forever the sun

I’m not sure why
I’m not sure how
not sure what
brought you to me
but all I can say
is between you and me
I’ll love you darling
til last I breathe.
And I will lie
here with you,
forever forgetting
the sun as it sets.
For you are my star
and you are my home.
I’ll love you, love you
for ever and ever.
I’m not one for promises but
I’m sure of you
so I don’t mind so much.
And here with you
is where I’ll be
and where I’ll always
want to stay.
I love you, dear
and please don’t forget
that my love for you
knows no bounds.
Constellations on your skin,
a thousand lights
I always love,
like you
like you
oh my dear
I love you so.
—  3/27/17 5:57 AM, I love you

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.