the bat families were organized into two new suborders: Yangochiroptera and Yinpterochiroptera. Above is a visual representation of the six bat families that make up Yinpterochiroptera, and below is a phylogeny of how all these families are related:

What do all these families have in common, besides their DNA? Well, all the families except one emit their echolocation sounds through their noses, which is why they often have fantastic skin extensions- or noseleaves- around their nostrils. The single family that does not do this is of course Pteropodidae, the Old World fruit bat group that includes the flying foxes. It’s believed that Pteropodidae lost their ability to echolocate sometime after they split from the rest of Yinpterochiroptera some 60 million years ago. A single genus within Pteropodidae, Rousettus, regained the ability to echolocate through tongue-clicking.

As for what else they all have in common, the answer is… not much, which was why it was such a surprise to scientists when DNA evidence put them all together. But this evidence has a good deal of support, so we must conclude that these families were exceptionally good at finding different niches.

Next time, we will look at the 13 families within Yangochiroptera, but I have a lot of drawing to do before then…

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I don’t know why, but I caught myself in the mirror after friendsgiving tonight and felt weirdly surreal about the look. Like… it’s so weird to see myself in this mid-transition form. My makeup is coming off and my hair is both my natural hair and a mess…

And yet. I kind of like it. I think I look good. I looked into my own eyes in the mirror, and for once, the person staring back smiled. And something in my heart just felt so right, so light about this look. As if God Themself was saying to me, “This is how you were always meant to be. This is how I designed you. This is what your soul looks like.”

Did I just look through a window to my own soul?

I notice while drilling that people pretty commonly form the hangings incorrectly, or at least, they could form them better.

They are the most important guards in the German tradition, or in the words of the masters in the MS.3227a, “All techniques start and end with the Ort, thus the Hängen and Winden are the begin and the turnings around the centre and many good fencing techniques stem from this.”

The hangings are, of course, the Ochs and Pflug guards. Here are some points about them:

They present a threat and are thus the safest guards.

And however you fence, always turn the point against the face or the chest of the adversary, so he has always to watch out that you do not move prior to him. - MS.3227a

The hangings place the point such that it threatens the opponent. If they wish to “snipe” you or rush in and overwhelm you, they must deal with the point of your sword first. Otherwhise, they will impale themselves.

You can make attacks quickly from them.

Just like as a string would be attached to the point which would pull and turn his point to the nearest opening, as to achieve the thrust. - MS.3227a

The thrust is the fastest way to attack with a sword. When you are in one of the hangings, no time is wasted “setting up” the attack and indeed, if the opponent closes the distance, the guard itself is a threat. If the hanging is properly formed, one need only move their arms forward to drive a thrust.

They are the position from which you make windings.

Who correctly hangs well,
And brings therewith Winding,
-The Zettel

The windings in their most essential form are nothing more than transitions between the hangings while maintaining sword contact. The mechanics of hanging and thrusting remain the same - keep their sword away from you while you “seek” with the point for the opportunity to cause trouble. Forming hangings well while winding gives you more opportunities to exploit openings by ensuring the point passes over the target while transitioning and performing techniques, and reduces the “set-up” time to deliver a thrust when the moment comes.

They are the end-point of attacks.

And from the same strikes come the four displacements from both sides, with these you break and defeat all strikes thrusts or guards and these also lead to the hangings which can be very well be used for artful techniques as you will hear later. - MS.3227a

Ending an attack in a hanging is a fairly fundamental characteristic of Liechtenauer’s longsword. If you read through the plays you will notice that the first and second intent almost always flow together in this way (cut and thrust, cut and wind, cut and mutate, etc) In addition to this, they afford you protection against counter-attack - for more detail on that I have a post about versetzen.


And here are some things I see people not getting down-pat:


The point should be online.

Our sources tell us to aim at the face or breast with the point when we drive a thrust. If we stay online in a hanging, we don’t need to do any extra work to line the point up for thrusts. It also creates an immediate threat to the opponent. As for where exactly to aim the point - I usually find the breast to be a safe bet. The target area is of greater mass than the face and has a lesser range of motion making it harder to void attacks against. The face of course has the advantage of being a higher target and thus easier to reach. It’s fairly contextual and you’ll have to figure that out yourself.

The hilt should be offline.

People often don’t commit to defending an opening and opt to leave their hands (and the hilt) in the centre-line. Since the hangings are shortened, this endangers the torso to “sniping” attacks. It is better to commit to an opening and place the hilt out into that opening. This creates a “wedge” facing the opponent which will deflect incoming blows away from your body.

The crossbar should be in front of your body.

This is espescially important when forming an ochs. The cross is the last line of defense against incoming attack, and in a hanging, it’s usually where the opponent’s attack is going to end. You want their attack to end before it hits you.

Angulation of the crossbar.

This isn’t really detailed in sources, but is a pretty big deal. Your crossbar needs to be positioned such that you can “catch” attacks with it. The best way to hedge your bets seems to be placing the cross on a 45 degree angle with one of the quillons pointing towards your chest. This is again super contextual. If you are planning to scoop an oberhau up and sweep it away you might form a pflug with the crossbar flat. If you are in ochs expecting a zwerchau you might place the cross vertical.

The Evan's reactions to a trans partner

For all my trans*/nonbinary Evan lovers (such as myself), here’s how the various boys would react to you feeling dysphoric/coming out/transitioning and what have you:

Tate: Tater Tot here grew up in a homophobic and most likely transphobic home, so his initial reaction to you saying “I’m trans” would probably not be great. There would be some awkward silence, and you would ask if he was mad. He would say no, shake his head, walk over to you, and grasp your arms kind of firmly. He’d look right into your eyes and say he still loved you, he just needed time to think about this. If it was anyone but you he would’ve probably had an outburst and said something shitty, but he cared for you enough that he would at least try to be a good person and say the right things.

Kit: kit-kat, ultimate sweetheart, would be supportive as ever. The day you decide to tell him, he hugs you close and promises to do his best to help you feel affirmed in your gender. It would be the 50s after all, so he couldn’t do much, but he would buy you new clothes if he could, or he would give you some of his if you wanted them. He would be supportive through thick and thin, always standing up for you if someone used wrong pronouns, trying to fight the law to make things easier for you and other trans individuals, he would just be a great partner and an amazing activist.
(Bonus: if you wanted a haircut, Kit would insist on doing it himself. He would stand behind you in the bathroom and snip away your hair until you were left with a slightly scraggly mop, and e would apologize for not being the best barber and place a soft kiss on the very top of your head, which would probably make you smile.)

Pre-death Kyle: happy go lucky frat boy would hug you tight the day you told him and then proceed to help any way he could. He would be very apologetic if he used the wrong pronouns or wrong name, but he would adapt pretty quickly. Over all else, he would just love you for, well, you. If you ever questioned why he stayed with you or why he still loved you after you came out, he would reply
“Baby I fell in love with you as a human being. You’re just a… comfier human being now. So of course I still love you.”

Post-death Kyle: sweet boy Ky couldn’t do much to help at this point. With his lack of fine motor skills and almost no ability to speak, he would just give you a sort of sad puppy look when you were upset and dysphoric and snuggle up to your side. He would gently paw at you and give off quiet noises until he got the go-ahead to hug you. His arms would wrap around you and he would bury his face in your shoulder. He would try to grunt out a quiet “I love you” but it would end up clumsily said and stuttered so he would just get sad and hold you a little tighter.

Jimmy: Mr darling here wouldn’t care. He would be a bit confused by the concept, since it wasn’t something he had known of, but once you explained it to him, he would just smile and show off those cute dimples of his as he said, “oh, that’s it? That’s just fine… so what pronouns should I use?”
He would be very quick to pick up on a name change or pronouns change. He would start getting things right away. If you ever felt dysphoric he would lay down with you and gently rub your shoulder and say
“You know, you couldn’t have picked a better group ‘a people to be around during this. we’ll all support you, no matter what.” And then he would probably call you ‘doll’ if you liked that.

James: hoo-boy Mr. March would be the ultimate sugar daddy no matter your gender. You want a haircut? You got it. You want top surgery? You got it. You want ffs? You got it. You want your name legally changed? Your wish is his command. James loves fiercely, and anything you wanted, he would get it for you. If you felt dysphoric he would bring you into his arms and press small kisses to your neck and shoulder as he muttered out something like 'you are what you wish to be, dearest. Don’t listen to what others say…“
and oh jeeze if you told him someone in the hotel misgendered you…
“What room are they in darling?”
“James don’t”
“Don’t what, I’m just going to pay them a visit…”
“I can see the fucking knife behind your back.”

Rory: Rory would help you any way he could. If you need a binder, breast-forms, or literally any other transitional thing, he would help you research how to find just the right one for you, and then buy it for you. He would go to pride events with you and reassure you when you felt insecure in your gender with many kisses and affectionate snuggles. And you know this passionate boy would be ready to t h r o w d o w n with anyone who got in your face about lgbtq+ stuff.

Edward: if you weren’t together, Edward probably wouldn’t give two fucks what gender you were as long as you were leaving him alone. If you were together however, he would just start using your correct pronouns without question.

pokeguy946  asked:

Do you have interesting information on Deerling and it's seasonal forms? Oh, and, why don't they change forms with the seasons in Alola/Kalos/Hoenn? Something to do with the climate, I suppose?

Deerling form changes rely on a dramatic and constant shift in the amount of sunlight they receive. Unova is far enough north to prompt the changes, while Alola, Kalos, and Hoenn are close enough to the equator to avoid this. Many Unovan trainers report lack of form transition when their Deerling are boxed for long periods, but getting the Pokémon out in the sun for a bit usually corrects things.

Small Messages (bou din waa zuk)

Last fic for SpiritAssassin Week. Late as usual, because I kinda burned out yesterday & the day before, lol

Thank you everyone for reading. & many thanks to @fyeahspiritassassin for hosting. I had great fun doing this but man I’m so relieved it’s over. this was hands down the most difficult writing thing i’ve done lately.


SpiritAssassin Week 2017
Last prompt: celebrations


There are ghosts in Chirrut’s eyes.

He sees:

colour mostly, or the memory of colour. Jedha City, or the memory of it. When his eyes were still functional, when the world pin-bright broke into seven colours and flipped upright on the screen of his retinas. And that was sight for him.

Nowadays the only eyesight he has are old visuals. He sees with ghost eyes. Useless.

He remembers:

when he was still a novice at the Temple, when the Temple still stood, when his eyesight worked fine, and yet he kept missing things. Muddling up. And Baze would tell him where everything was, where to look.

Where are my prayer beads? In front of you.

Where is the datapad? You’ve been looking right at it for ten minutes.

Where did I put my shoes? You’re practically stepping on them.

I know I left my prayer beads here! You did, and they are still there. What is that saying you always use?

Gwai am ngaan! Ghosts covering  eyes.

When Chirrut lost his eyesight, he said: “Remember what I used to say?”

Baze never found it funny again.


***


The holopad powers up. A buzz. The harsh phosphorescence of the screen makes shadows spatter onto his grey featureless vision. Incoming message.

There is a crackle of interference and then the steady hum of a line. Connection. Nobody speaks. The silence is heavy with a familiar presence.

“You can start,” says Chirrut gently, “by telling me the time.”

“It’s early,” Baze answers. “Your time, that is.”

It’s strange that they’re far enough apart that they can split time between them. Yours and mine. Your half and mine.

“Have you eaten?” says Baze.

Chirrut remembers that he hasn’t. He hums a note in both reply and dismissal.

“Just because I’m not there,” says Baze, testily, “doesn’t mean you can forget to eat. Don’t pine too hard for me.”

“I was going to meditate,” Chirrut says. “There are other types of hunger besides the one that you speak of.”

“Who said anything about hunger? It’s basic self-care. But I forgot you know nothing about that.” There is a clatter of movement from the other side. A hiss and a sputter. Clacking. Something being dismantled. For cleaning. Perhaps a weapon. A shush of air, like an exhaust pipe.

“The Force–,” Chirrut begins.

“–will not feed you. You should eat something.”

Chirrut sighs. “It’s been three years. And you’re halfway somewhere across the galaxy. And you’ve gone right back to your nagging self.”

“I’ve lost count of the years,” Baze says. There is a lie in the falter of his voice. A flinty note of defiance.

“I’m going to meditate.”

“Wait,” says Baze.

Chirrut waits.

“Leave the connection running.”

“I don’t talk much when I meditate.”

“You don’t have to.”


***


There is a festival (there is always a festival) going on in Jedha City and people have begun lighting tapers and burning sticks of incense in the many street braziers.

You’re supposed to do acts of compassion. Pray for the dead. Feed the hungry. People bake bread, boil vats of porridge, distribute food to the homeless, to the pilgrims, to anyone who asks for food.

Chirrut sits beneath an archway on a back lane, running his fingers along the worn beads of his prayer necklace. Sandals shuffle, the scrape of fraying leather. The hems of robes touch his knees and ankles, stray butterflies of fabric. The crowds move and he feels their wingbeats and their edges. The wake of their movement. The rotund vowels of a muezzin’s call. A minaret in the distance. The wind snapping the tarp. The souk, a heaving organic entity of commerce.

There are more unwelcome sounds now. Heavy boots. The presence of Imperials, their conversations in staccato, voices standardised into a nasal flatness by the inbuilt vocoders in their helmets.

Someone presses a roll into his hands and a flask.

“Eat and drink, uncle,” someone says, performing their act of compassion for the day.

Chirrut thinks of Baze. Of course he does.


***


“Are you asleep?” says Baze.

“What do you think?”

“Sorry,” Baze says. “I need sleep.”

His voice is thick, like textile, as though he’s lying in bed somewhere, one corner of his mouth pressed against rough sheets. Perhaps he has lain awake all night. Is it night where he is?

“Will you tell me where you are?”

“On a planet. There’s a lot of water here. Marshes. The speeders here are shaped like dragonflies. I haven’t been dry in days. When I took the job I didn’t know I’d have to become amphibious.”

“The job?”

“Like any other job,” Baze says, evasive.

The connection sputters. But it holds.

“Night time on this planet is longer than Jedha’s nights. About three times as long. People sleep three times as long, too.”

“You should get some now.”

“What is that?” Baze says suddenly. “There, on the side of your face. Turn your face to the left.”

It’s a cut. Healing, though. It must have been just a thin smudge in the holographic display of his face, but Baze’s sharp eyes had caught it.

“I was cornered,” Chirrut admits. “In a cul-de-sac. By five Imperials.”

Baze swears. “You took on five Imperials without backup?”

“The Force was with me.”

“Of course it was.” Baze scoffs. “So you had no backup. You idiot.”

“So says the true fool, who is faithless,” Chirrut shoots back. “So gwaa.”


***


Chirrut passes through the forms of zama-shiwo, ghost-eyed, with the slow silk movement of his arms and legs. There is no end or beginning to the forms. Perpetual transition. Keep your mind still. Absolute. Nucleatic. The body is not yours. The body is your environment. You are part of a larger body. Only the negligible pinprick of Chirrut’s mind shimmers, edged with feelers, hungry for messages, for a grid of sense.

The sun, he remembers, is frail and dewy, angling away like errant vapour from the domes and the glittering mosaics in the murals. Useless light:  the city’s solar dishes had to coax heat out of it, old, old dying light.

But now that his mind and his body are sharp with the recent practice of zama-shiwo, he can feel the sun’s heat, amplified. The sun is a hot salty coin at the back of his throat when he tips his face upward. Sunlight is swallowing metal. The scrape of thirst.

Where Chirrut is standing on this rooftop, he should not be able to feel this much warmth. Not at this time of the day, because this time of the day, the shadow of the Temple would have stretched over it, blotted out the sun.

The spire of the Temple is no more, though. And its shadow fled with it.


***


The holopad buzzes as Chirrut puts the porridge to boil on the portable stove.

“Look,” Chirrut says when the transmission comes through, “I’m eating. Or at least I’m going to.”

Baze makes a noise of approval on the other end. There’s silence for a bit.

“There was–” Baze begins. And then changes his mind. “This marshland planet, it’s got a very high evaporation capacity. Whole lakes can vanish in days. Then it will rain and rain somewhere else until there are floods, and there’ll be a new lake. All within such a short span of time. They call this the planet of Leaping Lakes.”

Chirrut imagines it. The transient landscape of it. The lakes leap faster in his mind, faster than Baze, slogging through marshes that dry out as he walks, his skin old and cracked from sand. Unamphibious. Dragonfly speeders zipping over dead reed beds.

“I had to–the job involved–,” Baze begins.

“You don’t have to tell me,” Chirrut says. “About the jobs that you do. I can hazard a guess. Or three.”

“What if I want to talk about them?”

“Then tell me how you’ve changed. How they’ve changed you.”

The porridge boils over. Chirrut hisses and Baze lets out a long, slow sigh. Too long and slow to be sincere.

“Your fault,” says Chirrut testily. The porridge has thickened into a layer that clings to the bottom of the pot. A skin of rice. Carbon bitter.


***


Baze fled not long after the Temple was sacked.

“I will never put on those vestments again,” Baze told Chirrut all those years ago. “They have been burnt.”

Chirrut reeled. He’d known the slow crumble of Baze’s faith. But still. “I won’t let you. You can’t go. You are the most devoted of all the Guardians.”

The words broke out of him, splinters of pleas.

“Then come with me,” said Baze. “The Temple is gone. The kyber crystals are gone. There’s nothing sacred here any longer.”

“The Force is still here.”

“Yes it is,” Baze started to walk towards the gates of the Temple. Across the half-uprooted courtyard. “The Force is here and there and everywhere and it is dead. We breathe in its deadness every day. We celebrate its death in the deaths of everyone else. So. Are you coming?”

Chirrut steeled himself. “A match.”

Baze laughed. “I’m not a Guardian. I don’t play with sticks any longer.”

“If you beat me, you can go. You can leave.”

“And you’ll come with me.”

Chirrut didn’t say anything.

“Fine. Just to humour you, then,” Baze said.

They sparred in that ruined courtyard and Chirrut won.

He brought Baze to the ground, kicked his knees in, elbowed his throat and slammed his staff into Baze’s abdomen.

Baze lay on the ground, panting. How Chirrut would have liked to straddle him, lick away the blood from his teeth. He’d hit Baze on the jaw.

“Well,” said Baze. “I guess I stay, then.”

Chirrut hated the hostility of his laughter. He put the end of his staff at Baze’s neck, tipped his chin upwards.

“No,” Chirrut said.


***


“Are you still angry at me?” Baze asks. The sound of thunder in the background. But not thunder. Just a downpour in the marsh planet, in some distant corner of the galaxy.

The generator in the room that he lives in is old. It rattles. It smells like breath. There are probably small dead things caught beneath its casing, things like rodents and moths, fossilised inside.

“No,” Chirrut says. “Are you?”

“Not at you. Never at you.”


***


There are countless things to be celebrated in Jedha City. Apart from the big festivals. There are weddings, births, engagements, various milestones of growth. Deaths, sometimes, depending on what you believe in. Seasonal shifts. Phenomena like rain.

The Imperials have put a damper on many of the Holy City’s festivals, and declared that permits need to be granted for the rest.

But here’s the thing about people: they remember. They remember when celebrations are due, when rituals start calling to them, feast days notched into their internal calendars. The secret way which they measure time within themselves.

And so people find other reasons for celebration. New acquaintances. Extra rations. Finding lost things. Finding lost people. And so on.

The reasons for celebrating anything become smaller and smaller. Until Chirrut finds himself rejoicing at coins on the street. Or coins in an alms bowl. A call of a bird far out beyond the city walls. Clean washing brushing against his face as he wanders through the alleyways and courtyards. A day without the sound of blaster fire in some quarter of the city or other. A memory, an old visual of the inner sanctum of the Temple, stored in his ghost eyes. Still vivid. Preserved even after the destruction of the building.

He goes home in the evening, his stomach a whorl of hunger. The pot with the burnt crust of porridge is still sitting on the stove. The smell is thick and disheartening. Outside, wind. Sand scours the window.

The sting of saline. There are ghosts in his eyes. And sometimes they weep.

But then. Then he remembers something. He reaches for the holopad. Trusts in the Force. Prays for connection.

A crackle and a hum. There is transmission. There is a line, the thinnest thread across the galaxy, but steady. It feels like a celebration.


***


“I was finally getting some sleep,” Baze grumbles. But it’s a glad sound. Relief to be woken from the lonely press of sleep.

“So,” says Chirrut, “when are you coming home?”

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bou din waa zuk - literally translates to ‘boil telephone porridge’. means when you talk for hours on the phone. except there are probably no phones in R1