forgive and forget, you won't care about this in ten years
me, using my witch-like talons to chisel away tablets from the walls of the dark salt cave i live in, etching the names and grievances of my enemies into the stone like a petty Moses, so my children and my childrens’ children and their children will forever know who crossed me and exactly how it happened:
As a Pisces, you can be selective with your memory. Forgetting some of the stuff you do not find important and remembering things you find important even if they are just trivial. You surprise people with how much you remember, and you can forgive those that have hurt you by letting go through forgetting.
Letting go of anger, bitterness, resentment and hate towards others is the not a weakness - it is in fact the strongest, most empowering thing you can do for yourself.
No matter how heinous what was done to you was I guarantee you thinking negative thoughts will not harm that person in any way, shape or form… the only person it hurts is you. You’re not giving them a free pass to hurt you again… You don’t have to forgive or forget - but let go of the negativity. It’s like trying to kill your enemy with a poison you drink yourself.
And yes, sometimes those negative emotions will be hard to give up because they gave you the strength to keep fighting when you had nothing else to keep you going… but one day when you’re ready - letting those feelings go will be the greatest gift you can give yourself. Because ultimately, you’re freeing yourself of the power that person has over you by not letting them continue to hurt you psychologically anymore. And more importantly – you’re not letting them change you from a positive person into a negative one. So get them out of your mind, they’re not worthy of the emotional energy you’re focusing on them. Perhaps they deserve what you’re wishing for them to receive… but your thoughts and emotions aren’t punishing them - only yourself. Ultimately the happiness they took from you is a more worthy cause to fight for…. and it’s time to take it back!
It’s no easy task being an ordinary parent to an extraordinary child. I failed in that task. And because of my prejudices, I failed you. I am haunted by how things might have turned out differently if I had been more willing to hear your side of things. For me, it’s the end. For you, a chance to grow old and someday do better with your own child than I did with mine. It’s for that child that I give you my ring. I don’t ask for your forgiveness or for you to forget. I ask only that you believe this: whether you are now reading this as a human or as a vampire, I love you all the same, as I’ve always loved you and always will.
Just wait. No matter what just wait. Find something to keep you busy. Read a book. Write some poetry. Watch a Neflix series. Go for a walk. Sleep for 12 hours. Cook a 5 course meal. Anything to kill time while you wait. Wait for a certain amount of time. 2 months. 5 months. A year. Something. And whoever can live without you during that time, can do it from now on. You deserve better.
“Elena, it’s no easy task being an ordinary parent to an extraordinary child. I failed in that task. And because of my prejudices, I failed you. I’m haunted by how things might have played out differently if I’d been more willing to hear your side of things. For me, it’s the end. For you, a chance to grow old and someday do better with your own child than I did with mine. It’s for that child that I give you my ring. I don’t ask for your forgiveness or for you to forget. I ask only that you believe this. Whether you are now reading this as a human or as a vampire, I love you all the same. As I’ve always loved you, and always will.” - John