forever-in-the-future

To the maladaptive daydreamers who believe they’re never going to get a stable job or fall in love or live life to the fullest like other people,

- There are so many years ahead of you and so many opportunities for things to improve. You will not be stuck here forever.
- You can’t ever tell what will happen in the future. Your situation is not hopeless.
- Your daydreams, when they aren’t sad or violent, give you an idea of what you want from life. That is a strength. Not everybody knows what they want.
- It will take effort, it might take some disappointments, but in time you will figure out your priorities in reality and your own way of achieving them, despite the things that hold you back.
- Even if things don’t work out, there is always a plan B.
- You will be okay.
- One day you will look back and wonder what you were ever worried about.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.